ponedjeljak, 24.04.2006.
Nedavno sam svečano obečala kako ću se popraviti. Ali ne mogu. Uopće ne vidim svijetlo iz ovog tunela bez nade i teško mi je zamisliti mir u svijetu ili unutarnji mir ili bilo koje drugo sranje. Htjela sam se malo varati na tom planu i baš sada se progurati kroz to. Da sam alkoholičar rekla bih da mi je potrebna cuga, ali kako sam ja samo ja, ne znam što je to što želim.
Ujutro sam se jedva probudila. Bilo mi je tako teško izvuči se iz kreveta. Mrzim to što sam postala ovisna o krevetu. Ponekad spavam po čitav tjedan, a onda opet ne mogu ni oka sklopiti.
Živcira me to što se zapravo zajebavam s nečim što u mjerljivim terminima ne postoji. Nisam alkoholičarka, narkomanka, pa ne mogu optužiti cugu i drogu za moj problem, nisam anoreksičarka pa ne mogu okriviti hranu, ali je šteta ipak učinjena. Čeznem da postanem jedno od ovog navedenog, pa da me treba odvratiti od loših navika.
24.04.2006. u 08:56 •
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˝Jako rano u mojem životu već je bilo prekasno.˝
Marquerite Duras
SKID ROW - I REMEMBER YOU
Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I’d think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through...
I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I’d stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me...
Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say - I remember you...
We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I’d give my life for just one kiss
I’d live for your smile and die for your kiss...
Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say - I remember you...
We’ve had our share of hard times
But that’s the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you’ll never be lonely...
Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
’cause you’ll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you...
Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say - I remember you...
Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say - I remember you...
SKID ROW - IN A DERKENED ROOM
In a darkened room
Beyond the reach of god´s faith
Lies the wounded, the shattered
Remains of love betrayed
And the innocense of a child is bought
And sold
In the name of the damned
The rage of the angels left silent
And cold...
Forgive me please for I know not
What I do
How can I keep inside the hurt
I know is true...
Tell me when the kiss of love
Becomes a lie
That bears the scar of sin too deep
To hide behind this fear of running
Unto you
Please let there be light
In a darkened room...
All the precious times have been put
To rest again
And the smile of the dawn
Brings tainted lust singing my requiem
Can I face the day when i´m tortured
In my trust
And watch it crystalize
While my salvation crumples to dust...
Why can´t I steer the ship before
It hits the storm
I´ve fallen to the sea but still
I swim for shore....
Tell me when the kiss of love
Becomes a lie
That bears the scar of sin too deep
To hide behind this fear of running
Unto you
Please let there be light
In a darkened room...
