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Oh, moja draga, moja draga.

Ružica je željela da joj prevedem najdraže djelove iz 'brujos-knjiga' kako ih ona zvaše :)
Nisam dospjela..tek onaj crtić, a i to mislim da je bilo kasno, taj dan kad sam joj postala prijevod je prešla, draga moja.Nije to vidjela.

Na njezinoj FB stranici bila je ( i još je) hrpa stvari koje je voljela, ja sam si odabrala što se meni od toga svidjelo, za uspomenu, da me sjeća na nju,i da pregledavam u miru,ponekad... i tako, skroz nenamjerno, počeše meni stizati citati iz brujos -knjiga, sa stranice C.Castaneda hahaha.... nisam ja dala njoj ,nego ona meni.

Evo jedan koji mi se naročito svidio u posljednje vrijeme ....
u stvari dva


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" Everything is energy. The whole universe is energy. The social base of our perception should be the physical certainty that energy is all there is. A mighty effort should be made to guide us to perceive energy as energy. Then we would have both alternatives at our fingertips.
To train people in such a fashion is possible and this is precisely what I am doing with you. I am teaching you a new way of perceiving, first, by making you realize we process our perception to fit a mold and, second, by fiercely guiding you to perceive energy directly. This method is very much like the one used to teach us to perceive the world of daily affairs.
Our entrapment in processing our perception to fit a social mold loses its power when we realize we have accepted this mold, as an inheritance from our ancestors, without bothering to examine it.
To perceive a world of hard objects that had either a positive or a negative value must have been utterly necessary for our ancestors' survival. After ages of perceiving in such a manner, we are now forced to believe that the world is made up of objects.
It is unquestionably a world of objects. To prove it, all we have to do is bump into them. We are not arguing that. I am saying that this is first a world of energy; then it's a world of objects. If we don't start with the premise that it is a world of energy, we'll never be able to perceive energy directly. We'll always be stopped by the physical certainty of the hardness of objects.
Our way of perceiving is a predator's way. There is another mode, the one I am familiarizing you with: the act of perceiving the essence of everything, energy itself, directly.
To perceive the essence of everything will make us understand, classify, and describe the world in entirely new, more exciting, more sophisticated terms. Terms that correspond to sorcery truths, which have no rational foundation and no relation whatsoever to the facts of our daily world but which are self-evident truths for the sorcerers who perceive energy directly and see the essence of everything." (The Art of Dreaming)


i još


Infinity is everything that surrounds us: the spirit, the dark sea of awareness. It is something that exists out there and rules our lives.
My steps and yours are guided by infinity. The circumstances that seem to be ruled by chance are in essence ruled by the active side of infinity: intent. What put you and me together was the intent of infinity. It is impossible to determine what this intent of infinity is, yet it is there, as palpable as you and I are. Sorcerers say that it is a tremor in the air. The advantage of sorcerers is to know that the tremor in the air exists, and to acquiesce to it without any further ado. For sorcerers, there's no pondering, wondering, or speculating. They know that all they have is the possibility of merging with the intent of infinity, and they just do it. - The Active Side of Infinity'

***'cause you are***

Dvadesetipeti

Draga,
nema te sedam dana.
Ponekad se pitam je li to samo neka bolesna šala, zamišljam da izvodiš ultra-neukusnu-ćuknutu psinu.....da nam se svima skrivaš.
hm.
Pitala si što je pobogu pinca, pinca je kolač od dizanog tijesta, koji mi nikada ne uspijeva. Naraste on dobro, ali ništa ne valja u mojoj izvedbi. Kako si? Mislim da je sada odlično vrijeme za telepatske razgovore, po dogovoru :)
Kupila sam kremu za lice, zato jer na njoj piše 'lily and tomato', od Himalaye...ne mogu za sebe smisliti bolji spoj biljaka. I to mi je zvučalo kao neka šala.
Izašao je ,draga, novi Coldplayev album...ima divnih pjesama.
Na poslu su i dalje svi onakvi kakvima si ih okarakterizirala.
Skuhala sam džem od jagoda, od pet kila. Sa zvjezdastim anisom,klinčićem i vanilijom.
Nema pristojnog naziva za tu divotu.
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Puse od mene!

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Moje Ružice više nema.

Moje prijateljice.

Moje drage koja je samnom dijelila ovo samotno čudno mjesto.

Dom nekog još skrivenijeg djela mene.

Ima tih djelova puno.

Najviše će mi nedostajati njezino razumijevanje, štogod ja učinila ili rekla.

Njezina neuvjetovana ljubav i privrženost.

Njezino prihvaćanje mene.

Njezina vlastita borba sa nemogućim uvjetima življenja, pokušaj mirne koegzistencije njezinog tijela koje nije surađivalo sa Životom i njezinog duha koji je živio punim plućima, radostan i svjetao.

A kako je pametna bila.

I skromna.

Uzorna.

Nikada nije imala priliku ići u školu.

Željela je doživjeti ljubavnu vezu, pravu, emotivnu i fizičku.

Nije stigla.

Prije sat i deset minuta,počeo je njezin posljednji ispraćaj,već leži u grobu.

Ljuba moja.

Plačem sebično nad sobom, a ne nad njom , jer mi nedostaje.

Nikada mi više neće doći i napisati 'bok'.

Uvijek će živjeti u mome srcu.

Oslobođena moja draga, ona koja zna kako prijelaz izgleda.

Nadam se da me čeka, kao što se i ja radujem njoj.

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