It was nice to spend some time with entire class of english languague students, they reminded me that i need to practice 2. But that day, all i was practicing is how to lift a glass. Ok, it was a day for raising a toast or how to say it in plural, but when i think of it, it is much better not to count. It was little boys first birthday and it is always a joyful occasion, but on such occasions if you are a single minority you have to enjoy a number of questions that are sort of cheerful nature and mostly contain words like when and why and what are you waiting for. I know that i should say that i know where my heart is and that i hope to take her by the hand  and if she says that it is ok everything is going to be all right, but i do not feel so free to say it just like that. But i'm doing it here, is it the same.....i was thinking what if i said that i wish i was Conan who has proven himself with a sword, but that is just a comic book character, then i remembered that i'm more like Lars Lindstrom......silly thoughts in every way, not some serious thoughts as i should be thinking, so i just lifted a glass. At least, i drink like a barbarian, it is not somethig to be proud of, but somehow i always end up being last at the table. And then it is always long journey home so one must take a brake. Then all kind of thoughts start blinking around, what if those aliens really are walking around and abducting people, if they would be so kind to take me for a ride and, i do not know, what if they scanned me, what would they see ? Am i a greedy little shit or some other lowlife kind or am i someone who is not so bad....hope that i would be ok, but all i can do is try to be some kind of normal being if it is possible. Normal being maybe do not drink so much, but than again, what are weekends for. I think that i'm going to take at least one weekend for some books 'cause im feeling that i'm getting dumber every second. I just have to stop asking myself all those questions and live, i know that.

trebo sam pitat onu studentariju kako se na engleskom kaže papučar, jer eto jedne papučarske..