Paper Flowers
Of a million encounters
How can you predict the ones that will really matter?
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Humility. What can I feel, standing in front of you, looking in your eye, but humility? A little, poor, naive girl, full of dreams, getting ahead of herself, taking things for granted. Big-eyed at the opportunity, at the unknown happiness that an angel had flown down from the heavens to give her? Jewels, treasure, beautiful things to richen her little, simple world of dreams. How she became to love that angel. How she became to hold dear everything it gave her, but knew still, that it wasn't her to be held, her to be given to. And tried, tried to pry herself away from all that made her world, not to depend on all the trinkets the angel gave her, not to feel exuberantly happy when it did, not to feel horribly sad when the angel never came at all. But... it was too late, wasn't it?
For the girl had already given the angel everything she was, everything she'd been hiding from others. For the girl had, unwillingly, given the angel her soul.
Ne znam tko si ti.
I do not know your wishes, your everyday life. I do not know your opinions. I do not know your favourite flavour of ice cream. Favourite habit. Favourite part of the day. Favourite memories.
I do not know who you are.
Nor do you know who I am.
But...
I do believe, Tenshou-chan, I believe... That I do know a little, a small dimension of you, a small part of you, through secrets barely whispered in the dark, lit by a night lamp. The only dimension I was allowed to feel... A voice.
And to this dimension, do I tell these things.
For a split second, Tenshou-chan, we were looking in each other's souls. For a split second.
Could you feel it? Do you remember...?
And I forgot about reality. I forgot about your name, or mine. I forgot everyday life, usual habits, society that I often do not fit in. Did you notice? How I never used to call you your name,
Onee-chan.
But how I exaggerated. How I still do. For my heart has a feeling - like you are most of what my world consists of, that the same is the other way around... But it wasn't until recently, that I had understood how insignificant I really am in this world. In your world. Always was, always will be, a little, poor girl with dreams, and that's all. Always alone, always lonely. Always fighting with sadness.
How I longed to be the one who holds your hand. The one who would always make you smile, always bring you comfort... The one who you'd know would always be there, and who you would cherish above almost all others... Who would help you dream about the one you'll love the most. Who holds your dreams a secret within...
But in fact, wanted to be held and cherished. Taken care of, looked after, thought of, loved in a special way, aside from others. How I loved that image.
"Imoto-chaaan! How are you? I missed you!!!"
But... The fate knows how to have fun. I hve wanted so much to give you everything I can, but...
In the end, I gave you nothing but trouble. I wasn't able even to comfort you, or make you happy. Only hurt you and make you angry... Make you worry about me, interrupt your happiness... Made your life more drama than it was worth... And I am sorry for that... So sorry... I have apologized so many times that it will soon mean nothing.
I'm sorry for being so weak. I'm sorry that I couldn't have done anything for you. I'm sorry for only being a nuisance...
And I want... To thank you. For giving yourself to me as much as you have. For giving me so much... Even though I had never been able to repay you... For caring. For making my wishes come true. For letting me see so much of the beauties of the world even though I am so insignificant... For listening to my dreams... For letting magic into my world, letting me feel the sun...
Thank you...
And I am happy, because I know you had once felt the same. Someone had brought the same light and magic into your world, you have felt the same magnificence. That is all I could wish for you...
I am not going to say it's over. I am not going to say goodbye. I have tried, but you cannot say goodbye to something that has your soul. For it might never be over for me. Don't forget... That someone has once truly loved you... no matter how unworthy it had been.
All I wish... is your happiness... That is all I am allowed to say to you now.
~ * ~
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me...
~ * ~
Will you think of me when you see the sea, as I think of you when I see the moon...?
27.06.2008. u 17:14
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Snovi (stvarni ili nestvarni):
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- imati klavir za vježbanje
- znati ga svirati xD
- biti sretna
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ANIME:
SHOUJO KAKUMEI UTENA!!!
