YOU LOVE ME BUT DON'T KNOW WHO I AM... SO LET ME GO...

Evo neznam šta da vam napišen… u mom životu opet sve standardno… (svaki post mi ovako započinje, a jbg…) ma danas san u kurcu… skroz… evo sad san pročitala pismu na č!my-nom blogu pa nimalo ne cmizdrin… ma sve mi se u zadnje dane kupi… ona i luce su mi rekle da san u zadnje vrime non-stop u kurcu, jebate šta se stvarno vidi??? Pitaju me šta mi je i ja kažen ˝ništa˝ jer i nije ništa, osjećaj se nametne sam od sebe… i ne znan šta mi je, jednostavno neznan… a danas san se nešto malo posvađala s rodicon, tj. to je bio više prepucavanje, ali me pogodilo i sad se osjećan stravično…

Ma evo vam jedna pjesma koja će objasniti dosta toga, i ne želim nikakve komentare pomoći niti sažaljenja jer jedino si ja mogu pomoći, a ne znam kako, a to šta neznam je isključivo moja stvar i sama sam kriva za ove osjećaje i sad je na meni da snosim posljedice … ˝this (my) life ain't worth living˝… ova pjesma je samo AFEKT, ok?

I LOVE YOU

I hate…
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you cry
I hate you when you hurt people
And when you let them hurt you too
I hate the way you drink
I hate the way you smoke
And laugh at joke
I hate every breath you take
And every day you wake
I hate the way people love you
And the way you love them too
I hate your face,body and soul
I hate you whole
I hate you when you break down and cry
And because you always search for a reason… why
I hate you because you're weak
and it really makes me sick
i hate you when you cut yourself
when there's noone to help
i hate you when you hide behind make-up and black clothes
i hate you because you don't let nobody to come too close
i hate the way you hate yourself
i think you understood why I hate you
and I know you hate me too
indeed, I hate everything about you
i really do…
i hate you ~~imaginary~~