painting flowers white never suited my pallette

as long as the purple raindrops keep falling

Obeć'o si mi bio brda i doline
Kad si kleknuo pred mene na rizol.
Reko : pokaži zvijezdu koju da ti skinem
S dvanaest se život činio kao švedski stol

A na nama je samo da odlučimo kamo
Sve će se drugo već nekako naći
Moj Superman s fudbalerkom će se
Već nekako snać

Dala bih sve te noći da, da ostaneš taj čovjek u mojim očima.



Sada smo mladi odrasli ljudi i svijet više očito nije takav kakav je tada bio. No još uvijek se budim u suzama izgubljenih poljubaca i neproživljenih trenutaka. Bilo bi lijepo da je tako moglo ostati. Ali više me ne grije tvoj topli pogled i kasnonoćna pomisao da ću te sutra vidjeti. Više nismo ista djeca kojima je jedino na pameti kako će reći roditeljima da imaju curu/dečka. Sada imamo svoje živote. i očito sudbina nije htjela da nam se putevi poklope. Više ne žudimo jedno za drugim. Žudimo za životima kakve smo tada imali. Jer svaki put kad se sjetim…sjetim se i tebe. Znam da je i tebi tako. Ja nisam osoba koju tražiš i neću ti pružiti to što trebaš da bi se opet osjećao onako sretno kako si se osjećao tada.
Naravno da nije gotovo. Nikad neće biti. Jer svaki naš susret završi na istom mjestu. Jer ljudi oko nas ne razumiju zašto si ne pašemo SAVRŠENO.
Možda ne lažeš i zaista me voliš. No ja ne želim takvog čovjeka i takvu brigu u životu. Sada sam napokon dovoljno jaka da mogu i bez tebe.



I
I wish you could swim
Like the dolphins
Like dolphins can swim
Though nothing
Will keep us together
We can beat them
For ever and ever
Oh we can be heroes
Just for one day

I
I will be king
And you
You will be queen
Though nothing
Will drive them away
We can be heroes
Just for one day
We can be us
Just for one day

I
I can remember
(I remember)
Standing
By the wall
(By the wall)
And the guards
Shout above our heads
(Over our heads)
And we kissed
As though nothing could fall
(Nothing could fall)
And the shame
Was on the other side
Oh we can beat them
For ever and ever
Then we can be heroes
Just for one day

We can be heroes
We can be heroes
We can be heroes
Just for one day
We can be heroes
We're nothing
And nothing will help us
Maybe we're lying
Then you better not stay
But we could be safer
Just for one day



by : BEBACH {my home's in your arms}

27.09.2008. u 11:07 | 3 Komentara | Print | # | ^

My life is just a dark fairytale soap opera

one shit after another

Dugo vremena sam nijekala. Nisam znala što zapravo želim. Ali žarko sam žudila za nečim…višim. Silno sam se bojala…što će biti…što ću napraviti. Samo sam željela izvući se i ostati svoja nakon svega. Željela sam pobjeći od svog sadašnjeg života i početi novi. Mislila sam da ne mogu dalje ovdje…ovako. Nitko nije znao. Nitko nije vidio kako plačem. Čak do zadnjeg puta kad sam istrčala odande spotičući se. Nikog zapravo nije bilo briga. Bilo mi je lakše samoj. I od trenutka kad sam se počela plakati u dnevnoj sobi iščekujući poziv. Kad sa izašla na sunce samo sam željela da na jedan trenutak mogu prestati voljeti. Mama zašto misliš da nisam mogla ustati pola sata? Jer mi je bio poznanik?
Još uvijek ne pričam o tome. Nasumično biram polu-prijatelje koji nisu ni svjesni što slušaju. Tako da...pravit ćemo se da ovaj post nije objavljen jelda?



Two years ago was the first time I truly thought I could never go on with my life. Every hope died along with him. The strings of his coffin were always there with me holding me down. It got me so hard I couldn’t cry. So hard I couldn’t gather enough strength to tell anyone the true story about us. I had just one thing on my mind – I almost died with him. Although my life got almost back to normal, there will always be a thin line of sadness pulling me down to the ground as I try to walk and go on with my life. A part of my soul that he took along will never come back. No one could ever replace it.



The gal dem Scalatchi...Sean da Paul
So me give it to...so me give to...so me give it to...to all girls
Five million and forty naughty shorty...
Baby girl...all my girls... all my girls...Sean da Paul sey...

Well woman the way the time cold I wanna be keepin' you warm
I got the right temperature to shelter you from the storm
Oh lord, gal I got the right tactics to turn you on, and girl I...
Wanna be the Papa...You can be the Mom....oh oh!

Make I see the gal them bruk out pon the floor from
you don't want no worthless performer
From you don't want no man wey can't turn you on gal
make I see your hand them up on ya..
Can't tan pon it long.....naw eat no yam...no
steam fish....nor no green banana
But down in Jamaica we give it to you hot like a sauna..

Bumper exposed and gal you got your chest out but you
no wasters cause gal you impress out...
And if you des out a me you fi test out,Cause I got the
remedy to make you de-stress out....
Me haffi flaunt it because me God Bless out...And girl
if you want it you haffi confess out...
A no lie weh we need set speed a fi test the mattress out..

Gal don't say me crazy now, this Strangelove it
a no Bridgette and Flava show..
Time fi a make baby now so stop gwaan like you a act shady yo...
Woman don't play me know, cause a no Fred Sanford nor Grady yo....
My lovin' is the way to go...my lovin' is the way to go.....

When you roll with a player like me...with a
bredda like me girl there is no other
No need to talk it right here just park it right here keep it undercover
From me love how you fit inna you blouse and you fat
inna you jeans and mi waan discover..
Everything out you baby girl can you hear when me utter...

