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Our Love
Loves memory has traced our outline in this place.
But will the spider remember, or the sun?
Did the water capture our faces in permanence?
Does the wind create us anew as it blows?
Did the shadows from the trees record our passage beneath them?
Our secret been revealed.
Yet I have told no other.
I write these words in silence, in mute testimony
To what once was.
But our image remains alive in this place.
It can not be removed.
You, me,
We then,
Were here.
We saw the day and hoped for tomorrow.
We caught a brief glimpse of love's promise.
We were not liars,
But thieves of time.
For now time has now forgotten us,
Yet our memory lingers, and love remembers
This place that was ours.
Falling Away
I am bored with love
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity
Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two by fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone
Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed
our bodies to become
another pair of hollow shadows
that make love to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the roses are dying
Your Lies
Funny when things never change
Even when you say they will
But while your off s(rewing her
My life is standing still
You tell me that you love me
When I go to leave
You tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe
I know that you are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that you don't love me
I know I'm just for show
I don't know If I can stand
To see you love another girl
You know that you broke my heart
You know that your my world
But while your standing by my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together
Autumn Times
Autumn breeze frigidly touches ailing dreadful lives
Harshly darkness quietly surrounds the broken souls
Mellow serenades that once played between hearts
Pathetically have transformed into bitter sad songs
Somewhere beyond the flossy clouds
Cupid has lost his romancing arrows
Plays sad sonorous tunes on his bow
Dedicated to all weepy lonely hearts
Howling chilly wind blows through the mist
Sounds of sorrow spread allover the place
Fuzzy humid air submerges the inner lust
Lives decay slowly as the autumn leaves fall...
***GUILTY***
...Hmm...
...In pieces...
I see a knife in her hand...
Blood is dropping downwards it...
...The floor is wet...
Red coloured...
...This guilty is floating on your chest...
...In your very lungs...
Wondering why you have even tried to stand how he looks at me...
...Now your wide open eyes are looking your own blood...
And you are choaking in it...
...You have forgotten to live in this...
...It makes no sense you need me...
To hear my moan when you are torturig me...
...Without air...
...Without light...
...Without water...
...Without bread...
That are all familiar scenes...
...This guilty...
...This sorrow...
Now its all yours...
...Are you happy now?...
...Should I tell you why I have left?...
Should I put your guilty on the table like the playing cards...?
...You don't even rememeber how I fought for you!...
...Guilty...
...You wanna her me scream again...
...
Your guitar is killing me...
...Our song dries me inside when you play it...
...Yes,I still love you...
Yes,I love the pain you were giving to me...
I love hear you are torturing me...
...My life always belonged to you...
We just breath...
We just exist...
...
...I live for the day when you will stop beating me...
...I live for the day when I won't be addicted to you...
I need you...Don't leave me alone...
Her hand killed you...
I see...You are not breathing...
I'm ripping my bands from my wrists and my ankles...
I want to hold you in my arms...I need you...
I'm taking off every patch from my skin...
...I'm wiping your blood wih my bands...
...Slowly...
...Deadfull slowly...
She is shaking...
She is weaping...
She is begging me:"Go away..."
...But I won't leave you alone...
I want your body...
...I want your flesh and bones...
I need your hand...
I need your hurtle...
I need your fist...Beat me again...
Kick me,my love...
I love this pain...
Push me downstairs...
Bruises...Wounds...Blood...Pain...
...I miss all that...
Baby,wake up!
Undress me like you used to...
...Kiss me like only you knew...
...Grab my wrists and push me to the ground...
Stay here tonight...
Baby,wake up!!!
He is here...He has come for me...
...Goodbye,my sorrow...
Now I'm kissing happiness...
Now I am holding on to life...
Now I feel true love...
Now I'm smiling...
I am not crying...I am not paying...I am not beaten...
I'm beloved women of someone who holds me in his arms...
Sleep well,my sadness...
...I will smile for you...
***Gunshot***
...Bam!...
...
...the gunshot...
...
...I am falling...
...I am dying...
Please run to me...I have taken the shot for you...
...Screaming faces...
...Stopped cars...
The police...
Firefighters...
Ambulance...
I don't need all that...
...Why are you just standing there?...
...
...Please...I beg you...I'm crying to you...
...Pain...
...Make it stop...
