Broj puta da sam danas pomislila na njega: bezbroj

Osjećam se kao Bridget Jones kada broji cigarete i cugu koju popije na dan. Ali zbilja, mislim da ne znam brojati do tog broja koliko puta sam danas, uz sve obveze i sve pozitivne i vesele stvari i događaje, pomislila na njega. Ne razmišljam dugo, ali dovoljna je jedna najmanja misao. Što više mislim na njega to ću manje moći izdržati provesti svoju odluku u djelo. I svaki put kad pomislim na njega, odmah si kažem "Ne radi to. Budi jaka. Ne vrijedi tolike muke."
Hm, pa valjda je sve OK dok se tako budem maltretirala autosugestijom. I dok budem zaokupljena poslom. I dok budem imala puno hobija. I dok bude zanimljivih emisija na TV-u. I dok bude zanimljivih mjesta za izlaske. I dok budem imala volje trenirati. I dok budem imala volje pričati sama sa sobom.
Ali, uvijek prokleto ALI, kada legnem u krevet... u mislima zaspem s njime... i nema te autosugestije koja će me izliječiti...

Možda mi je prevelik korak da se "izliječim" kompletno odjednom... možda mogu krenuti preko dana, ali noć ću još malo provoditi s njime... samo još malo...

A kakve veze to ima s vukovima? Ma samo jedna pjesma kojom si vraćam snagu...

You make me angry, you drive me crazy
The more I care for you the more I'm over you
You make me feel pain, you make me love in vain
The more I'm getting close the more I walk away

I want it back hey-hey, don't wait for me hey-hey
Hey this is it now, hey this is it now
I'm on a track hey-hey, don't look for me hey-hey
Hey this is it now, hey this is it now

I'm not gonna cry, I'll stay in the woods
When my heart is aching I'll dance with the wolves
I'm not gonna try to mess with my roots
When my heart is breaking I'll dance with the wolves

You think you know me, think you control me
The more you're feeling right, the more you're going wrong
Don't say you got me, you don't know anything about me
The more you make me weak the more I'm getting strong
My way

I want it back hey-hey, don't wait for me hey-hey
Hey this is it now, hey this is it now
I'm on a track hey-hey, don't look for me hey-hey
Hey this is it now, hey this is it now

I'm not gonna cry, I'll stay in the woods
When my heart is aching I'll dance with the wolves
I'm not gonna try to mess with my roots
When my heart is breaking I'll dance with the wolves