A thirteen-year-old girl shouldn’t have gone through that completely alone. A fifteen-year-old girl shouldn’t have scars that cut so deep.

by : bebach {no idea what I've been through}

22.09.2008. u 18:52 | 1 Komentara | Print | # | ^

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wtf??
ne, niste pogriješili adresu
dobro, možda i jeste
ali sada je prekasno
ovdje ste na vlastitu odgovornost
za počinjene suicide ne odgovaram

abaut:

cijenjeno ime : Mateja
godine : 15
mjesto : STC metropola
škola : spogi
sport : tenis
zanimanje : klošar, metalac, profi pubertetlija
muzika : metal (bendovi na dnu boxeva)
kontakt : za msn se javite u komentarima (pričate sa mnom na vlastitu odgovornost)
mračna tajna : imam fetiš na časne sestre i u slobodno vrijeme ih vrebam ispred katedrale, koljem i mažnjavam odore


moj spejs

poznajem (il ne poznajem) :

drug dodo
raina astralia (bivša vila pustinje) - novi blog
pipo blog
illona
dedmenzbody (ramona)
teen spirit
snow white queen - moj najveći fan XD
daca
klinka naivna


RIP (fallen bloggers) - dragi ljudovi, više ne pišu blog
vila pustinje
bezimeni blog
kika
HC official drinker (Nel)
šinta
maggotsystem (geno)

"I run this world alone
A song stuck in my mind
Are you feeling alright?
Don't mind if you ask me once

Discover me like emptiness
A defense for a broken heart
Still offers a smile to the world betrayed...

Always close to the drop
Disappear with yesterday
Cure this dream that makes me fall

Blame me...
Escape me...
Well it's you who walked away
Tie me...
For my sake
To the dream that haunts you"




"Pour the emerald wine
Into crystal glasses
We will touch the divine
Through kisses catharsis

Let us pitch to the seven-year itch
Of the ultra-decadent
To a tainted world and the painted girls
That our fantasies spent

Tripping through boudoirs laced with opiate themes
Sipping the bizarre, tasting copious dreams
A toast to those most sacrilegious of days
Where for every whim won
One soon repays

We touched the stars
That now laugh from afar
At we, the damned
The damned
The damned
The damned

We have spent our time
Drenched in opulent splendour
But when midnight chimes
Will gilded souls surrender?

Let us drink on the giddying brink
Of pools of excrement
All manner of shit for the glamour and glitz
Mephistopheles lent

I remember the night as if it were engraved
A bright marble bridge stretched across the dark waves
To the shore from the moon and by her grace
Came that erudite stranger
That fucker

He was a predator, creditor cold
Our blood was shed on the yellowing scroll
And all that glittered was not gold
But we wanted everything
And for it all, lost our souls

Come my friend, to fate let's raise
Two finger shots at this our last soiree
For tomorrow I fear
Swoops all too deadly near
This precipitous weir to Hell's high gate"




"Hand of fate is moving and the finger points to you
He knocks you to your feet and so what are you gonna do
Your tongue has frozen now you've got something to say
The piper at the gates of dawn is calling you his way

You watch the world exploding every single night
Dancing in the sun a newborn in the light
Say goodbye to gravity and say goodbye to death
Hello to eternity and live for every breath

Your time will come"




"The razor caressed my flesh
and my arms turned red, I feel a vast desire
Years of pain are flowing down my arms.
Sweet, red, warm stream you drink, make me released
Give me your hand, let me make you feel the ease,
in the bed of razors we bleed together..."




"Don't turn away
I pray you've heard
The words I've spoken
Dare to believe
For one last time
And then I'll let the

Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own

Carry me away
I need your strength
To get me through this
Dare to believe
For one last time
And then I'll let the

Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own"




"When I was wandering in the desert and was searching for the truth .
I heard a choir of angels calling out my name.
I had the feeling that my life would never be the same again
I turned my face towards the barren sun.

And I know, of the pain, that you feel the same as me.
And I dream, of the rain, as it falls upon the leaves.
And the cracks, in our lives, like a cracks upon the ground.
They are sealed, and are now, washed away.

You tell me we can start the rain.
You tell me that we all can change.
You tell me we can find something to wash the tears away.
You tell me we can start the rain.
You tell me that we all can change.
You tell me we can find something to wash the tears."




"Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Black of day, dark of night, we share this paralyze
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

Yeah
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there"




"Fare thee well, little broken heart
Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness

Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone

Constant longing for the perfect soul
Unwashed scenery forever gone

No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven beside me
My time is yet to come
So I'll be forever yours"




"You're looking at me why
Sort of like a leper vibe
Okay for your kind
But it's too good for me

And a hey I know I'm
Never gonna qualify
For all the bullshit
Of your social degrees

Oh look down your noses at me
Hating my identity
Oh but that don't mean a damn thing you see
'Cause down here in hell everybody loves me

Hey I know I'm anti-social
'Cause you act like I'm infected
With some atrocity

And though I know I'm
Every bit the same inside
My face don't fit
It's like I've got some disease

Oh you keep your face turned away
To strip me of identity
Oh still got my fortune and fame
'Cause down here in Hell everyone knows my name"

ŠTA ME OGLUŠUJE OVIH DANA

cradle of filth

dimmu borgir
nightwish
sonata arctica
metallica
behemoth
ebony tears
children of bodom
apocalyptica
rammstein
disturbed
embrio
in flames
dissection
hladno pivo
djubrivo
amon amarth
iron maiden

sepultura
dismember
moonspell
CKY
stone sour
within temptation
stribog
judas priest
infernal tenebra
linkin park
SOAD
therion
breaking benjamin
alice cooper
my dying bride
mayhem
daemonia
blind guardian
dornenreich
manson
trivium
korn
tematorus