Pieces of my non-existing kingdom
23.02.2007., petak
 I am just a little girl thinking that she has a wings, I am just a confused girl not understanding many things... I am just a little girl living in her fairytale, but whenever I try to fly, somehow I just always fail... I am just a little girl that is for her prince still waiting, I am just a naive girl that believes in happy ending...  "I waited for the light to come to change my life, to change my life, but I am blind, my faith is gone, I'm finding out the good book was wrong... And I must face that I won't be saved... And you can pray, but I won't be saved..." |
22.02.2007., četvrtak
 Roses are white, roses are red, so fucking red from the blood I bled. I was bleeding for you, but now the bleeding is through, and I'm gonna clean the roses with memories of you. Roses are red, roses are white, it still isn't time for my bloody suicide...  |
18.02.2007., nedjelja
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"A year passed by and I'm alright... I lick the salt from my wounds and run into the night..."  Step by step, I'm slowly going up, thread by thread, I'm sewing my wounds shut.... Hour by hour, and I'm getting better, rock by rock, I'm building up my castle higher... Little by little, I'm cleaning up the mess, day by day, I finally care less and less...  |
14.02.2007., srijeda
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Her walls were broken. Her kingdom has fallen to the ground. She was standing in the ruined reality of her dreams. Thousand of broken pieces were lying under her bare feet. She was standing in the middle of her everything that suddenly turned into nothing. But, she was happy. Happy just because she was able to love... She didn't know if she'd be able to build up her kingdom again. But she did know her princesses would help her to try... In that broken night, she was happy. She closed here eyes, wondering if the next morning will leave happiness with her, or will the bloody sunrise erase it... But, she had no doubts about one thing... it is way better to be killed by love, but to stay alive with no love at all... You can love without being happy. But you can't be happy without love.  "Is it so hard to believe our hearts are made to be broken by love, that in constant dying lies the beauty of it all, my darling, won't you feel the sweet heaven in our endless cry..." |
13.02.2007., utorak
 Let's play spin the scissors around the finger, on the place they fall, I cut... Spin, spin, spin the scissors, around, around, around the finger, where they fall, I cut... I'll cut!!! Look at the blood, see your reflection, do you see how broken you are, cos I can't see how broken I am... But I am... I can feel it under my fingers, I feel it, just like you see it, don't touch me, I could fall apart!!! Leave me... just leave me... I'm breaking slowly... so slowly... . . . . . . ... And in my decadance, I'm not waiting for you... Only for my final fall... But in the meantime... would you like to play spin the scissors with me? I would even let you cut me one time... Let's play it... On the place they fall, we cut... I cut...  |
09.02.2007., petak
 I'm gonna scream you a lovesong, and I'll bleed you a loveletter, he can love you, but I can do it so much better! My screams will be your lullaby, and my bloody letters a bed-time story, you can love him, but you'd be better off loving me! Because I am a lovesong that's playing forever for you, and I'm screaming out my love like no one else can do!...  |
03.02.2007., subota
 Would you like to come for a cup of tea, it's a cup of blood freshly squeezed out of me... Would you like to drink it, because it is my last blood for you, I hope you'll enjoy it, now I have to say goodbye to you... And sincerely I hope that my blood won't be spilled again, but in case it will, I'm sending you an invitation then, another invitation for a cup of tea, another cup of bitter blood you squeezed out of me...  "I wanted to heal me and then destroy the world, I wanted to be that, to be that special girl!!!" |
