četvrtak, 22.03.2007.
I'm back!
Drage moje, ispricavam se na poduzem ne javljanju i ne komentiranju.
Moram biti oprezna s blogom i internetom.
Cimerice sam uspjela uvjeriti da su zabrijale po pitanju mog povracanja i sad je to ostalo samo na dobroj zajebanciji.
Nisam uspjela izvuci otkud im ta "besmislena ideja", ali vise nije ni bitno.
Kako sam vam i obecala - ne rigam vise!
Zadnji put sam to napravila 10.3. i namjeravam da tako i ostane.
Ovo su moji obroci:
Dorucak, 8h:
10 min prije svega: obavezno voce na prazan zeludac.
Nakon toga pojedem pola salice zobenih pahuljica sa sojinim mlijekom.
Katkad umjesto mlijeka, napravim onu neku instant bijelu kavu. Mislim da se zove Bianka ili tako nesto. Ful je zdrava, obnavlja crijevnu mirkofloru i potice probavu. Nije kaloricna, nema secera i nema masti.
Rucak, u razdoblju od 12h do 13:30 najkasnije..
Obavezno neko kuhano povrce u vodi s dodatkom malo soli. Obicno to bude cvjetaca, i(li) brokula, i(li) prokulica... uz to jedem dva do tri komadica sojinih medaljona takodjer kuhano samo u vodi.
Katkad umjesto sojinih medaljona u vodi skuham komadic bijelog mesa od piletine, a dva puta na tjedan na jelovniku je kuhana riba...
Salatu jedem svjezu, zelenu, ili rotkvicu pokiseljenu samo limunovim sokom...
Ponekad umjesto toga svega pojedem 100g posnog zrnatog sira (cca 85kcal) sa malo integralnog kruha... Inace, trudim se izbjegavati kruh...
Zna li mozda netko di se moze kupiti onaj od 100% - tne prekrupe?
Medjuobrok, u razdoblju od 16h do 17...
Neka vocka. Obicno to bude 1 jabuka, ili 1 kruska, ili 1 naranca...
Vecera, do 18h
Isto sto i za medjuobrok, s tim da nikad ne jedem istu vrstu voca koje sam jela za medjuobrok.
Ako sam jako gladna pojedem light jogurt u koji nasjeckam razno voce tako da dobijem vocni jogurt, ali bez dodatnih secera, karamela, sirupa, glukoze i ostalih sranja koje stavljaju u kupovni vocni jogurt....
Puno se krecem, secem, gdje god mogu izbjegavam javni prijevoz, kad je lijepo rolam se, a planiram i novi bicikl kupiti....
Treninzi aerobika su 3 puta tjedno koje ne propustam...
Od slatkisa jedem samo crnu cokoladu sa 70% kakaa i vise i eventualno suhe marelice... Citala sam da su one dopustene za vrijeme dijete jer imaju niski glikemijski index...
Pijem min 2 l vode i obavezno min 1 salicu zelenog caja...
Prosli petak sam se vagala i bilo je 50 kg.
Za vikend sam sjebala stvar s alkoholom (pivom ) i buhtlom od cokolade te nekim kolacicima od suhe smokve...
Jucer sam takodjer sjebala stvar jer sam jela suhe smokve, bijeli kruh s pastetom od brokule, a nakon toga petit buerre kekse s maslacem plus sve ono sto sam gore navela da inace jedem...
Naravno, sve je bilo u prevelikim kolicinama...
No na kraju sam otisla na trening i fino se iznojila i iskakutala pa me manje grizla savjest..
Moram vam naglasiti da mi ni u jednom trenutku nije palo na pamet da izrigam to sto sam pojela.
Mislim, je, palo mi je na pamet, ali sam se iznenadjujuce lako othrvala tom osjecaju.
Idem dalje i necu se bedirati jer me bediranje i nervoza samo jos vise pokopaju i tek onda dobijem napade prezderavanja...
Kao, napr. jucer kad mi je stara digla tlak.
Sutra je petak i vjerojatno cu se vagati.
Ako ne sutra onda tokom vikenda...
Stara me tlacila da joj iz nekog razloga posaljem svoju sliku jer me kao nije vidjela jako dugo. Uopce mi nije palo na pamet sto smjera pa sam se nekoliko dana oglusivala na tu njezinu zelju, ali jucer ujutro je bila predosadna s tim tako da sam na kraju popustila, uzela digitalac i uslikala se. Poslala sam joj sliku u mail, a da ju glupaca uopce nisam smanjila, niti sam stavila korektor na podocnjake tako da je na slici naravno skuzila da izgledam bolesno..
Digla je frku, (jer ona zdravstveni djelatnik, a i zna kakvih sam sranja prije imala) tako da me slijedeci tjedan cekaju posjeti u ambulante, bolnice, pretrage krvi i na kraju pregled kod gastroenteorologa (valjda se tako kaze ) u jednoj od najboljih zagrebackih bolnica...
Cure, ako se ne skuliram i nesto ne smislim, najebala sam!
Ljubim Vas i hvala sto ste uz mene!
P.S.
Preporuka za vikend:
Obavezno nabavit i preslusat (nekoliko puta ) "Knjigu zalbe" od Hladnog Piva
- 10:35 -
Pljuni na blog ;) (13) -
Pljuni na papir ;)> -
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Opis bloga
... a place where no one's lost,
...a place where no one cries,
Crying at all is not allowed,
Not in my
castle on a cloud...
I'm a surviver, I'm gonna make it.....
Visina: 163 cm
1. cilj: 50 kg - ostvareno ali i izgubljeno...sad opet ispocetka
2. cilj: 47 kg
3. cilj: 45 kg
4. cilj: STOP!!!
...Ana's on Earth,
are angels with broken wings,
trying to fly away
all the time...
S posebnom posvetom:
Endless
[Crematory]
The wind whispers my name
Rain drenches my skin
The chill suffocates my gasp
Darkness conceals my scars
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Fear prevents lowly acts
Worriment diminishes secrets proplems
In danger of falling into a trap
The game to slake yourself
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Let me be your everything - when I'm looking to you
Let me see you when I'm king - when you are my something
Thoughts circle and fade away
The heavens soaked in bloodred
The stars so far and distant
The power to relinquish
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Let me be your everything - when I'm looking to you
Let me see you when I'm king- when you are my something
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Skin ripened by many days
Lies give away hidden feats
The torso abused by many melees
The birth of a new game
Let me be your everything - when I'm looking to you
Let me see you when I'm king - when you are my something
Endless Love - Endless Fall - Endless Hate
Endless Call
Broken
[Sentenced]
I have come a long way where I started from
but I'm still not even close to where I'm going
(and now) I can no longer see the shine
that has been lighting up my way
I cannot feel its glowing
The fire in my heart is dying
and the zeal I had is gone
This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside
Why did I ever choose to go this way
The question I keep asking myself all the time
I guess it was my instinct for self-destruction
that pointed me down this way
The fire in my eyes is dying
and the dream I had is gone
This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside
Big In Japan
[Alphaville, Guano Apes]
Winters cityside
Crystal bits of snowflakes all around my head and in the wind
I had no illusions
That Id ever find a glimps of summers heatwaves in your eyes
You did what you did to me, now its history I see
Heres my comeback on the road again
Things will happen while they can
I will wait here for my man tonight, its easy when your big in japan
When your big in japan, tonight
Big in japan, be tight, big in japan where the eastern seas so blue
Big in japan, alright, pay, then Ill sleep by your side
Things are easy when youre big in japan, when youre big in japan
Neon on my naked skin
Passing silhouettes of strange illuminated mannequins
Shall I stay here at the zoo
Or shall I go and change my point of view for other ugly scenes
You did what you did to me, now its history I see...
Things will happen while they can
I will wait here for my man tonight, its easy when youre big in japan
Going Under
[Evanescence]
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again...
(Chorus)
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
(Chorus)
So go on and scream
Scream at me
I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
Bring Me To Life
[Evanescence]
how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead
all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)
One Last Goodbye
[Anathema]
How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone
I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way
Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never.. never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And I grieve
In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a Silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
I wished, I wished you could have stayed
A Question Of Heaven
[Iced Earth]
The time is close now, the end is near
My walk through the valley, trails of fear
I feel empty, my penance overdue,
I guess it's too late now to be with you
I'm extremely frightened of what will surely be
I sold myself, the death of me
I know you can't forgive me I know I'm on my own,
I've betrayed you I walk alone
What exactly is the meaning of this
Just pawns in your twisted game
Severe pain for the lie I'm livin'
For a love I never could betray
Question me not say the lord unto thee
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny
Denied of this life is what you are to be
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny
Lord I pound my fists at you
Won't you just let me die
Would I not suffer enough
No inner peace no after life
I did what I thought was right
All for the love of my life
I know it's sad but true
Something is very wrong
Condemned to suffer so long
For a love so true
The question that lies within
Is so hard to understand
It still tears at me
And in my dying breath
My heart holds no regrets
I wouldn't change a thing
My spirit begins to rise to the heavenly skies
Just to be shunned away by you
Now all I want is to die, no streets of gold in the sky
And I wash my hands of you
Rising to the heaven's light
Just to plead for death
Just to be denied
Rising to the heaven's light
Just to plead for death
Just to be denied
Ooohhh, I know you can't forgive me
I know I'm on my own
I know that I've betrayed you
You know I walk alone
You know I walk alone
I walk, I walk the trail of fear
I pound my fists at you
I'm shunned away by you
I wash my hands of you
Why won't you let me die
Why won't you let me die
Why won't you let me die