Pieces of my non-existing kingdom
31.01.2007., srijeda
"I can see that I am losing joy of life…" Nothing's fine, Nothing, But would it be If I'd slice my veins??... Nothing's fine, Nothing, But would it be If on my sleeves I'd see blood stains??... Everything went wrong, Everything, Maybe my blood can fix it… Everything went wrong, Everything, It wont be fine as long as I wont bleed… Yeah, I'll bleed to the death, I'll Save myself, Because I didn't get Your promised help…  "Why have you forsaken me in your eyes, forsaken me in your thoughts, forsaken me in your heart, forsaken me... ... Trust in my self-righteous suicide..." |
28.01.2007., nedjelja
 Did you know, arms are not the only part of body, there's so much more that eyes cant see... Did you know, silence can say everything, words just can not express the real meaning...  "Close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by, there is no time asking why..."  |
24.01.2007., srijeda
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"Cos nothing's good, I can't explain, I'm falling down and caught up the rain..."  I'm so pretty in my red-blood coat, do you like me now, my face is full of silver traces from tears, it's my new make up, do you like me now, the hundred wounds I made for you are pouring the blood all over my body, wraping the red coat around me, so do you like me now, do you like me now, I have a present for you in my pocket, but sorry, it's empty, cos I already gave you my heart, but don't you like me now, don't you like me now???! I made my bloody coat just for you... why don't you like me now...??  |
23.01.2007., utorak
 In my dreams you saved me, in reality you killed me, you were my prince, came on white horse, you didn't have to knock, I just opened my doors, so now, here I stand, two roads in front of me again, one road, my dreams, that's where you kissed me, and other road, reality, well, that's where you stabbed me...  "I won't be fine, as long as I'm dreaming a reality..."  |
21.01.2007., nedjelja
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No body cares... I dont care... Sorry... but I dont care... I loveed you... but I dont think you cared... ...  So...would you????  |
20.01.2007., subota
 Stafeta: 1. Ljudi za mene trebaju imati puno strpljenja i shvacanja. Moraju znati moje trenutke. Divim se onima koji mogu shvatiti. Koji ne mogu…njih pokusavam shvatiti. Jer smatram da me svi moraju shvacati… :-) Puno razumijevanja za mene… 2. O stvarima o kojima ne mogu pricati volim pricati u zagonetkama. Na taj sam nacin ipak rekla ono sto sam i htjela… 3. Jako bi zeljela kada bi mogli umirati vise puta. Danas se ubijem, sutra mogu ponovo. Puno bih puta vec bila mrtva… Probala bih sve nacine samoubojstva… Uzivala bih u tome… 4. Mrzim se zbog toga sto ne mogu tu glupu loptu baciti u smece! Vec je u vreci za smece,i ne zelim ju, ali nikako da ju bacim u kontejner zauvijek! (rekla sam da volim zagonetke…) 5. Tri najsavrsenija glasa imaju joel, sonny i senses tip… (nemam vise inspiracije…) I za kraj, naravno… I just LOVE my wrists, So I'll kiss them with the razor blade, I just love my blood And this perfect masterpiece I made. I love my violent screams Ripping the silence of night, I love how no one hears My desperate screams for suicide. I love my soft skin, A perfect paper for the razor-pen, A masterpiece is written, but read it, no one really can… What a shame…  |
17.01.2007., srijeda
 I took again that little toy Out of the dusty attick, It's so dangerous and so adorable In a second it made me weak. And I remembered the time I put this toy away, I remembered the time This toy killed me in our play. So once I already died, I can not be more dead, «Just leave it on the attick», pictures on my walls said, just as well as they told me «Don't you play with it» But it simply looked just too dangerously sweet, So sweet with the knife in its innocente hands, I see the beauty That no one understands, And I know, really, I do know This toy will stab me, It will bleed all happiness away, This toy will destroy me, Destroy my dead body, There will be nothing left of me… 11.1.2007.  So, the pictures were maybe right... But what's the point in sharing only tears, and not smiles, with me... We knew how it would end up anyway...  |
15.01.2007., ponedjeljak
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This kingdom isn't broken, these walls are stronger than ever, my tiara is so perfectly placed on my head, no, your princess isn't broken... I wonder... Are these lies so easy to believe in???  |
14.01.2007., nedjelja
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I'll stab my skin so I can sew my heart, cos it's always fuckin tearin apart, he did it, he always manage to do it, and never, I never manage to really sew it, it's bleeding, I know it's bleeding for real, and I don't know what to do to make this wound finally heal, cos cords are always breaking, tearing apart, leaving me with opened bloody hurting heart!  I'll never forget what he did to me...  |
10.01.2007., srijeda
 My blood is pink and my teddy bear is bleeding, am I alive just because I'm breathing? My tears are purple just like the sun, but I am so scared cos my teddy's got a gun! Holding him on my heart, my blood smeared his little body, my teddy is not bleeding, he's just shooting at me. And I could swear I heard him whispering goodbye, his last words to me "never again you are gonna cry"... So am I still alive, cos I'm not sure I'm breathing, my teddy bear hugged me as he saw me bleeding... my teddy bear killed me, as he saw me pleading...  "Dont save me, don't save me, cos I don't care!!!" |
09.01.2007., utorak
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My kiss will be your poison, my kiss will be your death, my kiss will say the words that I have never said...  Your kiss will be my poison, your kiss will be my death, your kiss will say the words I only wanted to be said, so I could die that moment, I could die happy, thinking that you really do care about me...  |
06.01.2007., subota
 Stupid prince betrayed me, but I know they wouldn't, they would never do it, my two princesses, they gave me their pure white tissues whenever I would bleed... My two princesses are the purest blood I tasted on my lips, my two princesses are the only love that never ever sleeps... And I know, no one will ever posses the happiness I do, because I have my two princesses who's love is always true...  Thank you for not leaving me... |
04.01.2007., četvrtak
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I'm walking, I'm flying, under the blue sky, my pink sky...  ......... I'm walking, I'm dying, under the blue sky, my black sky...  |
01.01.2007., ponedjeljak
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"I won't forget the day that, that I found God In a kitchen knife now and on my arm So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life And tell myself this pain is the pain I love As I swallow the pills of happiness And you watch me fall... I thought I wanted this... I need to say... I said I wanted some more attention, I thought I wanted a story ending... I love the pain, I hate the pain, I just give in..."  . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  But thank you for trying... |
