...one last goodbye...

18.10.2007., četvrtak

mato...



moj susjed, 4 kuce dalje od mog stana... decko s kojim sam se druzio cijeli svoj zivot... otkako znam za sebe bili smo ekipa... on, prvi susjed i ja...

decko koji je od samog rodjenja prosao nezamislive muke... rodio se sa bolesti celijaklija (mozda je koje slovo krivo), tj. nije smio jesti nista sto u sebi sadrzava i trunku brasna... i samim tim je bio jako mrsav, roditelji su imali puno briga sa njime zbog svega toga... pun ku... bolesti, bezbrojna lijecenja i sve...

sjecam ga se kada je igrao nogomet, ali je ubrzo presao na rukomet... ali zbog svoje kilaze ni tamo nije mogao igrati...

a sjecam se jednog dana, tek kad je poceo igrati rukomet... u nasoj skolskoj dvorani, crveni dres manchestera, crne hlacice i crvene stucne... a izgledao je tako mrsav, pogotovo noge... kako sam ga zajebavao... :)

uvijek je bio kriv za sve... ima mladjeg brata zbog kojeg je uvijek popusio... taj njegov mladji brat bi naapravio neku pizdariju, a roditelji bi uvijek galamili na matu... i onda on sav ljut mora otici kuci, a mi se nastavljamo igrati... cesto smo se igrali rata... u jednoj staroj zapustenoj skoli smo uvijek izvodili gluposti... u dvoristu se igrali skoro svaki dan nogometa...

uvijek smo bili super... malo manje kada sam ja krenuo u srednju skolu... znas kako je to... mlad, novo drustvo, nova prica i jebi ga... ali nisam ga zaboravio, cak naprotiv... kad je i on krenuo u srednju skolu onda smo opet postali pravi...

sjecam se da mi je jednom cak pomogao da uletim jednoj curi... ta cura je bila ludo zaljubljena u mene, ali ja to nisam znao... pa ni obracao paznju, jer je bila mladja od mene... ali jednog dana u autobusu za skolu, on je uzeo knjigu od te cure i trazio od mene da joj se potpisem... kasnije tog dana mi je rekao da je ona zaljubljena u mene... pa smo krenuli zajedno u osvajanje... hehehehe... i nakon nekoliko dana, ja i ona smo bili zajedno... velika ljubav, na nesrecu lose po mene zavrsila, ali eto... jbg...

a kada sam ja krenio na faks, kako sam upisao vanredno studiranje, a svi moji pravi prijatelji otisli, on i ja smo postali najbolji prijatelji... svaki dan smo se culi, svaki dan se nasli, zajebavali, on je meni pomagao oko literature iz njegove skole za moj faks, nabavljao mi knjige, posudjivao sam mu lovu (kako sam ja zaradjivao, a on je uvijek volio igrati pokera)...

jednom sam cak popusio dvije svoje cure, samo zato sto sam njemu pokusavao namjestiti neku curu... kod jedne sam popusio dvije samarcine... nakon naseg prekida, ja sam ju pitao da li bi htjela biti sa jednim mojim prijateljem (matom) i tada sam osjetio snagu zenske ruke... hehehe...

a kada sam mu uspio srediti jednu svoju frendicu, on je tada imao curu, pa nista nije htjeo.. iako je imao siguran seks kod ove sto sam mu ja namjestio... nije htjeo... SVAKA CAST CARE!!

jednom smo zajedno izasli i hodali gradom od jednog kafica prema drugom, kad su naisla 4 momka... jedan je nesto dobacio na njegov racun... sjecam se da sam u tom trenutku osjetio nesto u sebi jako lose... skocio sam na tog momka i srusio ga na pod... njegova tri frenda su odmah skocila na mene i pokusali me skinuti sa njega... ali dok su mene vukli ja sam ovog udarao sakama i govorio mu: «niko nece zajebavati mog matu!!» ali kada su me momci skinuli sa njega, onda je nastalo kresevo, koliko su me izgazili... uffff... znam da sam se dva tjedna skrivao od staraca da mi ne vide modrice... ali vrijedilo je... NIKO NECE ZAJEBAVATI MOG MATU ! ! !

