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12.06.2008., četvrtak
Crveni konji
Lovac i u njegovoj ruci uže a ja sam prespor, više ni galopirati ne mogu kao nekada pa kao da svjesno popuštam njegovoj perverznoj želji da me zatoči. I pokorno hodam za njim a uže kao da natopljeno je kiselinom i vezano za otvorenu ranu a ne želim mu pokazati koliko mi je sloboda značila pa se u mojim crnim očima samo nakupljaju suze a plakati ne želim jer nikada nisam plakati znao. Odvukao me do ograde gdje su ostali konji bili privezani i vidio sam njihove noge vezane i slomljene, onesposobljene za hod a kamoli za galop. Iz presivih oblaka pada nevjerojatno tiha kiša pa je sve ostalo jednako tako utihnulo jedino što se čuje je tiho jecanje konja a suze iz njihovih očiju stapaju se sa kišom i izgleda da svatko od njih zna nešto osim mene. Čujem njegov teški hod i čizme što gaze kroz blato i mutne oči vide palicu u njegovoj ruci. Zašto pitao sam pogledom a on nije znao odgovoriti, znao je jedino snažno zamahnuti palicom i udarati,udarati i udarati sve dok nisam odustao od pitanja i zapečatio pogled jednom zauvijek. Svijet je sada crven od njegove ljubavi prema meni i pomislim da sam zahvalan svojem krvniku što tako nježno udara dok ne umrem. Prvi put plačem ali nisu to suze već krv što tako silno klizi niz moje obraze. Postao sam jedan od crvenih konja koji umiru zbog drugih kako bi pokazali da se se umrijeti uopće ne isplati... |
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08.06.2008., nedjelja
Lokve za ronioce
Štakori i žohari odnose sve kada tijelo se raspada i iako se meso žari od otrovane krvi duša nikako da nestane izgleda da im nije toliko ukusna koliko i mladost koje su se gotovo nasitili. Na kostima nema tragova gozbe kao da je kostur odavno ogoljen a glupe životinje zaboravile su isisati srž iz kralježnice zato i sada nakon nekoliko dana ležim živ iako mrtav u lokvi ustajale kišnice i svježe mokraće pa često imam vremena misliti o životu i kako sam uopće umro. Ali toliko sam zaboravljiv i vječnost nije dovoljna da prisjetim se glupih grešaka koje iznova činim, grešaka zbog kojih iznova umirem. Šuplja lubanja kao da još ima oči plave ili zelene i dok se utapa u onoj istoj lokvi gleda gore prema ljubičastom nebu koje svakog trenutka se sprema obrušiti na zemlju i zastrašiti sve svojom zaglušujućom grmljavinom a možda nekoga nebo i ubije pa ponovno dođu štakori i žohari i izgrizu mladost i nemilosrdno je progutaju ali ponovno zaborave na božansku dušu koja će kao i ja imati previše vremena za kontemplaciju.Možda da prestanem misliti i utonem u more zatupljenosti koje donosi blaženu sreću i možda mi se obnove mišići koji će mi omogućiti plutanje po površini i ne dozvoliti kao prije da ronim,da dotaknem dno... |
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