Moonflower Songs

Lady of desire

The moment he entered the casino he saw her...
An elegant lady sitting at the point of a roulette table...
His eyes could not miss her...
She was shining like a glittering diamond among blackish coal..

Her eyes were glittering even brighter then the lights around her...
Those warm big eyes, blue, the color of sea at early morning...
They were intelligent eyes, and mesmerizing eyes...
In a fleeting moment their eyes met and he could almost see his reflection in them....

Her hair was gliding down her shoulders, obscuring the view of her neck...
And her skin was fair and milky, the color of a baby seals fur...
Her movements were elegant and measured, and somewhat catious...
She looked a little startled and nervous...

He came to the table and took a seat near her...
He said hello and introduced himself, and she did the same...
Her voice was like a melody to him...
A little shy, but nevertheless very beautiful and musical...

His eyes were locked on her image...
He studied her every move...
Like a black panther studying her prey...
He was afraid to make a wrong move...

Afraid that she would escape...
Like a skittish doe, a panthers prey...
And her moves were alike that shy forest creature...
She looked like she would leap from her seat every moment...

They placed their bets on the same number...
For a brief moment their hands touched...
She produced a shy smile...
And was that smile a beautiful thing to see...

He returned that enchanting smile with one of his own...
A broad, happy smile, never taking his eyes from hers...
She looked down and blushed a little...
And his heart was overcome by a sudden joy...

He moved closer to her, removed her hair from her neck...
And whispered something gently in her ear...
Her smell was intoxicating, and almost hypnotizing...
For a moment he didn't move, he was just enjoying her sweet smell...

Then he leaned back at his chair, and watched her reaction...
Her eyes immediately sought the ground, but they were back quickly...
She regarded him with an innocent look...
And then she nodded slightly without a word...

He moved closer again, and again removed her soft hair...
He moved like he would whisper something again...
But he stopped half the way and...
Gently put his lips on her soft, warm skin...

He parted his lips a little bit...
And touched her neck with a tip of his tongue...
Then he slowly backed away from her, watching her...
In his warm eyes she could see a sudden sparkle...

She gave him a shy look...
Touched the place were he kissed her with her hand...
And produced a sweet little smile...
A most beautiful smile he ever saw...

He took her hand in his and gently caressed her trembling fingers...
He could feel her heart beating hard through her hands...
Could hear her deep breathing...
Could see a frightened look in her eyes...

He gave her a wide, comforting smile...
Said the she need not to be afraid...
That he's not going to hurt her...
That he would do nothing to hurt such a beautiful little angel...

Suddenly she leaped from her chair and was gone through the casino doors...
He tried to follow her, but she was gone...
He searched for her the entire night but she was nowhere to be seen...
Finally he gave up and left with a said look on his face and an empty feeling in his heart...

Against all odds

Darkness, despair, loneliness...
It's all coming back to me...
Those demons I thought were defeated...
They were only hiding...

Hiding in the depths of my heart, my soul...
Now they have resurfaced, they are back again...
My resistance is so weak now...
I have nothing to give me strength...

I have nothing to bring me to the light again...
The darkness is to strong, overwhelming...
Every day I am falling deeper and deeper into the pit of despair...
I can't see the bottom, I don't even know if there is one...

I can't find the hope nowhere around me...
It used to be a bright light...
But now it's almost gone...
Just a flicker in the wast darkness...

I have lost hope, gave in to the darkness...
I am weak, don't know how to fight it...
Nodoby will help me in my fight...
I must try to fight it alone, although the odds are not in my favor...

I feel like a single soldier facing an army...
David against ten Goliats...
Like a ant attacking a grown up elephant...
I can't hope to win alone...

I can only pray that the help will come...
That somebody will notice me...
Pull me from the darkness...
Bring back hope to me...

I don't ask for much...
Just a touch, a hug...
Something to lift me from that deep dark well of despair...
A little kindness, something to show somebody cares...

If not, I am lost...
I can't win alone against such odds...
I will fall, hit the bottom...
And will not raise again...

To my friend

To my little friend...
My friend with not such a little heart...
Which I love more then life itself...
I say these things...

When you are lonely, just remember you have me...
When everything seems dark and gloom, I shall be your light...
When there is no hope, I'll be there to restore it for you...
When you need to cry, my shoulder can take a lot of tears...

If you are ever cold, my smile will warm you...
If you are ever hurt, I'll be there to heal you...
If you ever fall, I'll pick you up...
Pick you up in my arms and never let you go...

If nobody will love you, I'll love you for all of them and more...
If nobody understands you, they don't have a crazy mind like mine...
If nobody thinks you are beautiful, I'll write another song to prove them wrong...
If nobody will write songs to you.. hell, I already did...

If you ever have a need to yell at anybody, I'll bring something to put in my ears...
If you ever want to hit something, well... try to aim above the belt...
To put all these thing in short...
If you ever need a friend, you know were to find me...



Illusionary moments

I saw her again...
That girl that makes my heart skip a beat or two...
That cute little being...
I want to hold and cuddle all day long...

To hold her hands in my own...
Gently caress them...
Work my way up to her neck...
Plant a kiss on it just below her ear...

Hold her in my arms...
That she'll never feel cold again...
That the only shivers she ever feels...
Would be the shivers of closeness to me...

I want to wisper silently in her ear...
Finish my words with a little kiss...
I want to.. oh how many things I want...
Beautiful things, gentle and loving things...

But all this are only images...
Nothing real, nothing solid...
It's nothing I can hope for...
But it's nice to have those imaginary moments...

And again, I'm afraid of those things...
Those things I never had...
They are foreign to me...
I'm afraid I would do everything wrong...

