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Vaša Mrtva Spisateljica...
Ime:+Anamarija+
Nick:+Malena+
Datum rođenja:+19.7.1993+
Volim:+emocore+gothic stil+crnu,ljubičastu i bloody boju+mjesečinu+krv+paranormalne stvari+psihologiju+medicinu+
Hobi:+Pisanje+psihologija+
Uzor:+E.A.Poe+Anne Rice+
Škola:+SŠ Viktorovac Sisak+
Smjer:+Medicinska sestra+

My angel...






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Emo Quotes <3

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels
Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?
Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions
Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?
Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious
Kiss me im emo!
The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.
The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.
Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words.

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Our Love
Loves memory has traced our outline in this place.
But will the spider remember, or the sun?
Did the water capture our faces in permanence?
Does the wind create us anew as it blows?
Did the shadows from the trees record our passage beneath them?
Our secret been revealed.
Yet I have told no other.
I write these words in silence, in mute testimony
To what once was.
But our image remains alive in this place.
It can not be removed.
You, me,
We then,
Were here.
We saw the day and hoped for tomorrow.
We caught a brief glimpse of love's promise.
We were not liars,
But thieves of time.
For now time has now forgotten us,
Yet our memory lingers, and love remembers
This place that was ours.


Falling Away
I am bored with love
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity

Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two by fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone

Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed
our bodies to become
another pair of hollow shadows
that make love to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the roses are dying


Your Lies
Funny when things never change
Even when you say they will
But while your off s(rewing her
My life is standing still

You tell me that you love me
When I go to leave
You tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe

I know that you are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that you don't love me
I know I'm just for show

I don't know If I can stand
To see you love another girl
You know that you broke my heart
You know that your my world

But while your standing by my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together


Autumn Times
Autumn breeze frigidly touches ailing dreadful lives
Harshly darkness quietly surrounds the broken souls
Mellow serenades that once played between hearts
Pathetically have transformed into bitter sad songs

Somewhere beyond the flossy clouds
Cupid has lost his romancing arrows
Plays sad sonorous tunes on his bow
Dedicated to all weepy lonely hearts

Howling chilly wind blows through the mist
Sounds of sorrow spread allover the place
Fuzzy humid air submerges the inner lust
Lives decay slowly as the autumn leaves fall...

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GOTHIC QUOTES <3<3<3

"what is it about the moonlight that draws my spirit in? The seduction? The stygian agony? I would give up my silber visions to know."
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"The agony in my eyes mirrors the moon light of my flawed soul"
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"Whay are my eyes so exquisite with poetry? And why do I no longer care?"
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"There is much darkness to be found in shadows.But you may need to sacrifice your silver mind to find it..."
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"The graveyards in my mind mirror the blood of my unliving purpose"
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"Why are my fears do tortured with solitude?And why do I no longer care?"
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"The graveyards in my existence mirror the moonlight of my obtenebrated solitude"
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"Why do we love death and the blood? My dear, you need only look into your own pain-filled soul to fine out"

GOTHIC POEMS

The Vampire

A man in dark from the east
prowels the night for blood to feast
he walks the streets from dusk till dawn
and doesnt even pass a yawn

this man is pale as though hes dead
his body cold from toe to head
his canines long and pearly white
he gives his victims no time to fight

a man came knocking on his door
he came at night to implore
he came and answers tried to find
he tried to unravel the creatures mind


he saw a coffin upon the floor
and found him self pinned to the door
he bared his neck and drank and drank
until to his knees the man had sank

their he knelt begging mercy please
and his clothes the vampire seized
he dragged him up upon his feet
and to his maker went to meet

I NEED NOT A REASON

The sky was filled with blood tonight
No wind a-blew
No smoke a-rose
But somewhere it seemed, d’it not seem right
Far below in nether
Across the seas a-feather
My life in thine
Mine heart in hand
A-top a raging storm a-stage
Sweet words flow from honey mouth
‘Tis not how they see me or hear
How dare thee speak when light doth shine
The light, it dote your saddened soul
A deciding decision in thine vast nothingness
How can one breathe when you are full of it?
Nothingness is, last of all
Only place to be filled or felt to rot
A hole in thine soul
It aches to desperation
But be three true
And stay thee noble
Fare not far, but search carefully
With a still learning heart
Thine spirit hath no where to turn but lust
A lust for love, is no love at all
But merely a pawn to castle in game
Then thee who nighly see
The truth of the dreams
What would one be
If one could not ponder
Unable to release a death-rising screech?

