Znaš kad sjediš u parku na ljuljački,s najboljom prijateljicom,i pričaš s njom o nekim stvarima s kojima se četrdesetogodišnjaci ne zamaraju?
Znaš kada ti glavom prolaze misli koje nisu mučile Sartrea,i kada su ti oči suzne od bijesa?
Lijepo za tebe što ne znaš.
Ali ja znam.
Shvatila sam previše stvari,u malo godina svojeg života.
I žao mi je.
Žao mi je što sam prestala vjerovati ljudima.
Žao mi je što su ljudi takve pičke postali.
Žao mi je što se ljudi pretvaraju da su nešto što nikad nisu,niti će ikada biti.
novi korak prema ponoru
pucaju moje granice
dolaze drugovi da odu po mene
da odemo do birtije
al ne znaju ne
nešto sam loše i nešto me problemi troše
boli me glava od silnoga jada
i onda novi dan
korak naprijed nazad dva
dolaze drugovi da dignu me sa tla
al ne znaju da nešto muči me
i ne znaju ne
nešto sam loše i nešto me problemi troše
boli me glava od silnoga jada
Muče me razna pitanja,na koja ne znam odgovore...
Treba li to tako biti?
Žele li svi uistinu biti sretni?Ma svi ljudi žele biti sretni,ali ih se neznatan broj trudi postići tu sreću.
Jesam li se ja izgubila?
Jesam li dala ljudima da me pregaze?
Da pregaze mene,moje stavove i moju sreću?
Je li uistinu sve tako sjebano?
Mogu li ikome vjerovati?
Zašto sam svima tako dobra kao osoba?
prošao sam škole i vidio sam svijeta
al u ovoj državi za mene nema mjesta
jebeš ti diplomu, sve pohvale i nagrade
kad ja iznova u red na burzu vraćam se
gutaju me hodnici od vrata do vrata
gubim se u roju skupih odjela i kravata
i molim samo za minutu pozornosti
da svijetu pokažem svoje sposobnosti
i bacam se na koljena
ljubim noge drugima
i svima su oči pune sjaja
al čim se okrenem dobim u jaja
al opet novi zid, novo slijepo crijevo
zar me nitko ne vidi, jel mi prozirno tijelo
no napokon se pruža jedinstvena prilika
-mali odi po ćevape s puno luka-
sve samo da me proguta zvijer globalnog sistema
koji za male i slabe milosti nema
fajl u kompjuteru, brojka na papiru
zgazi ih, pljuni ih i pođi u miru
i bacam se na koljena
ljubim noge drugima
i svima su oči pune sjaja
al čim se okrenem dobim u jaja
no drži me želja i pokoja lažna nada
mora i meni osvanuti nekada
Ma ja sam kurac od ovce.
Ja sam glupa.
Ja se uništavam svakodnevno.
Ja sam bipolarna osoba.
Ja sam kreten.
Ja sam psihodelična.
Ja sam neurotična.
Ja sam alkoholičar.
Ja sam PROPALITET.
Padam svaki dan sve dublje u svoja razmišljanja.
Ma gubim se.
Gubim ono svoje ja čime sam se tako jebeno ponosila.
Gubim prijatelje,ili oni gube mene?
kao rotor vrti se život moj
uvijek ista pitanja
al ne mogu da promijenim smjer svog kretanja
i kada god da pokušam
iz tog kruga izaći
uvijek mene neki vrag
natrag njemu privlači
ali ja
ne želim biti onaj koji odlazi
jer ja
sam mogao biti sve što poželim
dok se ruše svjetovi
ja ne želim odrasti
i biti netko drugi
postat netko tako veliki
i dok se trudim sad ne plakati
pokušavam ustati
ooo ne želim gledati
Hodam praznim ulicama.
Sama.
Naravno.
Cigareta u ruci,i psihotičan osmijeh na licu.
Ali oči odaju tugu.
Oči odaju da ja nisam u redu.
Smijem se,a iznutra me nešto proždire.
Kao virus u kompjutoru.
Odlazi mi procesor.
Sive ćelije pucaju...
Ostajem sama ha?
Ma ne ostajem.
Tu će uvijek biti moje drugo ja koje će me voljeti,i prihvaćati takvu kakva jesam.
Glupa.
Ma jebem ti život i ljude koji su hrpa netolerantnosti i iskompleksiranosti na istom mjestu.
Jebem ti ljude koji me ne znaju,a analiziraju me kao bijelog miša.
U kurac.
Ja sam samo dijete zarobljeno u ovom tijelu.
Želim biti maslačak...
Da se rasprsnem kad puhne vjetar.
|Egzistencijalizam za vrijeme popodnevne kave|
Ma.ne komentirajte.
ovo je tu samo da ispušem frustracije koje se nakupljaju u meni.
bit ću ja u redu.
opet ona stara,šarena,nasmijana...
[Srećo,ja sam retard]
[I onda kada si sretan,nisi sretan,jer kada si sretan nisi toga svjesan,prema tome sreća ne postoji]
[Ja citiram Sartrea,pijem kavu lijevom rukom,pušim Walter Plavi,i koristim često riječ kontradiktorno]
NAJPAMETNIJA MOJA <3
[Svi sanjaju o nekoj sreći,ali malo ljudi se trudi ju postići]
..........