Afraid I wouldn't be what she wanted, what she needed...
That I couldn't make her happy...
Couldn't make her smile...
I am afraid...

Afraid to do anything, to say anything...
So I just watch her...
Saying every silly thing that comes to my mind...
Everything to keep my mind away from those images...

Because if they'd keep coming...
There would be nothing to stop the tears...
Tears she wouldn't understand...
Tears I don't understand...

Confusing feelings, beautiful images...
It's all to much...
Why is this thing so hard?...
This painful thing called love....

Friendship

What makes a friend true?...
A friend that never leaves your side...
Especially when they are needed the most...
When all you have is that one true friend...

That friend that always has time for you...
Never says no, I can't, I don't feel like it...
A friend that in the times most gloom...
Always finds a smile for you...

A warm, comforting smile...
That shows you that you do have somebody to lean on...
Somebody that understands your troubles...
And knows how to make you feel better...

It is a treasure to have somebody like that...
Not gold, not jewels, a true friend...
It is that, that values the most...
And what needs to be cherished...

Some take friendship lightly...
They take it for granted...
They use it for their gains...
They see only themselves and their well-being...

And when they lose a friend most precious...
Only then they see the errors of their ways...
When it's to late...
When the damage is already beyond repair...

So... what makes a friend true?
I say... love, loyalty and understanding...
And the most important... selflessness...
The readiness to sacriface and honesty...

So you see... it's hard to be a true friend...
But nevertheless we should try...
For if you lose all your friends what are you then?...
Nothing... you don't exist.. body without a soul...

I love you

Those three words...
Some say them without regard to the meaning...
It's just words for them...
And nothing more...

Just words to sound pretty in someone's ears...
But they should be something else...
In them should be a reflection of your heart, your soul...
They should be special and not said with such ease...

They come hard to me...
I would like to say them but I can't...
I like to turn those words in actions...
To show my feelings without hollow words...

Sometimes it's a smile...
Sometimes it's a look...
It can be a touch...
And definitely is a kiss...

I maybe should use them...
Should have said them a couple of times...
And for all those times I couldn't before...
I say now: I love you...

I should say it to a special girl in my heart...
I wanted to tell her a thousand times...
I don't know why they got stuck in my throat...
Why is it so hard?...

Maybe because the feelings are real?...
Or am I just so shy?...
Or because I regard them not as hollow words?...
And can't say them just like that...

Maybe those words are sacred to me...
And saying them so easily would be a blasphemy...
So I write them down for all to see...
Once again: I love you...

Lady in red

On a summer afternoon, I was standing on a balcony...
Watching the world go by me...
Cars speeding beneath me, birds flying above me...
But nothing was as special as something on the other side of the street...

On a balcony like mine, stood a girl surrounded by beautiful roses...
A girl in a dress the color of early cherries...
She was touching the roses, caressing them...
Like a mother caresses her newborn child...

And none of those roses were a match for her sparkling beauty...
They couldn't compete with her in any way...
'Couse the roses couldn't smile like she did...
They didn't have the same glittering eyes...

They couldn't move as gracious as her...
Move like a lady, every move complementing the other...
And her proud look when she regarded the roses...
Those noble and incredibly warm eyes...

Oh how would I like to see my reflection in them...
Oh what would I give to be a rose she was touching...
To feel her gentle touch on my skin...
Her fingers hovering over my body...

And then she started to sing...
And her sweet and melodius voice drifted to me...
It was like a song of a thousand birds...
A voice that would tame the wildest of beasts...

I watched her for a long time...
I didn't noticed when minutes become hours...
I was mesmerized, completly entranced...
But then suddenly it was over...

She entered her house and was gone form my sight...
I waited an hour longer but she didn't come back...
Finally I gave up, and noticed how late it was...
That night I had sweet dreams, dreams about my lady in red...

A kiss

Standing on a hill, watching at the horizon...
Wind in her hair, sun rays drawing a sparkle in her almond eyes...
Her dress, the color of blood, waving gently in the wind...
Stood a woman, a lady...

Her milky skin reflected the redness of the sky...
Her proud eyes found the image of a man by her side...
There was an amusing smile on her lips...
And she saw the gleam in his eyes as he regarded her...

He was smitten by her radiant beauty...
He just stood there, staring in her enchanthing eyes...
Like he was under some spell...
A spell that couldn't be broken...

Even if thousand demons were on his back...
He couldn't take his eyes of her...
His heart was beating, his breath shallow...
He never knew he could feel this way...

She saw the shyness in his eyes...
The innocence in his look...
And although she was shy herself, she came to him...
With gracefull steps, her beaming smile never leaving her face...

She lifted her slender arm to touch his face...
But stopped as he lowered his gaze to the ground...
She took his chin in her hand and gently lifted his head...
She gave him a warm, comforting smile...

And then she said to him not to be afraid...
That she was probably more nervous than himself...
That he need to relax, that she'll not bite him...
That produced a little smile on his face...

He looked in her eyes again...
Gently caressed her warm cheek with one hand...
And slowly came closer to her...
He was like a frightened boy facing a dragon...

She saw how hard it was for him...
How every inch closer he was more nervous and afraid...
Her heart was also beathing hard..
She knew what she must do, what he couldn't do...

She slowly put her soft, inviting lips on his...
And she put her hands on both his cheeks...
It lasted short for somebody watching...
But for them it was a millenium...

Their lips parted suddenly, and their eyes met again...
Ther was a sparkle in their eyes...
A kindled fire, a fire to be nurtured...
A growing fire, a fire that couldn't be undone...