...Make me dead...
..I gave my love for you...
...
...Why are you just standing there?...
Now I see...
...She is standing next to you...
...Am I standing on your way?...
...I have taken the shot for you...
I know her identity...
She carries my name...But its broken...Like I am...
Ann Marie...Thats her name...
But my name spells together!
...
Why?...
...
Just look at her...At her mean eyes and smile...
Please...Look at her...She is smiling...
Please...LOOK AT HER!HURRY!
Please...
It stopped...
I have taken my last breath...
Ahh...
I can't see you anymore...
But your picture will be infront my eyes forever...
Even when they will rot in the ground...
And...Now...
...There is one broken glass...
...She ate your heart...
You have taken the shot for her...
She didn't make it stop...
...The police...
Firefigters...
Ambulance...
...You don't need all that...
I could make it stop...
...For you...
You could make it stop for me...
...
...Rotting together in the same ground...
...Goodbye...
...Goodbye...My beloved one...
...
...
...Goodbye...Annmarie...
(My eye...hh..)
**RUN**
The Moon...
...Changing my shape...
...He is changing me inside-out...
I rip my own skin...
...Underneath it I hide a curse...
...You want to know how is it?...
Let mi show you something...
...Turn the lights off...
This is disturb puls...
...Disturbance...
...It's better for you to think twice...
...Haha...
I rip him apart...
Can you see his flesh?
...
Oh yes...
...His white flesh...
Do you see his blood on my lips?
Do you see a joy inside of me?
..I'm smiling...
...I am a hunter...
...They better run...
RUN!
...Run...Or you are dead...
In this restless night I am the queen of the sanguinarius...
I always wanted to be that...
...Bloodists...
...That is so good,Isn't it?...
RUN!
..Or I will catch you...
Turn the lights on...
Do you still want this?
Are you here?
...Halo...?
...
...Halo?...
...
...Haha...
...
...Ofcourse you don't want this...
...You runaway...
RUN!
...Hahaha...
You can run but you cannot hide...
...Oh,yes...
...Tomorrow I will eat you alive!
**REPELING THE DEMON**
...Shhhh...
..Listen to my voice...
...I'm calling you...Calling you in your very dreams...
...You...And me...
...Togetherness...
...Eternity...
Run into my eyes...
...I want you...
I will run into your arms...
...I love you...
Read from my lips...I'm saying:
...Come...Please...Come...COME!...
...I don't need a permission from her...
...Graveyard...
...Candles...
...My liquid fire...my blood...
...Your wide mysterious river...your eyes...
I want it all...
I want it now...
Sometimes I get this feeling...
...You are watching me from the sky...
...I fell you...
...I smell you...
I cant breath the air when you are not in it...
...And now I feel dizzy...
...I can't feel my legs...
...I'm falling somewhere...The sense is fading...
You were here long time ago...
Do you hear it?
My shallow breathing...
...Inhale...
...Exhale...
...
...This is how I disappear...
...GO!...
Shhh...
...Be quiet...
...Please,hush...
Ta-dam...Ta-dam...
Can you hear it?
...My heart tells me I must give you everything I have...
...Everything I am...
Shhh...
..I don't want a word from you...
...He says:
I would become a ghost...So I can't hurt you anymore...
...
NO!
...Please,go away!...
GO AWAY!
...I am afraid...
...It's 2pm...But I still see the night...
...Can you save my eyes,they are melting in the sun...
Can you make me see you again?
No...No...NO!
Go away,please...Let me smile...
Go away...
Go...
See,my love?Do you see it?
...I made him to leave...
...He left...
I see you lying next to me...
He is gone!
Yes...Oh yes...
Stay,please...Stay here...
I beg you...Stay here till I fall asleep...
Hush...Hush...
I'm closing my eyes...
...I'm yours...
...
...Kiss me...
...
...Thank you...
<3
...Pain...
...Love...
...Hate...
...Passion...
...Desire...
...A murder...
...The most dredful thing is a fear...Out innermost desire...Our thirst...
..."I just wanna ove you..."...
...How many times I've spoken these words?It's so sad...
...I've never promissed myself there will be a sunshine everyday...
...I've never thought this will be my last opportunity to go somewhere I belong...
...I've always belived in YOU...
...I belived you'd come for me...
