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Opis bloga
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mTn_v08ZJEM


"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering,
known strle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”

Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

“Being with him when he died was something I will never forget. His bravery. His happiness. His acceptance. It was a colossal experience for me. Changed my life completely in a way that I had not expected. I expected to feel sad and lost. But I felt the opposite. Just, like, ‘Boy, this is it. This is all we have. Right here. So you’d better pay attention.’”

Laurie Anderson and Lou Reed


“To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power.
Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget… another world is not only possible, she is on her way.
On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing."

Arundhati

“I hope you will go out and let stories, that is life, happen to you, and that you will work with these stories... water them with your blood and tears and your laughter till they bloom, till you yourself burst into bloom.”

Clarissa Pinkola Estés


“May the sun bring you new energy by day, may the moon softly restore you by night, may the rain wash away your worries, may the breeze blow new strength into your being, may you walk gently through the world and know it’s beauty all the days of your life.”
Apache Blessing


“I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edges
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.
This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
of your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.

And I will not be afraid
of your scars.

I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.”

Clementine von Radics





Linkovi
vidrinsmijeh@gmail.com

SarahBernardht
04.05.2018., petak
Zapisi iz očeva doma

Tata je bio par dana u bolnici.
Stentovi, čiščenje žila, premosnicu još ne bi, nije spreman. Mama se pomalo oporavlja od strganih rebara.
Imamo malu farmu i brdo cvijeća. I više familija kanarinaca s mladima u gnijezdu.
I trave..uhh trave! Tata ne da kosit bilo kome, jer taj netko samo će mu posjeći male ukrasne grmove ili napraviti neku drugu ogromnu štetu.
Moji su roditelji jake ličnosti.
Tata voli ptice i životinje.
Mama obožava cvijeće.
Za ništa od navedenog više se nisu u stanju pobrinuti u potpunosti. Pa ni za sebe.
Imaju preko 80.
Moji hobiji nisu cvijeće i životinje.
Ja volim pisati, čitati, izlaziti i plesati.



Ovih dana, od jutra rana, hranjenje, čiščenje, pojenje, zalijevanje, ručak, briga oko mame. Sve je imalo svoj red. Svoje vrijeme.
I sve je bitno. Vrlo meditativno iskustvo.
Uzela sam par dana novog godišnjeg, jer bolovanje nemreš dobit za roditelje. Kad me mama plačuć pitala, da kaj bu ona sada sama..znala sam da ne bu.
Taj dio ako ste se pitali gdje sam.



Neki dan našla sam pred kokošinjcem krepanu kokoš. Još sam se čudila zakaj pernata ekipa u 20.00 ne ide spat ko inače.
Pa sam zaključila da ni kokoši ni patke ne idu preko leševa.
Ko u filmu strave i užasa, još je i grmilo i sijevalo i pljuštilo.
Pijetao mi nije dao približiti se lešu svoje koke. Doslovce me napadao. Uzlijetao. Baš je bio srčan i odan. Srećom, otjerala sam ga i zaplašila batinom, sva onakva unezverena i mokra od kiše.
Svi su bili u panici. Uključujući i mene. Posumnjala sam da ju je priklao susjedin ptičar.
Bilo je to isto popodne nepoznato govance u travi. To ne smijem reć starom.
Kak redovito i inače komuniciram s njima, imala sam talačku krizu u kokošinjcu.
Mirnim i lažno smirenim glasom, objašnjavala sam kukurikavcu da je uginula jer je bila debela i stara, te da oni svi sad moraju ić leć. Onda sam se sjetila da oni ne leže dok spavaju, pa sam se i ispravila.
Kiša je malo jenjala, truplo sam uspjela prebaciti lopatom dalje iz njihovog vidokruga. Pa lopata i zakopavanje tamo niže dolje u vrtu. Ko pravi ubojica. Vrt, mrak, kiša, lopata i ja.
Vrlo meditativno iskustvo.



Tata se vratio iz bolnice.
Moram vidjet kako mu reć za kokoš.


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