Black light in darkness

Sitting in darkness, around me just fear
You left me behind, you are not here.
I am full of questions that are making me insane
Maybe you can hear me, but I still feel just pain...

A black light is all that I can see
Just want it to stop, don't want it to be
I'm telling to myself- this can't be real
Is it my life that you had to steal?

And now I know that you played with me
Now I feel it, now I see
The shit that I went through because of you
You played with me and I had no clue

Black light shine on me...
Black light be here with me...
Black light take him away...
Black light stay...

DARK BLOOD BEAUTIES

In your hands,
We form the bonds
Together we shall die
No one can even lie

Fallen beauties of eden
Never even forgotten
But not begotten
In the eyes rotten

We shall be together
It shall be forever
No one will bother
Our love will gather

In the shadow
We shall wallow
In the high and low
Not even tomorrow

The end of light
We shall fight
With you my might
We shall have height

We never bend
We shall make amend
Gaia we shall tend
Till the end

PAIN
Pain is
hidden.
Not something
i share
with the
world.

It made
me what i am
today.

selfconcious.
scared.
hurt.
tears.

i cant be
me because
of the pain.

i want to
be free.
every thing
that happens
justs adds
another hole
to my already
damaged heart.

my pain is
like acid
its burns.

its toxic.
bottled
up and
stored to
keep everyone
from seeing
its true power.

im full of
toxic waste.
it runs through
my veins.
my heart.
my mind.
leaving a
mark where ever
it goes.

always stored.
my pain.
never shown.
kept to myself.

no one knows
the real me.
The me that
hurts inside.
they all think
im happy.
they will never
know the truth.

im hurt.
and ill say it.
but no one
can feel my
pain.
it belongs to
me.
it created
me.

Pain is who i am.

Nightmare

Its half past midnight
So dark except for the moon light
Walking through ‘can see graves afar
Looking up ‘can perceive the nebula neath a star

The air’s filled with a horrible atmosphere
Isolation and fear possesses the earth’s sphere
The vegetation’s dominated by deadly arbour
All these I perceive at this witching hour of horror.

As I proceed, the air gets hazy
Sense a creature afar and I get pacy
I took a close look
Not long how long it took.

Hear the sound of nocturnal creepers
Totter left ‘n’ right, a thorny branch hooked my zippers
Like unleashing the contents of Pandora’s Box
Behold I perceive a ferocious fox.

Think I see this creature again
A chimera, I try to make the best bargain
Run eastward as fast as I can
Seems to catch ‘spite the pace I ran.

I run southward which seems an advantage
Must escape this barbarous savage
But then in sight I see a creeping creature
Out of a graveyard I assumed a pasture.

Then I’m attacked by this ferocious beast
I surrender myself a wholesome feast
Look downwards and I see nothing but doom
Ah! It was a dream I heaved as I woke in my room.

IN YOUR ARMS

Hold me, my love,
Just one more,
Just to feel again your warm touch
Kiss me, again, my love
I want to taste your soft lips, again
Bite me,
I want to taste your sweet blood
Just one more,
Embrace me, again
‘cause in your arms I feel so safe
my angel, stay with me tonight
don’t leave me alone
share with me with this beautiful night,
oh my dear love, even words can’t describe how beautiful you are
when I am looking into your eyes, I see peace and joy
from that moment I know that you are my true love
oh, my love, how beautiful you are
after all this years I have lived I have never seen someone who had good heart
in your arms I feel safety and warm
when you embrace me I feel like I am in the heaven with you

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Ples s Vampirom <3
nedjelja, 17.08.2008.