...Halo...?
...Halo...Are you there?...
...Aren't we too weak?Am I so foolish?...
...Running back through the fire just to save me...
...Can you come for me?...
...Lonelyness...
...Tears...
...Depression...
...Time...
...Tick-tack...Tick-tack...
...Tick-tack goes a little watch...
...The midnight is gone but I'm still waiting for you...
...My bloodthirsty heart can't beat any longer...
...Aren't we too ill?Am I so sensless?...
...Too late...
...Tick-tack...Tick-tack...
...Dream approaches...
...Blood...
...Lips...
...Eyes...
...A touch...
...A kiss...
...Sweet assassin...
...This razor...
...Its blade...
...I'm cutting you...
...You're laying on my bed in this hot summer night...
...I'm drinking...
...You're breathing...
...How long can I keep you mine?...
...You know the place where we can run to...
...You know who I am...
...Someday I'll take you deep within my heart...
...I can take you now...
...If you really really want that...
...A kill...
...A hunter...
...My lover...
...My vampire...
...Blood...
...His hand in mine...
...Greenish eyes...
...Chocolate in my sight...
...A trigger...
...Affecion...
...Hush...Hush,darling...
...It's time to sleep...
...Bite me forsefully...
...And take me there...
...Say to me...
...Hush,hush...
...And my lips are sealed...
...Kiss me...
...And take me there with you...
...You...
...Me...
...Life...
...Immortality...
...Evermore...
...Undying rage...
...Hush,hush...
...Tick-tack...Tick-tack...
...Hushh...
And I will be all what you want...All your life...All your misunderstood memories...I will take you deep inside my ocean and my mind...I will gather all our lifes to be with you always when you need me...And I can't let you go away again...
You said to me there is no women like I am...You said you want me close...To take a walk with me and pass through the graveyard...To kiss my pale lips and take me to the Neverland.Why have I belived you?...Why I'm waiting for your call?Why I'm still trying to catch you?Why,my love?...
You are a dream...The most beautiful dream...Untouchable...Unreal...These words I have written are just a fiction.Just a small piece of what we could share,my love..."They belived in nothing...Now they are nothing..."she said.Isn't she?We must walk through that wasteland of eternity...Through the empire of corpses and spilled blood...Without love...Without touch...We are still waiting for a kiss of dawn...Why must we share this pain?
I'm standing in the middle of nowhere asking myself "Who am I?"...My sight is weak...Looking my hands and realise there is no ME...I'm just a space...And I want you inside of me...I'm a world...World of chaos...And I want you...
Now I'm crying this slaty tears...They are slipping down my cheak...My eyes are lightless...My eyelashes are wet...It hurts me so bad beacuse you are so far away from me...Now I'm broken and I just can't make it alone...Getting through the monsoon...This time I just can't be alone...
FIND YOURSELF IN THIS,my darling...You will make me fell okay...Now I see,honestly,this words are the one which I have left inside...I'm running back to my death,running away from everyone...Keep me away from turning apart...I know you told me you hate when I am sad,but I can't help myself...I will swallow my dreams of being with you forever...To get you through this darkness and show you my light...There is nothing much to say to you,so you can see your name in a heart on a piece of paper...I'm a guardian and I must hold my head high...But I will be all that you want...All my life,I will be there by your side forever...
And I'm sorry for all this mess in my head...I'm sorry for bothering you with that...I'm sorry because I can't laugh forever with you...I'm sorry for turning apart...I'm sorry beacuse I'm weak...I'm sorry beacuse I can't make everything okay...I'm sorry beacuse I'm crying now...I'm sorry beacuse my lips will be salty when you will kiss me for the first time...I'm sorry beacuse my sight is dizzy,and I can't see the words I'm writing...Now I can't breath easy...I can't turn myself around...I can't let you go...
I'm just a little girl...Not a woman...And I'm selfish beacuse I can't let you go...Yes,I'm inlove...I'm guilty because of that...But I'm really not sorry for that...But its' so hard to admit to myself I'm inlove in a dream...
