truelife
04.02.2019., ponedjeljak
Happy
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If there are some of you who have been with my posts from the very start, it will surprise you (as much as it did me) that I feel good... Actually, better than good. I feel great. It has been over year since the last time I fell sad. It used to be a success if I lasted a single day. I can't seem to get back into the despair I was used to so much. There isn't anything I can say to justify my smile. Nothing in my life has changed. I'm still sometimes fell alone in the soul , empty, walking around with a hole in my heart; and yet, somehow I feel so much better. Have I got so used to being sad that I fear being happy? I mean, I'm trying to justify good behavior. I'm lost. I'm not used to feeling so... Good? I have changed a lot. Many people do not recognize me as they pass me on the street. I have a hard time recognizing myself. Not only because of my attitude, but because of the changes I made on myself. But still, everything I've done and I'm doing makes me feel better about who I am. I'm doing so much to be the best me I possibly can. But as optimistic as I sound, I'm terrified.but finaly happy  |
