utorak, 30.05.2006.
I FUCKING HATE YOU LIKE I HAVE NEVER HATED ANYONE IN MY LIFE!!! HOW THE FUCK DID I LET MYSELF BELIEVE YOU AGAIN??? HOW STUPID CAN I BE??? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME--AM I SO FUCKED UP THAT I CAN'T SEE WHAT AN ASSHOLE YOU REALLY ARE??? SCREW YOU!!!!
YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!!! HOW COULD YOU??? AFTER EVERYTHING---AFTER ALL WE TALKED ABOUT??? AFTER ALL THAT HAPPENED THIS YEAR??? YOU ASSHOLE!!! YOU WERE JUST BUYING YOUR TIME TO FUCK ME UP!!! WELL, YOU JUST FUCKED UP YOURSELF....THE ONLY THING THAT PISSES ME OFF BEYOND REASON IS THAT I STAYED HOME EVERY GODDAMN WEEKEND WHILE YOU WERE OUT FUCKING GOD KNOWS WHO AND COMING INTO MY BED AT 4-5 IN THE MORNING REEKING OF ALCHOHOL....YOU KNOW I BEGAN WONDERING WHY YOU DIDN'T ASK TO HAVE SEX LATELY...NOW I KNOW THAT IT'S BECAUSE YOU WERE SCREWING SOMEONE ELSE...THAT FUCKING SMILE ON YOUR FACE...LIKE YOU HAVE NO WORRIES...LIKE YOU'RE THE MOST PERFECT PERSON IN THE WORLD...YOU ARE NOTHING!!!! NOTHING EXCEPT GARBAGE!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!! HOW COULD I EVER EVEN WISH TO LOVE YOU???? YOU---WHO ARE NOT WORTH ANYTHING, LET ALONE SOMEONE'S LOVE....I CAN'T STAND YOU!!! I WANNA THROW UP WHEN I THINK OF ALL THE TIMES YOU TOUCHED ME...I JUST WANNA GO AND SCRUB MY WHOLE BODY WITH FUCKING BLEACH....
JUST SO I COULD GET YOU OFF OF ME....I ALREADY RIPPED OUR PICTURES...THEY WERE A FUCKING FANTASY ANYWAYS...ONLY A FUCKED UP DREAM AND NOTHING ELSE...ALL THE DOLLS YOU BOUGHT HAVE BEEN STABBED WITH THE KNIFE...AND ALL THE TIME I WAS IMAGINING IT WAS YOU....I WISH I KNEW HOW TO DO VODOO....I WOULD JINX YOUR ASS SO YOU FEEL ALL THE PAIN THAT YOU HAVE CAUSED ME...BUT YOU KNOW WHAT???? I'M NOT SAD RIGHT NOW...I'M NOT HURT....I'M JUST PISSED AS HELL!!!!!!
PISSED THAT I HAVE BEEN SUCH A TRUSTING FOOL...YOU'RE GONNA BUY ME GLASSES WHEN I GET MARRIED, SO THAT I CAN THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME, WHENEVER I PUT THEM ON....YOU FUCK---YOU KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA BUY YOU--A BRAIN!!!!!!
I DOUBT YOU'LL KNOW HOW TO USE IT, SINCE YOU'RE SUCH A STUPID FUCK ANYWAYS, BUT IT'S WORTH A TRY...I AM SO GLAD THAT I DIDN'T SEE YOU TONIGHT, AND EARLIER I WANTED TO....THANK DEAR GOD THAT I DIDN'T!!!! CUZ RIGHT NOW..
UUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT'S HOW I FEEL!!!!! YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO IMAGINE HOW MUCH HATRED I FEEL FOR YOU RIGHT NOW...YOU'RE GONNA
CALL ME IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU GET ALL THE MESSAGES, BUT DON'T FUCKING BOTHER, CUZ I'M NOT GONNA ANSWER....
SINCE YOU WANNA GO OUT TILL 5 IN THE MORNING, TAKE PICS WITH OTHER CHICKS, AND DO GOD KNOWS WHAT ELSE, WHILE I SIT AT HOME AND WAIT FOR YOUR FUCKING ASS-----GO AND DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT, BUT FORGET ABOUT ME!!!! FROM THIS DAY FORWARD, I DO NOT EXIST FOR YOU...
FORGET THAT I EVER DID...I OBVIOUSLY DIDN'T MEAN SHIT TO YOU ANYWAYS, SO....IF YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE GONNA FUCK ME UP--SCREW YOU!!!! AND JUST REMEMBER THAT I'M BETTER AT THIS---YOU'LL END UP LOOKING FOR ME, JUST AS YOU DID THE LAST TIME--BUT THIS TIME, I WILL BE EXACTLY WHAT YOU ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS--A BITCH
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