Becoming who we are
Svaki put kad vidim iste oči samo poželim da opet zajedno prođemo po tkalčićevoj I pravimo se da se ništa nije promijenilo. Da smo tek dvoje naivne djece zadovoljeni tu I tamo kojim prijateljskim zagrljajem. Da sam odustala prvi put kad mi je rekao da nije siguran isplati li se. Sad je prekasno…sad je prekasno…Govore mi…Upozoravaju me…da nemam što tražiti s njim…Ali svaki put kad ga pogledam u očima mu vidim isti odsjaj plave Michelin šilterice I nervozan smješak podkrijepljen aparatićem.
Sjećaš li se prvog zalaska sunca? Prve večeri kad smo shvatili da tu ne prestaje…Tako smo bili sigurni u našu ljubav. To je bio trenutak koji nas je odveo u vječnost. Promijenio nam živote. Zauvijek imamo nešto što nas veže. Samo nas.
Bezbroj puta si me uvjerio da me voliš. Bezbroj puta si pobio tu tvrdnju. Bezbroj puta si me uvjerio da sam posebna. Bezbroj puta si lagao. Bezbroj puta si me uvjerio da smo stvoreni jedno za drugo. Bezbroj puta sam pokušala zavoljeti nekog drugog. Bezbroj puta sam vodila druge na naše mjesto. Pokušavajući izbrisati uspomenu na tebe. Sada se samo slatko smijem. Gledam u što si se pretvorio. Nisam to htjela.
Sada si realizirana fantazija mojeg prevrtljivog uma. Nepouzdanih sjećanja. Pitam se jesi li ikad stvarno bio moj “Savršeni dečko”? Ili si I ti samo jedan u nizu onih kojima sam pokušavala zamijeniti nekog drugog? Ili u tebi samo vidim što želim vidjeti? Zapravo ne znam ništa o tebi. Ostao si sjena. San koji je prešao u stvarnost I tako srušio sve na putu. Neću ti to nikad više dopustiti.
Ako me pitaju reći ću da te odavno više ne volim. Hoću li lagati? Ne želim se opterećivati time.
Ostaješ posljednji I prvi.
We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I will bleed forever
Scent of the sea before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I will bleed forever
Into the blue memory
A siren from the deep came to me
Sang my name my longing
Still I write my songs about that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be
The Child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves
Singing on the shoulders of an angel
Without care for love n` loss
Bring me home or leave me be
My love in the dark heart of the night
I have lost the path before me
The one behind will lead me
Take me
Cure me
Kill me
Bring me home
Every way
Every day
Just another loop in the hangman`s noose
Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home
Every way, every day
I keep on watching us sleep
Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve
Of you and me
Forgive the adoring beast
Redeem me into childhood
Show me myself without the shell
Like the advent of May
I`ll be there when you say
Time to never hold our love
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
You were the one to cut me
So I will bleed forever
by : bebach {a darkened star reborn}
28.10.2008. u 14:11 |
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ne, niste pogriješili adresu
dobro, možda i jeste
ali sada je prekasno
ovdje ste na vlastitu odgovornost
za počinjene suicide ne odgovaram
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"I run this world alone
A song stuck in my mind
Are you feeling alright?
Don't mind if you ask me once
Discover me like emptiness
A defense for a broken heart
Still offers a smile to the world betrayed...
Always close to the drop
Disappear with yesterday
Cure this dream that makes me fall
Blame me...
Escape me...
Well it's you who walked away
Tie me...
For my sake
To the dream that haunts you"
"Pour the emerald wine
Into crystal glasses
We will touch the divine
Through kisses catharsis
Let us pitch to the seven-year itch
Of the ultra-decadent
To a tainted world and the painted girls
That our fantasies spent
Tripping through boudoirs laced with opiate themes
Sipping the bizarre, tasting copious dreams
A toast to those most sacrilegious of days
Where for every whim won
One soon repays
We touched the stars
That now laugh from afar
At we, the damned
The damned
The damned
The damned
We have spent our time
Drenched in opulent splendour
But when midnight chimes
Will gilded souls surrender?
Let us drink on the giddying brink
Of pools of excrement
All manner of shit for the glamour and glitz
Mephistopheles lent
I remember the night as if it were engraved
A bright marble bridge stretched across the dark waves
To the shore from the moon and by her grace
Came that erudite stranger
That fucker
He was a predator, creditor cold
Our blood was shed on the yellowing scroll
And all that glittered was not gold
But we wanted everything
And for it all, lost our souls
Come my friend, to fate let's raise
Two finger shots at this our last soiree
For tomorrow I fear
Swoops all too deadly near
This precipitous weir to Hell's high gate"
"Hand of fate is moving and the finger points to you
He knocks you to your feet and so what are you gonna do
Your tongue has frozen now you've got something to say
The piper at the gates of dawn is calling you his way
You watch the world exploding every single night
Dancing in the sun a newborn in the light
Say goodbye to gravity and say goodbye to death
Hello to eternity and live for every breath
Your time will come"
"The razor caressed my flesh
and my arms turned red, I feel a vast desire
Years of pain are flowing down my arms.
Sweet, red, warm stream you drink, make me released
Give me your hand, let me make you feel the ease,
in the bed of razors we bleed together..."
"Don't turn away
I pray you've heard
The words I've spoken
Dare to believe
For one last time
And then I'll let the
Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own
Carry me away
I need your strength
To get me through this
Dare to believe
For one last time
And then I'll let the
Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own"
"When I was wandering in the desert and was searching for the truth .
I heard a choir of angels calling out my name.
I had the feeling that my life would never be the same again
I turned my face towards the barren sun.
And I know, of the pain, that you feel the same as me.
And I dream, of the rain, as it falls upon the leaves.
And the cracks, in our lives, like a cracks upon the ground.
They are sealed, and are now, washed away.
You tell me we can start the rain.
You tell me that we all can change.
You tell me we can find something to wash the tears away.
You tell me we can start the rain.
You tell me that we all can change.
You tell me we can find something to wash the tears."
"Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Black of day, dark of night, we share this paralyze
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
Yeah
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?
Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there"
"Fare thee well, little broken heart
Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
Constant longing for the perfect soul
Unwashed scenery forever gone
No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven beside me
My time is yet to come
So I'll be forever yours"
"You're looking at me why
Sort of like a leper vibe
Okay for your kind
But it's too good for me
And a hey I know I'm
Never gonna qualify
For all the bullshit
Of your social degrees
Oh look down your noses at me
Hating my identity
Oh but that don't mean a damn thing you see
'Cause down here in hell everybody loves me
Hey I know I'm anti-social
'Cause you act like I'm infected
With some atrocity
And though I know I'm
Every bit the same inside
My face don't fit
It's like I've got some disease
Oh you keep your face turned away
To strip me of identity
Oh still got my fortune and fame
'Cause down here in Hell everyone knows my name"
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