FORBIDDEN LOVE - DAJANA DIVERNO

Her father was in charge of the part of the mafia that worked with the marihuana. Donatela had the impression that during those days he learned everything there is to know about the marihuana.
It was a very hard period for her. Once, in the cemetery, Donatela looked at her father's photo, wondering how she could not have known her own father. She was full of anger.
- AND? - she said, looking at the photo. What should they call me now? The queen of the marihuana. It is my part of the inheritance - her hand began to tremble. She put it in her pocket.
She was not proud.


She knew it would be easier, if Andrés were with her. When Cesar visited her, she wanted to ask him how he killed the bodyguard. But she said nothing. She knew that anyone could do that, not just Cesar. Andrés was also a professional assassin, so he had many enemies. She read the newspapers, but there was no news about Andrés's death. She was trying to find out something about the body of an unidentified man, but that was useless. There were many unidentified victims.
She felt helpless. In that period nightmares began and she could not sleep in peace. She was tired from so much studying, from her thoughts, from so much work. But there was no one she could talk to about all that.
Occasionally she was in front of the window, looking at the street, remembering her old house, those fountains, her parents and her brother. Occasionally she cried to free herself from the pain.
Cesar was visiting her. He always looked at everything carefully.
Donatela felt no peace when he visited her. Memories killed her just like feelings he aroused. That was the most difficult thing, feeling everything and not being able to talk to him. Those were not the feelings of friendship. How do you look at it? As a black angel who must save her?
But why?
That was a mystery to her. Was she wondering if there are women like her who love a man but can't speak to anyone about that love?
- You spend too much time alone - said Cesar once.
- I like to spend my time like this. After everything that happened to me, I feel better when I'm alone.
- That is not healthy.
He wanted to tell her that they are very different, but he said nothing. They sat in the dining room and she looked at documents that he brought. The documents described her father's work.
- Thank you. But this is the best for me - she took those documents - I hope that changes - she tried to imagine herself next to another man in a wedding dress with children. She knew very well that while Cesar was in her life, she could not love another man. She belonged to him, but that was an impossible love. She thought it will be easier in twenty or thirty years.
- I don't want something bad to happen to you.
- Thank you for your concern - she remembered Ramírez. Was there a difference between them? No. They both looked at her as an object they must possess. Both in different ways.
She didn't say anything about that love and her feelings. He is only here to teach her how to survive in that world.


The following day she accepted Giovanni Ramírez's call to go out with him. They went to a new restaurant in the city center.
- This is a friend's restaurant of mine - he explained as they got out of the limousine. It is a luxurious place. It had a red carpet and statues. A place for the elite.




*Roman ''Zabranjena ljubav'' je u preveden na engleski jezik, lekturu teksta je uradio novinar Miodrag Radojčin, a takođe tekst će dodatno još jednom biti pregledan radi eventualne korekture. Objavljivanje na egleskom jeziku se očekuje najverovatnije u junu 2020 godine. Do sada je ovo jedan od najprevođenijih Dajaninih romana, a prevodio se na: engleski, španski, nemački, francuski, italijanski, norveški, portugalski, a manji deo je i na mađarskom jeziku.