Let me catch you...You won't fall...I will catch you and hold you in my arms...Let me run for you,let me reach out for you...Let me touch you...Let me catch you,you are a dream...The dream of my happiness which I'm afraid the most...Destroy my fear...Let me hunt you...Let me catch a dream...<3
~ Trenutno ti svira:30 Seconds To Mars-The Kill
~ Najvažnija sitnica koju moraš napraviti svaki dan: slušati glazbu od kad se probudim pa do kad idem spavat..XD
~ Pjesma koju slušaš svako jutro:Nemam baš nešto određeno...U zadnje vrijeme je to Shut Up od LaFee
~ Tvoja psovka: jebo te patak..bwahah, moja i sekina
~ Navika prije spavanja: slušat glazbu.. pomislit na jednu osobu...Dopisivati se na mob...XD
~ Mobitel ti zvoni: Complicated-Avril Lavigne
~ Kad izlaziš iz kuće: kad mi mama da...gah...I kad se meni da ići,a u zadnje vrijeme mi se ne da...
~ Ne možeš izaći bez: mp4-a, moba ili nečega što će mi svirati..
~ Prvo što pomisliš ujutro: ma daaj, koliko je to već sati.. ili muka mi je.. ili neeee, šutiii! XD(kao i moja seka,haha)
*...ŠkOla...
~ Škola je: nešto gdje pobjegnem od ludare koja se zove "kuća"
~ Ideš u: medicinsku
~ U razredu sjediš: s Cigijem(moi teddy bear će pasti razred!!!KME!!!oČem da oCtane!!!)
~ Na satu: spavam, crtam, pišem pjesme, ne prepisujem što profač da.. mazim se s Cigijem...XDXD...Okrećem se k BebaČu i Peharcu...
~ Predmet koji voliš:praktikum i anatomija
~ A onaj koji jednostavno mrziš:fizikaaaaaa...matematikaaaaa...(ali voljam matematičare,haha,(Filip))
~ Tvoje bilježnice su: uredne...valjda...
~ U šk.torbi uvijek imaš:knjige...mob..mp4...svaštaru...knjige...
~ Tvoj razred je: a ok su ljudi...puno bolje nego osnovnjak...napokon se osjećam prihvaćenom...<3
~ Kad je gotov zadnji sat ti:jurim za društvom i idemo skupa na bus...Zagrlim BebaČa(to je već ritual,ahahaha) i borim se da ne sretnem Pernara(God forgive me,but I really really really don't like him)
*...ObiTeLJ...
~ Za tebe predstavlja:a ne znam..
~ U kući prebivaju: mama,očuh i dosada od mog brata...
~ Živcira te: mama, bratttt!!!!!
~ Kod svoje obitelji voliš: a ne znam...malo toga...uvijek osjećam da ne pripadam ovdje...frendovi su moja druga obitelj...
~ Vi ste koji tip obitelji? : kaj postoje tipovi obitelji? -.-..dosta razoren tip...
~ Praznike provodite:doma...gah
~ Najljepša uspomena: iz obitelji? pfffff... ne znam, uvijek se nađe *određena osoba* koja sve usere
~ Mama je za tebe: osoba koju jako volim i koja me ne razumije hahaha...L ya mum...
~ Tata je za tebe:nemam tatu...a očuh je ok...
~ A braća / sestre:gnjavaža.. posebno kad mu dosadno pa ubija dosadu zajeb mene..-.-...maltretira me svakodnevno...
*...EkIpA...
~ Pravi prijatelji:emm.. polako sam počela gubit vjeru u to.. al ajd.. Nikicha,RATKO(L ya brotherrr),NELA(L ya sekaaaa),Lutak,Dani,Cigi,BebaČ,Lucija,FILIP...<3
~ Jesi li ikad doživio/la razočaranje?: da.. uvijek=(
~ Najdraža uspomena? :amm...mislim da je to ona kada sam još bila u kontaktu s Denisom...Heh...One večeri provedene uz cam...Zezanje...Njegov vampirski osmjeh wiii, **svrš**XD...Uf...Ili kada sam se svađala s Vučkom(Matko legendo hahaha,grrrrr)...I kad sam upoznala Nelly i Ratka...Kad sam se pomirila s Danijem...Amm...KAD JE NELLY DOŠLAAAA:::AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...
~ Paše ti više m ili ž društvo? : muško očito..XD
*...LjuBaV...
~ To je: osjećaj koji ne može bez boli...kao čipka od strune optočena biserima...predivna,ali boli kad je obučemo...
