Just A Drop In The Sea

Black

Tonight.... I cry.

Tonight, there is no hope. Tonight, there is no consolation, no looking up. No being strong, no holding tight. I have realized the happiness in life, the shortness of it, the magnificence of it...

There is no time to waste on hating things - they all pass, we can outgrow all of them... But you cannot shake off loneliness. Cannot get rid of it by yourself. Cannot fix it by yourself. The only thing worth hating is loneliness.

And tonight... There is no moving on.
Just for tonight, my breaths become shallow. Just for tonight, I turn off all the lights, close all the doors, and curl myself up at the foot of my bed, lie my head on the floor and cry. Let grief overcome me, let it devour all of me. Let despair eat up my heart, abandon all hope, lie in the pre-state of death.
Tonight I am not pretty. Tonight, the tears soak up my hair, my mouth stays shut, sobs gain control over all of me.
Tonight I wallow in all the misery of fate.

My vain attempt to drown loneliness. My need of somebody, burning in my core, occupying all my thoughts, making up a new world, an illusion so strayed from the real one. All my wishes granted, a force with white wings making up my world. How I need it. All the infinite struggles with myself, all the pain, all the joy and all the sweetness; an exuberant fantasy filled thickly with every option possible, but in truth - empty. Thin.

Drama queen.

I feel fate separating me from my entire (make believe) world, like duct tape from the skin. What I was never able to do by myself, in fear of losing everything I built my world around, is happening inevitably. And I feel the hole, becoming bigger and bigger as the imaginary, translucent castles, magic, love, dreams evaporate into nothingness. I feel it burning my core from the inside, bringing me down... The only thing I know I will never be able to fight.

Alone in the dark.

Alone.

Tonight I cannot see from the tears. Tonight I cannot get up. Tonight I lie shattered... And for tonight, there is no tomorrow.
Tonight, there is no picture to show how I feel.


I will soon delete this blog. There is no point in writing for yourself.

29.05.2008. u 22:19
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~O meni~

Dreams, thoghts, hopes and the spirit of a girl once called Hime-sama... Who wants to be one... Who aspires for her life and being to express elegance and art...

Volim ili obožavam (ili obožavam ili volim):

- more

- anime

- pjevati

- eleganciju

- crtati

- glazbu

- prirodu

- plesati

- svoju obitelj

- pisati

- čitati

- pristojnost

- mjuzikle

- dobre filmove i predstave

- biti na pozornici

- lijepu odjeću

- lijepu šminku

- Japan

- japanski

- francuski

- grčki

- latinski

- prevoditi

- e-mail

- istinu

- snove
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Snovi (stvarni ili nestvarni):

- postati seiyuu

- pjevati kao Amy Lee

- znati japanski skoro kao materinji

- dobro znati francuski

- dug vijek i puno komentara ovog bloga xD

- nepresušan izvor dobrih pjesama

- usavršiti crtanje i bojanje u kompjuterskim programima

- duga jaka lijepa kosa (XD)

- imati klavir za vježbanje

- znati ga svirati xD

- biti sretna
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ANIME:


SHOUJO KAKUMEI UTENA!!!

Air

Basilisk

Fruits basket

Sailor Moon

Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien

Super Gals (dijelom)

Koi Kaze

Aa Megami Sama

Reservoir Chronicle Tsubasa (dijelom)

Pokemon (da xDD)

Digimon (još veći da xDDD)

Digimon Tamers (što reći?)

Candy Candy

Dragon Ball (dijelom... xDDD)

Nadam se da će ova lista narasti veelika... :D


MANGA

Mei-chan No Shitsuji

Princess Ai

Tokyo Mew Mew (arigatou, Onee-chan and Dunja-hime!)

Tsubasa Chronicle (dijelom)

Namida Nochi Happi- Endo (Happy End After the Tears)

Shuffle (dijelom)
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MUZIKA

All time favorites:

~*~

Ogata Megumi-sama

Evanescence

Anime OP&ED

Jean Michel Jarre

The Phantom of the Opera

~*~

Lijep stil i/ili slušam ponekad:

Velvet Underground

Johnny Cash

Nick Cave

Darko Rundek

Vaya Con Dios

Sinead O'Connor

Om

Pink Floyd

I sve što mi zapne za uho...
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I *ahem* to je to :D

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C'est le malaise du moment
L'épidémie qui s'étend
La fęte est finie on descend
Les pensées qui glacent la raison
Paupičres baissées, visage gris
Surgissent les fantomes de notre lit
On ouvre le loquet de la grille
Du taudit qu'on appelle maison

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me

Protčge-moi, protčge-moi

Sommes nous les jouets du destin
Souviens toi des moments divins
Planants, éclatés au matin
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Perdus les reves de s'aimer
Les temps oů on avait rien fait
Il nous reste toute une vie pour pleurer
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls

Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me
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“There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.”
Oscar Wilde





“Illusion is the first of all pleasures.”
Oscar Wilde
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I am stretched on your grave and will lie there forever
If your hands were in mine I'd be sure we'd not sever
My apple tree my brightness, it's time we were together
For I smell of the earth and I'm worn by the weather


When my family thinks that I'm safe in my bed
From night until morning I am stretched at your head
Calling out to the earth with tears hot and wild
My grief for the girl that I loved as a child


Do you remember the night we were lost
In the shade of the blackthorn and the chill of the frost
Oh thanks be to Jesus we did what was right
And your maidenhead still is your pillar of light


The priests and the friars, approach me with dread
Because I still love you, my life and youre dead
I still will be your shelter through rain and through storm
And with you in your cold grave I cannot sleep warm
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“I shall go the way of the open sea, To the lands I knew before you came, And the cool ocean breezes shall blow from me, The memory of your name”
Laurence Hope


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Hisashiburi no kaisei IEROO BODI wa D.I.Y.
Haru no shippo tsukamaeru jyunbi wa OK sa
Yousho ni HANHOKKU ano mori wo mezashiteta hazu ga

"KAANABI" nante ME jyanai! ...mune hattetano wa dare dayo?
Koi nuno youna "GOMEN" no hitomi ni kousansa

Umibe de asonderu RETORIBAA no PORISU ni kikou ka?


AM RAJIO GOKIGEN na sunday yakusoku shite kureteru
Hajikeru youna namishibuki ga bokura no SAUNDO

Shuuni ichido no DEETO sae mama naranu youna futari no
Kiseki no youna kyuujitsu nonbiri kaze makase

Hamabe de shiosai no hizamakura nante no ma ii yo ne

POTTO ni tsumeta koucha wo sarige ni susumeru egao ga
Moshikashitara ichiban haru iro hansoku sa
Umibe de jyarete iru RETORIBAA wo minaratte bokuramo!


MAIPEESU na SHIISAIDO ga HAIUEI tobasu yori niatteru
Masshiro na vacation map kowaki ni kakaete


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A boom boom bâ

Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou

A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamę
Are my dreams to be all I can do?
Lay o lay above, lay o lay below
And he said Annie will show them a new way
Mé kouman mé fora y bamę
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou

A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamę
Are my dreams to be all I can do?
Lay o lay above, lay o lay below
And he said Annie will show them a new way
Mé kouman mé fora y bamę
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou

A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamę

Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou

A boom boom bâ
Aligna donguiri ma digné
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé for a y bâmę
A boom boom bâ
Aligna donguiri ma digné hé !
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé for a y bâmę

Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou …