Kovači sudbine - The smiths of destiny
10.03.2019., nedjelja
Kim, do you want to? (Light Fairy tale for all the refugees from senselessness)
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Here is a tiny song I wrote, you might want to read it note by note... Funny how you decide to shorten a long song at least in half but then you easily extend it four times as long as it has been when you decided to cut it in half!? Hm... :O :D Long live Rock and Roll!! I had a Little Inspirational Rush! Your Honor - I plead: Not guilty! (Excuses are...oh...I had to add some, lose some and sum some...and... ...well... ... Let us better start, shall we?) (notice: 16 minutes and preferably more is needed for good read and understanding.) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Kim, do you want to? (Light Fairy tale for all the refugees from senselessness) Do you want to? Kim who do you really want to be? Do you want to be a Heroine? Do you have an irresistible crave for counseling the World? Is your heart really good or in between...? Learn everything you can about... Great rock and roll female singers... Learn everything you can... Where are you from, Kim, really? Who are you? I've heard you could easily be from France or...Scotland? But then again it could be also Croatia, running through your veins? Kim oh Kim... How come you are so strange and yet so familiar? Or am I wrong... Have I only dreamt you? Will you embrace the ''gift''? Will you encourage the people? Are you ready to make a sacrifice? Even if it would try... To led you to the martyrdom? For how long we all have to wait? To see the real you? Unrestrained After being, almost... Barred for decades See, I cannot sleep I told you. I whispered and I yelled Early in the Sunday morning (Like as if a Little Light Angel put me here...) To shake you to wake you up. (I hope I didn't distress you that early morning) (*gentle voice) Or just to find you Read between the lines... See what everyone chooses not to see. Do you want to play the real game? Are you a little "want-to-be" Savior? Or are you here for the Money? Did you start just for others to clap their hands for you? Did you really!? :) Or are you The Real Deal? When will all the emotion pour out like dry-summer heavy rain? Have you got the strength and the will? To erase the pain? Even if it cheats you!? Even if all seemingly shall be in vain? Many Good ones are gone into the Light Or going towards... Or so they say. Maybe you still do not get it. Or maybe you do. Story is also about Them. Is their tale good or bad? Who chooses what's the right answer? Martin asked: "Where's the Revolution..." Universal picture With tears With joy Universal like Space Always Or only up to some degree Empathy... Do you have empathy? Do you hear me when I Whisper? Whisper... Do you hear me when I call your name? Are you near me when I'm near you? Or are you going away? Fads come and go Always be your true self Do not listen to me! Be only who you need to be I want to wake up someone Like you I want to know you All is passing me by... Only one kind can fascinate me Do you understand? I need to be around such people Because they make me Feel so good But... I can't wish for I can't wish for Too much if at all It will crush me If I am again wrong I am just not that strong And I also ponder around these... Things... Numerous things... Do you know? I am yet a tad to grow And then I will (I hope so...) Find someone for me Just like you Just like thee At least... I can dream Can I? (I pray so!) (I always dreamt) ... Are you sent? (*with lower voice) One day, maybe... If life permit I will just... Touch you For a blazing split second So tenderly and brief Then you'll know Who I am No worry... Don't worry... Didn't I said? (And you are still worried) Like a kid afraid And that touch alone Could make me So-oo happy So, so, so... I wouldn't dare To touch you At once More than that It would be Too much Overwhelming Never grow up Never grow up! Never get old Always stay Stay Never be deluded... I only started tickling you To think profoundly And later I will If you misbehave Maybe Threaten too With nettles Like I usually do-oo ( :-) ) So good... Are you really so sweet? So kind... Mmmmm... I hope you're not Wearing a mask! Did she made me Look your way? (I was eager to see such...) But now I really wonder ... Because...Similar... You two are so similar If only I could know How to charm you How to disarm someone As little as you Then I'd be on the horse Ha ha ha :) ... It is easy for you And hard for me Shame on me! It's already late I'm already cooked and fried I should've learned better In life But... I never did! Now, don't you laugh girl! If you do the "wrong" step I will throw you over my shoulder... Easily Alright?! ... ... See that is why I'm kissing her feet Only... Only up to her ankles So softly ... You may think... "That's weird... What is he suddenly blabbing about!?" Or maybe: "Kinky strange Is it kind of fetish...you know... Is he derange-d!?" But I'll tell you the Truth Oh I will... None of it is true And mark my words Mark them! It's with utmost respect Because She is gone Yes, She is gone! Gone like the dead