~ Ljubav boli ili: da.. uvijek
~ Veze su: previše idealizirane...osobito s moje strane,to mi je mana...Uvijek mislim da je dečko idealan...
~ Kratka/duga veza? : duga ipak...=(
~ Što misliš o "brijanju"? : Ne znam...nikad nisam zabrijala s nikime...Nije mi do toga...Trebam ozbiljnu vezu,a ne briju...
~ Razlog za prekid? : uvijek moja emotivnost...dajem sve,a ne dobijem ništa...Uostalom,nisam imala puno veza...
~ Jesi se opekao/la? : uvijek...zato ponekad mislim da mi jednostavno nije suđeno da imam dečka...ˇˇ
~ Jesi sad zaljubljen/a? : da...ali nisam sposobna to pokazati...Mislim da je previše toga ostalo u meni i više to ne mogu izbaciti iz sebe...Denis...Leo...Sve to...Denisov povratak me šokirao...To je bio THE šok...A sada je opet daleko od mene...(Gentleman With A Smile 4ever).Čak ni sad kad sam našla nekog koga bih fkt mogla voljeti,ne mogu...Nisam više to ja...Nadam se da će biti prilike da me on zaista vidi onakvu kakva jesam...I da ću moći dati onoliko ljubavi koliko sam zaista sposobna dati i koliko on zaslužuje,a zaslužuje zaista puno...Zlo jedno malo,haha(Andrej<3)^^
*...OnA oSobA koJa Te...
~ Nasmijava? Nikicha...Lutak...seka...braco...
~ U potpunosti razumije?seka i braco...
~ Ljuti većinu vremena? BRATTT...alaaaa...issse...
~ Izluđuje? dečko jedan...Lucija...XD...(šalim se ljubavi)
~ Zadržava na telefonu?seka kad je nazovem jer imam free calls...
~ Čini nervoznim/om u pozitivnom smislu?-Ammm...Hmm...Denis...Ali samo kad bih ga vidjela...Ma shit...
~ Sjedi s tobom u razredu?-CIGIIII...moa maza...XD(Ove godine pada razred,i jako sam tužna zbog toga...sad nemam s kim drijemati pod satovima ni zezati profesore...XDXD)
~ Potajno želi? -Kak da ja to znam?-.-
~ Povrijedila?-aaah...brdo osoba...no comment...
~ Podnosi uvijek i u svakom trenu?-seka...braco...Filip...Lucija...
~ Zna u detalj? -seka i braco (<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3)
*...SuPrOtnI sPoL...
~ Na izgledu primjećuješ: OČIIII...to obveeznoooo...ohooo...
~ Karakterne osobine: odan...iskren...emotivan...bad boy...zaštitinički nastrojen...pinkicu ljubomoran...XD...da mu je stalo...heh
~ Privlači li te određeni stil cure/dečka? : paa.. prije bi se okrenula za nekim rokerom ili gotičarom nego za nekim šminkerom.. al nije mi to toliko bitno..XD..(kao i seka...haha)
~ Romantičnost? -ooo daaa...ja sam propali romatičar...XD
~ Mora li to biti netko sličan/a tebi? : -pa u nekim granicama.. moramo ipak imat nešt oko čega čemo se prepirat..haha
~ Voliš da te se tretira kao... : Amm...kad me zaštitnički zagrli...kad mi pokaže da mu je stalo.. i da me fkt želi.. =(
~ Mrziš: heh.. napasne, umišljene, glupa likove..-.-...i one koji ne vide pravu vrijednost neke cure nego se okreću za fufama...tatine sinčiće koji ti mašu pred nosom novčanicom od deset kuna i misle da ćeš mu popušiti...
*...PosLJeDnjE...
~ Zadnji sms: Andrej,Filip
~ Ocjena? -5 iz zdravstvene i praktikuma...i top iz anatomije,hahaha(Špija legendooo,vidimo se na patologiji i kirurgiji!!!)
~ Suze?-Kad sam poslala Denisu pismo...gah...i kad sam na prvi maj bila vani s Leom(nije imao s kime ići,a ja jebena majka Tereza moram izvući tog kretena van...kill me)..kad sam shvatila da se odurno ponašam prema Andreju...that hurts me the most...