[...još nešto?Kontaktirajte me]
Koncertići
9.5.2007-Abergaz,Praćka,20.30 ^^
25.5.2007-Đubrivo,Hladno Pivo,Šalata jel?
narcisoidnost je grijeh ili?
[ravna kosa much?]
[zlo has enetered the room]
[over.18.porfavor]
-nema me.na momente.
AHAHAHA
Ja sam Hodajuća Kontradikcija.
Imam 15 godina i bezbroj bivših ambicija koje su pokopane datumom 5.9 kada sam zapravo shvatila gdje sam došla.
[za neupućene u velikogoričku opću gimnaziju]
Ispričavam se za moje neznanje gramatike,ali nisam ja kriva.
Volim svijetliti u mraku.
I stapati se sa levitirajućim molekulama ugljikovog dioksida.
Mijenjam boje u skladu sa vremenom.
Najviše cijenim iskrenost i osmijeh.Jer osmijeh iziskuje tako malo,a znači tako puno.
Nedajte da vas zavaraju riječi koje koristim,samo imam riječnik riječi dužih od 10 slova uz sebe koje zvuče pametno.
Vesele me sitnice poput zagrljaja najboljih prijatelja,gledanje crtića u 6 ujutro kada ne mogu zaspati.
Imam petnaest godina,ali sam zapravo malo dijete.
Osmijeh mi je na licu skoro uvijek.
Ima trenutaka kada nije,ali rijetki su.
Hvala na pozornosti,laku noć.
Princess Paranoia never had no friends
just enemies to drive her to a bitter end
So she played a little game of lets pretend
Where she can be the tragic heroine
She kept the curtains closed and stayed inside
'Cause nasty neighbours have to criticise
She thinks their watching so she has to hide
and when she leaves it's always in disguise
Princess Paranoia all the worlds out to destroy her
Princess Paranoia she's so inferior
Talking on the telephone they listen in
they're gonna spoil it anyway so why begin
Been a loser so long that you'll never win
Everybody knows it and their all laughing
They invite her cause they want to hurt her
She thinks that everybody's looking at her
She'll always be persona non grata
A nobody who never reallty mattered
Princess Paranoia all the worlds out to exploit her
Princess Paranoia everyone avoids her
Too Fat,Too Thin,Too Short,Too Tall,Too Plain
Too Young,Too Old,Too Good,Too Big,Too Small
I never wanted to find out the reason
Of what was really wrong inside
I just didn't want to know about it
'Cos all I needed to do was hide
But as the days went by
And all my friends wanted to find out
I just didn't want to know about it
'Cos all I needed to do was shout
I Never Needed You
As soon as I was told I was going to die
A different person entered me
Some people seemed to change overnight
Oh why cant they see?
I just couldn't seem to do no wrong
All I seemed to do was right
and then with only two months left
That's all I seemed to do was fight
And say....
I NEVER NEEDED YOU
That Girl
They've got no limitation
Cuz the colour of the cash is calling
And the girl that they're importing
Has got a number not a name (ain't we all)
In the backstreets there's a sinner
Where the low life keep on falling
And the victim pays the winner
But the price just stays the same
Tonight come on calling again
The highs and lows of living
Get distant by the day
And all because that firl is called
What no one likes to say
She don't see the sunlight anymore
They keep her locked up
Closed behind that door
(gotta keep kicking)
The boys in the bar keep talking
About the prize catch the all made
And the pimp just helps them all say
That she's the only one to blame
In the streets I saw a stranger
She had a lonely look inside
And right behind here was the one
With the aim of his bullet
Ever Fallen In Love?
You spurn my natural emotions
You make me feel like dirt
And I'm hurt
And if I start a commotion
I run the risk of losing you
And that's worse
Ever fallen in love with someone?
Ever fallen in love?
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love? (Love…)
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with
I can't see much of a future
Unless we find out what's to blame
What a shame
And we won't be together much longer
Unless we realize that we are the same
Ever fallen in love with someone?
Ever fallen in love?
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love? (Love…)
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with
You disturb my natural emotions
You make me feel like dirt
And I'm hurt
And if I start a commotion
I'll only end up losing you
And that's worse
Ever fallen in love with someone?
Ever fallen in love?
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love? (Love…)
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with
Ever fallen in love with someone?
Ever fallen in love?
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love? (Love…)
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with
Ever fallen in love?
In love with someone
Ever fallen in love? (Love…)
In love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with
Fallen in love with
Ever fallen in love with someone
You shouldn't've fallen in love with…
NO TIME FOR YOU
We grew up together when we were only kids
Fighting against a world that didn't really exist
Don't know where it went wrong
And I don't know who to blame
NO TIME FOR YOU NOW
STILL WE CARRY ON
NO TIME FOR YOU NOW
STILL WE CARRY ON
NO TIME FOR YOU NOW
STILL WE CARRY ON
Nestling on your pedestal low as low can be
The streets where we came from is where I wanna be
A rumour here a rumour there this time you're gonna fall
Time has passed the youth has gone you didn't get the call
Baby,I HATE YOU =)
You are the most annoying person, that I have ever met
Why don't you just keep on walking, do not stop here
Can't you see that I hate you
I want you to drop dead
Please stay away from me, and all my friends
I want you to know, I hate you baby
I want you to know, I don't care
So happy when your not around me
I'm glad when your not there
I can see that no one ever liked you
You get pushed around at school
I have always known where to find you
In a trash can or in a stall
Even your mom couldn't like you
Your the slop of them all
Please stay away from me, I'll always say