nakon jednog izlaska sam ga ucio voziti svoj auto... to je bila komedija... odveo sam ga malo izvan grada i dao mu auto... prva osoba koja nikada nije vozila auto i koja je sjela u moj auto da je odmah krenuo kako treba... sjecam da se kako je bio sretan... cak smo se dogovorili da kad god budemo zajedno vani, da cu mu ja dati svoj auto da moze otici sa curom... jos ga je nekoliko puta vozio... kao da cijeli zivot vozi...

ali zanimljivo je kako se on u posljednjih dvije godine promijenio... od onog samozatajnog decka, pretvorio se u osobu s kojom si morao biti u drustvu... sva ona njegova zajebancija! nije prolazio dan da se nije zajebavao... i krenulo mu je u zivotu... imao je odlicnu curu, u skoli super, bio na maturalcu u spanjolskoj... ma sve mu islo kako treba...

jos imam njegovu poruku od dan ranije:

29.7.2007. 17:33

Ej care os na turnir veceras?
Jel imas para za posuditi, treba mi 50 kn nemam za pice poslije toura a doc ce one drlje iz zupanje!?
Zivio


jebi ga... taj dan nisam imao kod sebe nista love... i to si puno puta postavim pitanje kako bi bilo da sam imao kao svaki drugi puta kad me pitao...
mozda bi otisao na to pice sa njima, mozda zbog toga ne bi otisao na slavlje sa sa dvojicom tomislava, mozda mu ne bi imali sutra dan sta pricati, pa ne bi morao otici kod tog frenda koji ga je zvao i na kraju, mozda ne bi sjeo u taj auto... MOZDA....

jaako puno pitanja, a malo odgovora...


NIKO NECE ZAJEBAVATI MOG MATU ! ! !

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sve... i nista...

nemam pojma sto pisati... vidjet ces... nadam se da ce tu biti svega..

vremena se nadam da imam, volje bas i nemam, ali to je i glavni pokretac svega ovoga... jer zbog bezvoljnosti, praznine i svega toga sam se i odlucio na ovo...

sada, evo nakon 2 mjeseca pauze... vratio sam se i ja... znam da sam malo zapustio, ali promijenit cu se ja... hehehehe... vazno je obecati,, a da li ces ispuniti, ma tko te pita....




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All the hate that feeds your needs
All the sickness you conceive
All the horror you create
Will bring you to your knees

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I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear
and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all that I'll be...

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star
In somebody else's sky, but why
Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine

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I see a girl in the night with a baby in her hands
Under an old street light, oh, near a garbage can
Now she put her kid away, she's gone to get a hit
She hates her life, and what she's done with it
That's one more kid, that'll never go to school
Never get to fall in love, never get to be cool

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Don't even think about reachin' me, I won't be home
Don't even think about stoppin' by, don't think of me at all
I did, what I had to do, if there was a reason, it was you...

Don't even think about gettin' inside
Voices in me head...ooh, voices
I got scratches, all over my arms
One for each day, since I fell apart

I did...oh, what I had to do, if there was a reason, it was you

Footsteps in the hall, it was you, you...
Pictures on my chest, it was you, it was you...

I did, what I had to do... and if there was a reason
Oh, there wasn't no reason, no
And if, there's something you'd like to do
Just let me continue, to blame you

Footsteps in the hall, it was you, you...
Pictures on my chest, it was you, you...

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I admit it...what's to say...
I'll relive it...without pain...mmm...
Backstreet lover on the side of the road
I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode
I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes, I pray...
Once upon a time I could control myself
Once upon a time I could lose myself

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Is something wrong, she said
Well of course there is
You're still alive, she said
And do I deserve to be
Is that the questionpar
And if so...if so...who answers?? who answers??

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Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, losin' my soul
Down in a hole, losin' control
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
of my feelings beneath

Oh I want to be inside of you

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I will light the match this mornin', so I won't be alone
Watch as she lies silent, for soon night will be gone

I will stand arms outstretched, pretend I'm free to roam
I will make my way, through, one more day in Hell...
How much difference does it make


I will hold the candle till it burns up my arm
I'll keep takin' punches until their will grows tired
I will stare the sun down until my eyes go blind
Hey, I won't change direction, and I won't change my mind
How much difference does it make
Mmm, how much difference does it make...how much difference...

I'll swallow poison, until I grow immune
I will scream my lungs out till it fills this room
How much difference
How much difference does it make


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