~ Tjelesna aktivnost?-tipkanje po kompu...XD...i trčanje za Cigijem hahaha...LUDOOOO
~ Razočarenje: Denis...(
~ Razlog za osmijeh? -Filipovo filozofiranje kako ću naći boljeg frenda...LUDO MOA,JA TEBE VOLJATI PUNJOOO...
~ Izlazak? -u knjižnicu...XD
~ Koncert? -Nezz...
~ Putovanje? . Pakoštane...
~ Zagrljaj? Od BebaČa...^^..Od Cigija...I hug od moje ljubavnice Lucy...HAHA..I jučer od Filipa,hh...
~ Poklon?-kaj je to?-.-
~ Kupljeni odjevni predmet? -majica...one šlape na kockice(TOTALLY EMOOO)
~ Razgovor na MSN-u?-Andrej...braco...seka...
~ Propušteni poziv? -nemam trenutno toga...
~ Misao? -There is no love here...So what will you doooo???//Sometimes I wish I could save you...And tell you the things I want you to know...//OOO daj me ubi Bože,kad padam na daljinu,a ostavljam kretene iz Siska tu.XD
*...StVarNo (ne)BiTne Stvari...
~ Analiziraš li puno? -ne baš...Samo ljude na psihološkom nivou...
~ Kad ideš van brineš se:Da me stara neće dočekati s prodikom...I da će se ekipa napit ko crkotina...
~ Tvoja najveća mana je: Emotivnost...gah.to mi i Denis kaže i smeta mu to...
~U kafiću naručiš: Amm...Nescaffe...Uh dooobar konobar donese genijalnu kavu,volim gaaaaa....XD
~Pušiš: neee, fuj
~Na tvom playeru se najčešće vrti: ovisi.. svaki put nešto drugo, al ugl Him, 30 seconds to mars, in flames, bfmv,EPICA(kme)...
~ Za 10 godina se vidiš:na filozofskom,u ZG...sa svojim bracom i sekom...s dečkom kojem će biti stalo...
~ Plan za ljeto 2009. ? -Ići seki u VTC.Denisu u Orahovicu(samo da stanem ispred njega i da mi sve ono ponovi u facu...ipak je on Lestat,zar ne?heh))...Da možda Andrej dođe u SK(^^)
~ Želiš imati djecu? -Ofc...Rekla sam da će se sin zvati Noah ili Adrian,a kći Aurora...XD...Ali ne sad...Za kojih 15godina...
~ Gay is OK? : Ofc it's ok...
I odzvanja pjesma tužna kroz ovaj niz hodnika slijedeći moje uho kamo god prođem...Tihi dodir prstima po crno-bijelim tipkama...Note...Sjetna duša koja počiva u tom smrtnom tijelu...
Tražim ono što nikada pronaći neću...Odsjaj onih divnih Ivanjskih baklji u mojim snovima...
U onim očima koje su mi uzavrle krv u usnama...Polumrak i sjene...Duh i tihi vjetar...Samo ono što naš fizički svijet ne može razumjeti...
Zašto slušam iznova ove sjetne note...?Zašto u mojim ušima odzvanja pjesma tužna?Tek poneki radosni poklik dugih prstiju ponešto snažnije zatitra žice...Žice u mom tijelu...Žice u mojim osjećajima...Čekam njegovu simfoniju...Želim je u sebi...Želim oživiti svaki ton duboko u sebi,tako da mi svaki dan bude uglazbljena elegija...Da mi priča o danima kada sam bila ovako bestjelesna i nevidljiva...Da mi šapuće vlastite misli kada ni sama sebi ne vjerujem.
Glas...Glas me doziva u snu...Taj san sanja svaka djevojka koja ima prazninu koju ni cijeli ocean ne može ispuniti...A u stvarnosti je dovoljna samo ta jedna mala kap koja bi ublažila sve ovo što joj pritišće grudi i tjera je na plač.
I odzvanja pjesma tužna u odajama mog srca...Zatitrali su zastori od baršuna.Zatitrao je pokrivač od kašmira.Zgrabila sam ga rukama i čvrsto stegnula rubove u šake...Zašto se bojim?
Zašto svi odlaze...Kamo su krenuli?Volim ih...Volim ih više od svega...Volim...
Uspavanka...Glas...Doziva me...Tihe i nježne note...