Ainulindale

As I may have mentioned before, humans have this habit of never being satisfied. Therefore, we are always looking for something new. We cannot stay too long in one place. This characteristic also applies to our love life. We venture through life seeking for "the one", a perfect partner that suits us the most. This search has blinded us from the truth. There is no perfect partner. It's so obvious. No love lasts forever. And why? Because of the fact mentioned before. We just cannot have only one. He or she may as well be perfect, it's all the same. Dump 'em when you get bored and continue your futile "search". I am searching for a perfect partner too, but unlike the rest of you, I know I will never find it. Not because I can't satisfy myself with only one person, but because I'd bet my life on the possibility that she can't. So I started thinking, how do I get it to last forever. What lasts forever. Nothing, except one single part of our life that never ends - death. This is why only a dead love can last forever. It's actually best to end it at it's peak. When it's blooming. So the only way to be sure that someone will love you forever is for that person to die after he or she expresses love to you. Isn't it interesting. I really hope my next girlfriend will die when her heart gets so filled up with love towards me. Yeah, I've said it. I hope she'll die. After that I can also die of sorrow but in peace knowing that I've finally found what I was looking for all of these years.

I see you come again
Though for just a moment
Without you in my death
Is only endless torment

Let us walk together
Graveyard calm and dear
Press your lips to mine
Before I disappear

Shed no tears my love
This is where I’ll be
Look through the crowd of souls
Among them you’ll see me

Flies with a broken wing, she's ever so graceful, so like an angel,
but I see, tears flow quietly.

The struggle she's seen this spring, when nothing comes dancing,
paying a handsome fee, and still she smiles at me.

And I can't take it, no I can't help but wonder...

Why do we sacrifice the beautiful ones?
How do you break a heart of gold?
Why do we sacrifice our beautiful souls?
Heroes of tales unsung, untold.

Sweet as an angel sings, she gives though she has none left but the
last one, free, unhesitatingly.

And I am humbled, I'm a broken mirror, and I can't help but wonder...

Why do we sacrifice the beautiful ones?
How do you break a heart of gold?
Why do we sacrifice our beautiful souls?
Heroes of tales unsung, untold.

Why do we sacrifice the beautiful ones?
Why when they walk with love alone?
Why do we sacrifice our beautiful souls?
Just trying to find their way home.

There's a star inside your eyes
It brings the light into my dark
Its endless fire never dies
And I adore to watch it spark

I’ll never ever let you cry
Kissing every single tear
And I will never let you die
Fighting off your every fear

Synchronize our hearts, my dear
Together they will make a sound
And then when your light starts to fade
Together they will stop to pound

Lately, I've been getting all these opportunities. It's about time, I've been waiting for over a year. I have a new friend and she's...she's just...you know...there really are no words to describe it. I really don't know what to say... :)
She makes me so.......there are no words for that either, hehe...I'm just...calm...again...There's nothing else I wanna say. :)