Ples s vampirom
Povukla sam te svilene rukavice na mojim rukama,
Kao da sam znala tu žudnju za dodirom njegove hladne kože...
Popravila sam bijelu haljinu,namjestila kopču u kosu već zamršenu od vjetra...
Noć je bila ukrašena nebom posutom sićušnim cirkonima...
Mirna...Netaknuta...
Tek koji netopir bi lepetom svojih krila uznemirio tišinu...

Dodir nota me natjerao da se okrenem...
Susrela sam dva čokoladna oka...
Glazba...Sjetna...Za ples...Obavile nas lamete sjajne poput polarne svjetlosti...
Mjesec se povukao,ostavivši boje zore...
Purpurnu...Žutu...Crvenu...
Vjerojatno je čuo brze uzdahe mog srca,
Gotovo nečujne....Snažne...

Vinuli smo se u visine...
Dotaknuli smo tu crvenkastu maglu jutra koja nas je doticala...
Osmjehnuo mi se princ noći...
Zatitrala su mi moja bijela krila uskladivši pokrete s njegovima...
Laganim koracima ispunili smo prazninu zraka...

Ugledala sam zlatni rub u daljini kako se diže u nebesa,
I njegov poslijednji osmjeh mi je bljesnuo pred očima...
Klizio mi je iz ruku,a ja ga pustiti nisam htjela...
Strgnula mi se rukavica,ostala u njegovoj hladnoj ruci...
I pala na to suho tlo,kada se on pretvorio u prah...
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Zlatni Bodeži...<3
nedjelja, 17.08.2008.

Zlatni bodeži
Ostaviše mi mrvice na puteljku,
Da se znam vratiti sama...
Zli vjetrovi ih pomeli...Pomeli ih svojim dahom...
Gotovo je...
Nemam kamo poći,a vratiti se ne znam...

Plesala sam kako ste vi svirali...
Udarali ste me notama...I to najniže što možete...
Do kraja decreshenda sam već bila na koljenima...
Plešući na prstima u tim mramornim hramovima,
Otkrila sam čari samoće...
Samoće,kao pojma gdje nikada ne očekuješ da će netko doći,
A onda ne dođe..Ni ne prilazi ti...

Zlatni bodeži...
Te oštre latice cvijeća zavjere,
Koji svoj pelud šire poput sjemena zla...
Tako magično...Čudesno...Zavodljivo...
Zlačani bljesak...
Slijepo slijedim to svjetlo...
Vodi me samo prema krvavoj sudbini...
Zlatne rane,
Kroz moje vene će otrov uskoro poteći...

Sve te slike vidim u mislima...
Tako je oduvijek trebalo biti...
A sada lutam daleko od blještavila,ukrasa i mramora,
Čujem nešto što nikada neću znati prepoznati...
U ruci stežem zlaćane bodeže...
Stežem taj zlaćani buket boli...
Već mi se u kožu urezao...

Spazila sam mrvice na putu...
Tako su suhe...Moji koraci ih mrve...
Izvan mojih misli....Izvan mojih osjećaja...
Ne vraćam se kući...Idem u nepoznato...
Idem tamo gdje je bajka pošla po krivu...
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Never Enough...<3
ponedjeljak, 11.08.2008.

Vrijeme je da napokon budem sretna...Ja sam tvoj anđeo s jednim krilom...
Samo zajedno možemo poletjeti...


Oči su mi cne...Ponovno...
Prolazim kroz maničnu depresiju...Bez litija...
Kroz te mračne prostorije odjeljene plaštevima lažnih osmjeha...
Molim te da ne pustiš moju ruku jer ti me vodiš
Poput blještavog svjetla u ove jutarnje sate bez svjetla...
I zora me zaboravila...

Bezlična prikazanja...
I to samo pod pritiskom kamenitog tla po kojem hodam...
Spoticanje...Padanje...Ali uvijek se iznova ustajem...
Ovaj puta ne...Ne više...