ones Are gone It is only Light now... Can you feel it...? Had I wish too much for For her to be kind of reborn? (*with sadly voice) "Why you had to go" I asked.... "Why you couldn't stay awhile?" I pleaded to her... So she knows... The two of you are so, so peculiarly similar Aren't you? But I can't wish for You see It will hurt me so ferociously If I am wrong But still I do (Because you make me so Overwhelmingly happy...) I wait for someone To whom I need not to say A word Or explain She will sense it Even from a far distance Naturally So sweet Nothing to fight against She will decide And maybe Only big... "maybe" She'll do by miracle By miracle... ... She'll do Miracle .... (And if one couldn't see Then she simply wouldn't see...) Can we all have what we want, Kim? Can we all get what we are dreaming of? Even if we do, for how long? Spell some magic! Dear girl If you can Repair this injustice In the world The strangest of all... Loving her is - loving you (* "-" or "like") Loving you is - loving her (* "-" or "like") It is the same! Sweet and sensitive And...uncomplicated Easy... Old school Old lifetime school Like...Mountains are old You are like Spring well You are she She is you You are She is You And it was an coincidence I hadn't had a faintest clue When I approached you I swear Or was it with other yet unknown reason Or was it because of something what was just due Luckily... I really hope so... You are free of her pain Uncorrupted, respectful, polite Sweetly innocent Loving is... So effortless (I heard what you said! I instantly understood what you sincerely said! Interlude, that night, there!) And yet you are somehow afraid And I say to You.. Hurting you is - hurting her (* "-" or "like") Hurting her is - hurting you (* "-" or "like") Much more we must learn There is so much to reveal I need to love someone So why not you and her? Whatever you do I'll still mostly have to be the same. Either that or to die And if I die by any chance Now you know where and why I'll come by! :) (I can sense your tough hands play about on my chest Where my heart is... What are you doing? Or am I deluded? Is that someone else?) Light You are she She is you You are She is You Kim your palms are on my heart What are you trying to achieve? Oh well... ... (I may be wrong...) ... And maybe you also Didn't get it thoroughly ... I don't want to end like her So, so, so many ended like her Be it the exact reason - this or that And many more will Can't you see? Even now, the other day... Poor man Keith hanged himself in his lonely house (*if not true: "hanged" then "killed") Alone, abandoned, in sorrow and despair. And he was running more than healthy Only few days before But without his lost pair It is so sad... (I am so sorry to ask, but... Are you caring Kim? Or are you selfish and vain? ... And what can I say - about me? Ah...) There are no guarantees We can't see the future! (It frightens me to death) It is the greatest pain of all "Lack of Love And Misfortune" That is why... That is why I kiss her bare feet For a redemption... For a deepest sorrow... To ease the pain... For the love of life!... (And so many things more...) That is why I whisper and send... "I Love You" (*gently voice) (To her Soul) That is why... I know... I know... I said too much But near to nothing ... (Someone... Green eyes and Green Do you know what I mean?) What do you think Can we ever get Ever, ever get Anything more valuable Anything more expensive Anything greater Than Sincere Blinding Love? You could know... I knew a girl long ago Then I discovered She was married But still she was addressed With her maiden name, sometimes Therefore... I thought inappropriate to watch her picture Daily on my computer screen background And she was so pink sweet On a green meadow offering her hand... (Was she calling? What was she trying to say?) Years later I discovered hidden truths. Later in life her husband dumped her Or she left because... Things between them didn't get along... Or she was so ill that she had to go!? She was so severely wounded and lost... Oh...why am I telling you... I don't know... That was her... (It ripped my soul to pieces) (*with sad trembling voice) Only many years later I pondered on that same picture From my computer screen (Was she calling? What was she trying me to say?) And Kim Kim oh Kim Did you heard what she said? Why she said those words? Why...? From the past... It emerged only recently Ringing so heavenly now Comforting and angelic sweet... ... And then I saw you And... And now I see you! And... How could I explain... What else can I say? Kim partially had a bad luck - she failed to score I had a good stroke of Light luck - I found Kim! Kim is afraid Me too... Now we are both waiting... Can we just for a start hug from afar and be quiet? And see what will happen... Have you forgotten already About me? Kim, where have you now gone? Who are you? Who are you!? Kim, do you want to? (I hope you understand...) (*with lower voice) ... ... ... (Ahhh...Are you still sleeping? :O ) (Written between 18.2.2019 - 10.3.2019) (C) Kovači sudbine, The smiths of destiny - all rights reserved (Some minor adjustments are still possible...) |