Pieces of my non-existing kingdom
22.06.2008., nedjelja
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 If we don't care, then why are we crying, if we're eager to live, why are we dying, if it is over, why doesn't it feel like that, if we're not crying, why are our faces all wet?... Well, these are not tears, it's just a summer rain, it's never over if you can still feel pain, we are only living so that we could die, even if we do not care, we're allowed to cry...   |
20.06.2008., petak
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Running down my cheek... So small and so harmless. Painless... It doesn't hurt. It doesn't matter. This way is better. It's time to wake up.    Wash out colorful dreams and wake up in colorless reality. |
17.06.2008., utorak
  "And it's just not fair that it wont get better..." Time just broke the promise to ease the pain...  |
09.06.2008., ponedjeljak
  All the little shatered pieces are getting back together. And for now... I won't bother myself with the future. And for this moment... I am just happy. |
07.06.2008., subota
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Razapeta između dva svijeta. Izgubljena kao jos nikada do sada. Vise ne znam sto zelim. Vise ne znam sto radim. Vise ne znam kuda idem…  Pa stojim. Stojim dok se oba moja svijeta ruse na mene. Mirno stojim sa suzama u ocima i cekam neku pomoc. Ni sama ne znam kakvu... Cekam. Stojim. Plačem.  Koliko cu jos dugo biti pritisnuta izmedu ovih zidova? Koliko cu se jos dugo boriti protiv sebe?   In the end, I know, I will lose everything… and everyone…   "Cos you were from the perfect world, a world that threw me away today..."  Maybe one way ticket down is the only way... |
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Ne znam uvjeravam li sebe ili njih… Ne mogu. Jednostavno ne mogu…  Oruzje koje mrzim. Oruzje koje mi treba. Oruzje bez kojeg ne mogu. Tako je jednostavno rijesiti ga se. Tako jednostavno komplicirano.   Rutina iz koje ne mogu izaci. Vjeciti strah. Istodobno vjecita sigurnost, skroviste kojem se uvijek mogu vratiti.   Manje boli ako si ti sam taj sto si nanosi bol…   "I lose myself in all these fights, I lose my sense of wrong and right, I cry... Shaking for the pain that's in my head..." |