Air
Basilisk
Fruits basket
Sailor Moon
Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien
Super Gals (dijelom)
Koi Kaze
Aa Megami Sama
Reservoir Chronicle Tsubasa (dijelom)
Pokemon (da xDD)
Digimon (još veæi da xDDD)
Digimon Tamers (što reæi?)
Candy Candy
Dragon Ball (dijelom... xDDD)
Nadam se da æe ova lista narasti veelika... :D
MANGA
Mei-chan No Shitsuji
Princess Ai
Tokyo Mew Mew (arigatou, Onee-chan and Dunja-hime!)
Tsubasa Chronicle (dijelom)
Namida Nochi Happi- Endo (Happy End After the Tears)
Shuffle (dijelom)
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MUZIKA
All time favorites:
~*~
Ogata Megumi-sama
Evanescence
Anime OP&ED
Jean Michel Jarre
The Phantom of the Opera
~*~
Lijep stil i/ili slušam ponekad:
Velvet Underground
Johnny Cash
Nick Cave
Darko Rundek
Vaya Con Dios
Sinead O'Connor
Om
Pink Floyd
I sve što mi zapne za uho...
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C'est le malaise du moment
L'épidémie qui s'étend
La fête est finie on descend
Les pensées qui glacent la raison
Paupières baissées, visage gris
Surgissent les fantomes de notre lit
On ouvre le loquet de la grille
Du taudit qu'on appelle maison
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me
Protège-moi, protège-moi
Sommes nous les jouets du destin
Souviens toi des moments divins
Planants, éclatés au matin
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Perdus les reves de s'aimer
Les temps où on avait rien fait
Il nous reste toute une vie pour pleurer
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me
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“There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.”
Oscar Wilde
“Illusion is the first of all pleasures.”
Oscar Wilde
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I am stretched on your grave and will lie there forever
If your hands were in mine I'd be sure we'd not sever
My apple tree my brightness, it's time we were together
For I smell of the earth and I'm worn by the weather
When my family thinks that I'm safe in my bed
From night until morning I am stretched at your head
Calling out to the earth with tears hot and wild
My grief for the girl that I loved as a child
Do you remember the night we were lost
In the shade of the blackthorn and the chill of the frost
Oh thanks be to Jesus we did what was right
And your maidenhead still is your pillar of light
The priests and the friars, approach me with dread
Because I still love you, my life and youre dead
I still will be your shelter through rain and through storm
And with you in your cold grave I cannot sleep warm
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“I shall go the way of the open sea, To the lands I knew before you came, And the cool ocean breezes shall blow from me, The memory of your name”
Laurence Hope
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Hisashiburi no kaisei IEROO BODI wa D.I.Y.
Haru no shippo tsukamaeru jyunbi wa OK sa
Yousho ni HANHOKKU ano mori wo mezashiteta hazu ga
"KAANABI" nante ME jyanai! ...mune hattetano wa dare dayo?
Koi nuno youna "GOMEN" no hitomi ni kousansa
Umibe de asonderu RETORIBAA no PORISU ni kikou ka?
AM RAJIO GOKIGEN na sunday yakusoku shite kureteru
Hajikeru youna namishibuki ga bokura no SAUNDO
Shuuni ichido no DEETO sae mama naranu youna futari no
Kiseki no youna kyuujitsu nonbiri kaze makase
Hamabe de shiosai no hizamakura nante no ma ii yo ne
POTTO ni tsumeta koucha wo sarige ni susumeru egao ga
Moshikashitara ichiban haru iro hansoku sa
Umibe de jyarete iru RETORIBAA wo minaratte bokuramo!
MAIPEESU na SHIISAIDO ga HAIUEI tobasu yori niatteru
Masshiro na vacation map kowaki ni kakaete
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A boom boom bâ
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Are my dreams to be all I can do?
Lay o lay above, lay o lay below
And he said Annie will show them a new way
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Are my dreams to be all I can do?
Lay o lay above, lay o lay below
And he said Annie will show them a new way
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Aligna donguiri ma digné
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé for a y bâmê
A boom boom bâ
Aligna donguiri ma digné hé !
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé for a y bâmê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou …
