~ MERCURY IN HANDS ~

mercury in hands
botlle in an eye
an eye for a vision
and a vision to die
don't!
Pray to thee..
Try not to hear..
The sounds of
What is far
And long gone..
The glass on my face
Is nothing new
Take a look
Don't try to see trough.
Not trough mercury
Mecury in hands
Wrapped in blood and sweat..
I tried to explain
It's more than i demand
Nothing such i ever
Wished for..
Still,i got it now...
All the wines
From gods
And all the promises..
In all their beauty,
So heavy they seem..
I just wish for u
For nothing else is left
Between me and the stars
And the mercury in my hands...

CoPyRight : by ShAnttiii / 2005

~ MOANS TO AN EMPIRE ~

One crush !
An Entire empire
Fell down
Within the sea and the sky.
Turned to dust...
Thy weeping willows
Left there moaning
Flushing eyes with blood
Empire came down!!!
Empire came down!!!
And one's future is now
What never will come!
And is now dead
Longing for skies
Seeking paradise!!!
Oh,how lost they are!
With hands that reach
Some other hills now..
This empire came down...
Whole empire on thy backs
Heavy it seemed
Was never so light...
And willows are singing
Their moans to the world
Moans of an empire that once was
And is a ruin now...
With thy smelling walls
That never were to truly be...
And the willows sing...
Oh,hear them moan..
Of one empire
Of it's fall...

''...empire,empire where u're walls,
u're screaming heart is lost..sweet,oh how sweet
once smelled u're walls..
....where are their lovers once so small?
....where?
oh!it's all so lost...
..what once belonged to thee..
now is to be forgotten...
..empire,empire..take this tears
for sorrow is nothing we hold dear..
now...
u're emperor lyies beneath..
this sacred ruins...
that never were to be...
.......u were just dreaming my dear...
..u were just dreaminnn' !!!
Haahahahahahahahahaha.........
.......How do u like u're empire now??? ''
CopyRight : by ShAntiii / 2005

~ MY PROMISING D* ~

~
I've done
Oh what i've done
It's been a while
Oh it's been a while
Since shadows grew
Behind my back
Looking a lot like u.
I'm sort of seeking my words
Behind the streets
And beyond me
~
Oh,it's been a while...
Since i last told u
How and why
I hold u dear
And trust me
U know,
I know u do
As leaves are growing
On your cheeks
And smile their coloures
Back to u.
~
It's been a while
I know..
I know...
Since i last overcomed myself
And vanished in my vanity
I shouldn't,i know
Forget about my gravity..
And now it seems
It's all back
As i watch the snow melting
In your ears..
~
And the wind just goes..
And it's carrying us away
To some more promising future
Oh,how i long for the day...
Holding the trees..
Holding u near..
As we try to melt
The white hills
On our lips..
~
It's been a while
Oh i know it's been..
But it's alright now
I promise it is..

Copyright :by Shantiii / 2005.

~INSIDE THY FIRES~

I said i wouldn't
God so many times
I said i did
And i left it all behind
It's been days,and months
And years my dear,
Still i cant belive my fear
I'm gone,i'm gone
It's been
So long
I know it's been
Oh,i know
I lied myself
And i lied to u
I said i didn't
U knew it's not true
I saved me a gun
I saved me some blood
I left courage far behind
I said i wouldn't
God so many times
And god i lied
I lied so much.
I raised swords
Within my hands
With angels weeping
On thy breasts
And i said i wouldn't
But god i did.
So many times
I did,i did...
I paid my fortune
With my crime
I said i wouldn't
I did,i did...
Thousands of bells ringin' inside
As warning alarms...
As warning alarms..
And i said i wouldnt..
But i did...
Left my home
For a black hole
Left my mind
For coloures of blood
Left my pain
To you instead
I know i said i wouldn't
But i did.
Inside thy fires i begin...
i begin,
oh i begin!!!



copyright: by shantiii / 2005

KAKO SE OSJEĆAM....

...NAREDNIH DANA MOŽDA ĆU REĆI SVAŠTA...,
MOŽDA ĆU SAMO ŠUTJETI...
MOŽDA ĆU SE PRETVORITI U EKSPLOZIJU MISLI
I RAZLIJEPITI SE PO ZIDOVIMA SOBE
U OBLIKU LJIGAVIH-KRVAVO-MESNATIH NAKUPINA
I TAKO RASPROSTRANJENA NASTAVITI
GRISTI ZIDOVE SVOJIH DANA,
NAPITI SE SUZA IZ OČIJU SVOJIH
LJUBOVATI SA STJENICAMA,
IZDUBSTI DOVOLJNO RUPICA DA NEGDJE
SAHRANIM TOLIKU KRV...
PJEVATI O SUMRAKU SVOGA DOBA...
I KADA MI SVE TO VIŠE DOSADI
IMA DA SE DOSTOJANSTVENO LIJEPO OCIJEDIM
NIZ ISTE ONE ZIDOVE I PUSTIM KONAČAN UZDAH...
PRIJE TOGA REĆI ĆU JOŠ SAMO NEŠTO-
KO JEBE TEPIH!!!

>>>>>>>> ''DELIRIJUM'' <<<<<<<<

Njegov je uzdah trajao vječno.mislim da toga nikada nije bio svjestan....
ne on nikada neće znati o čemu sam pisala tog dana....
sanjala sam na cvjetnoj livadi sa olovkom u rukama.
ne on se toga sasvim sigurno nikada neće sjetiti.
utiskivala sam riječi olovkom na papir.
bila sam tako sigurna tog dana da sam uvjerila čitavu prirodu...
držeći se za ruke s njom klela sam se vječnosti,
u vječnost ću te pretvoriti riječima okovati tvoj nemiran duh,
zaustaviti vrijeme i prestati....

Vino je bilo popustljivo prema nama ...
I sunce se samo smješilo...
Cvijeće je plesalo s vjetrom i sa travama...
Uz ritam zepellina...
/...IF THE SUN REFUSE TO SHINE.../
obećalo je sunce nikada ne prestati sjati...
nikada ne prestati sanjati,ništa prešutjeti svom nebu...

/...Još nisam izabrala svoju duginu boju...
stoga ostat ću šarena,obećajem,obećajem i ja.../

/...INSPIRATION'S WHAT U ARE TO ME.../

Dražesno,dražesno!!!-Vrištali su nasmiješeni skakavci ;)

2002-2005/...I DALJE....

Kad bih ti poželio ispričati priču ne bi mi povjerovala.Usne bi se micale same od sebe...riječi bi tekle,a ti bi me gledala sa nedoumicom u očima...i sanjala sa svakim slovom...
Sklopi oči,neka ti ne bude neugodno...ispričat ću ti o svemu;o zemlji i nebu i o tamnim kočijama s mrtvim tijelom mog oca.Dogorijeva svijeća uz blage tople zvuke,tek se tu i tamo začu jeka...internih jecaja duše...Nisi ni pisnula...jer obećala si slušati...poljubit ću te u čelo rekao sam joj tiho i sneno,htio sam da zna...od početka kako stvari stoje...pa sam joj pričao dalje sad već i ja blago sklopljenih očiju ...sanjam skupa sa njom o svom djetinjstvu....
O mirisima jorgovana mekih,elegantnih...tamo malo dalje stabla jabuka s pokojim crvom u njima...e baš tamo negdje najdraža moja posijao sam dušu...u uspomenu svom ocu koji to nikada bio nije...samo je znao kako,umio je ono što mnogi nisu...
Rastao sam godinama,uvijek vješto navodnjen -pričam joj dalje...šapćem da nas ne probudim oboje...a možda se samo ne usudim...
Pod svjetlom naše lampe što zamijeni svijeću sasvim smo slučajno pronašli sebe u sjenama ...tako prosto ocrtani na zidu...i sasvim goli golcati,s izgubljenim pogledom u očima shvatio sam da me nikada neće shvatiti...

Utihnuo sam,pustio svoje trube da note odšalju još dublje...znam...još nisam spreman...premda sam sebi obećao...a i tebi....
Ujutro sam onako gol izašao iz sebe tek toliko da si dozvolim još to jedno zadnje putovanje...
pogledom po nepreglednosti koja se nekada našom zvala...
i htio sam umrijeti...,ali nisam...
mislim da bi mi tamo uspjelo sve ono što ovdje nije...



~ / +a+a / ~

PAMTIM SAMO LIJEPO TATA
I PREMDA TI NISAM KĆI
NEŠTO MI KAŽE...
ŠAPUĆE...
GOVORI...
DA POTJEČEMO OD ISTOG!
TAMO GDJE SI SAD!
VIDIMO SE TAMO!

~~ R.I.P. ~~