Ne osjećam te više uz sebe...
No neki čudan osjećaj me uporno prati iako je mrtav...
Pod prstima osjećam dodir prašine,
Da sam barem ja takva...
Da me barem samo mogu otpuhnuti i ja ću na trenutak nestati...
Ali uvijek ću se ponovno vraćati.

Vidim te...Ponovno...
Polazim za tobom...Bez oklijevanja...
Tvoje ruke...Tople...Meke...
Podižu me s tla...
I dalje nastavljaš zbunjeno...Bez mene...
Snažna sam na površini,ali duboko u sebi želim da znaš...
Želim da znaš da nisi samo uništenje ili običan plamen...
Ti si...Svjetlo!

Zagrli me čvrsto...Drži me blizu...
Naša krila će biti zajedno...Dovoljno da ti poletiš...
Dovoljno da više ne budeš anđeo s jednim krilom...

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Mrtva Spisateljica



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Why I can't go to him??? :( :( :(
nedjelja, 03.08.2008.

Ne mogu shvatiti...Zašto jedino ja ne mogu do svog dečka,a svi ostali mogu...
I nije ih briga ni da su na kraju svijeta,nego idu k voljenoj osobi bez obzira na sve!!!Uf kako sam ljuta i tužna!
Ne želim ga izgubiti zbog udaljenosti!I baš me briga što će mi moja baka reći,i briga me hoće li mi uzeti komp i ne znam što napraviti,ja samo želim ići k njemu!!!Nitko ne shvaća!!!Zašto ne shvaćaju da on ne može doći,jednostavno ne može!A i što bi on tu kad bi došao?Ne bih ga mogla uvesti u kuću jer bi moja ljupka baka poludjela jer misli da do 20. godine ne smijem imati dečka!Uf!Jednostavno ne shvaćam u čemu je problem!Moglu jednostavno sjesti na vlak i otići na par sati i vratiti se isti dan i nikome ništa!A nitko ne bi ni skužio da me nema!Ionako ih nije briga!
Jedino što sada želim je otići do njega...Samo to želim...Zašto to nitko ne shvaća i nepodupire me u tome da budem sretna?Pa ja nikada nisam sretna,samo držim taj glupi lažni osmjeh na licu kako bi se pravila da je sve ok.E pa nije sve ok...
Koliko se god to glupo činilo,ja ne želim izgubiti Darkmana!Znam da imamo tek 15 godina ali baš me brigaaa!Ja njega volim i on voli mene...Znam da me voli...I znam da tu ima nešto više i nije to trenutna privlačnost!Zar trenutna privlačnost traje 4 mjeseca zaboga???!!!
Dosta mi je....
Da bar shvate koliko bi tih par sati s njim meni značilo...Nikada nisam ništa tražila,sve su mi uzimali,a sad kad želim nešto tako lijepo i nematerijalno imaju problema s time...Ne shvaćam to...Zašto se samo meni to događa...
Svi me uvjeravaju da ćemo se vidjeti,ali kako kad nemam ničiju potporu u tome?
Želim ga vidjeti...A znam da i on mene želi vidjeti...Rekao je toliko stvari o kojima nisam ni sanjala i nitko mi to nije rekao...Želim mu ispuniti tu jednu želju...I to ne zato što i ja to želim,nego zato što je to pravedno.
Želim da me napokon ima u zagrljaju...
Ne znam što da kažem ni kome da to kažem...Ali jedno znam...Ne želim ga izgubiti!I to neću dopustiti makar pobjegla tamo...Iako bi me se mama odrekla preko medija,a baka istjerala van,ali nema veze...Već sanjam odlazak k njemu i zaista nema ljepšeg sna od toga...
Ovo za mene i njega nije obična djetinjarija....
Volim ga...Zaista ga volim...
Heh...Ali to nije dovoljno da bi mogla otići k njemu...
Koja ironija...Pegla me kao Boschova pegla na paru...
Znam da je ovo čudan post i nikada nisam pisala ovako,ali morala sam se negdje ispucati jer ću poludjeti...
Možda ga obrišem...Tko zna...Ionako ga nitko neće pročitati...
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