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kronološkim slijedom (op. a. redom pojavljivanja na blogu mome):
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škorpion
mainscream
tija
lola u žurbi (cam bak!!)
anka
trill
d´bill!
marko
jagodi
zeko
iguana
dalibor
pixie the sedmi
Grady daughter
mile
jabucica
d.s.o.
pseudo
the bride
parah dox
zvone
nenya
antibiotic
jasna
summergathering
sunmoon
fiuman
bollocks
secret temple
plava mala
minimalistica
lovely rita
crkveni miš
dupinka
D number
online
evo, ovdje lupam svoj copyright (zato jer je to sada in):
KOPIRAJT (r u krugu)
dakle, copy/paste- NE!
zašto ne?
jer te ja tužim i dobijem masu love.
....hm.... u stvari... zašto ne!?
ubijaju me u pojam....
>>>>>>ONA>>>>>>:
FUCK YOU I`M JUST A GIRL!!!
IDLEWILD: I never wanted
I created myself to be on my own
But I didn't expect to be alone
Did you create yourself to be on your own?
These are the reasons things should be unknown
The days won't let you know
Days won't let you know
That all I never wanted was to be there with you
All I ever wanted to know anywhere with you
No one creates themself unless they try to
Shut up the caution that made them lie to
All this talk but no one will tell me
Where and when I need to go
The days won't let you know
Days won't let you know
That all I never wanted was to be there with you
All I ever wanted to know anywhere with you
There is no reason, there is no reason, there is no reason,
For that now
There is no reason, there is no reason, there is no reason,
For that
All I never wanted was to be there with you
All I ever wanted to know anywhere with you
(it's with you so)
All I never wanted was to be there with you
All I ever wanted to know anywhere
Ever wanted to know anywhere with you
JAMES: Fine
I'm a boomerang
In the outback
Keep your throwing arm steady
So I get home
I'm a vampire bat
Out in Shanghai
Haven't eaten in four days
I've ordered in a Chinese takeaway
I show more than I hide
I care more than I cry
I'm a phonograph baby
My wires are live
And I'm in crisscross
Fine. I feel fine.
I'm a fortune cookie
Full of cheap advice
I'm a suicide rookie
Blowing last call
Show more than I hide
Care more than I can cry
I'm a phonograph baby
My wires are live
And I'm in crisscross
Fine. I feel fine.
travis: driftwood
(pozdrav!!)
Everything is open
Nothing is set in stone
Rivers turn to oceans
Oceans tide you home
Home is where the heart is
But your heart had to roam
Drifting over bridges
Never to return
Watching bridges burn
You're driftwood floating underwater
Breaking into pieces, pieces, pieces
Just driftwood, hollow and of no use
Waterfalls will find you, bind you, grind you
Nobody is an island
Everyone had to go
Pillars turn to butter
Butterflying low
Low is where your heart is
But your heart has to grow
Drifting under bridges
Never with the flow
And you really didn't think it would happen
But it really is the end of the line
So I'm sorry that you've turned to driftwood
But you've been drifting for a long, long time
Everywhere there's trouble
Nowhere's safe to go
Pushes turn to shovels
Shovelling the snow
Frozen you have chosen
The path you wish to go
Drifting now forever
And forever more
Until you reach your shore
You're driftwood floating underwater
Breaking into pieces, pieces, pieces
Just driftwood, hollow and of no use
Waterfalls will find you, bind you, grind you
And you really didn't think it would happen
But it really is the end of the line
So I'm sorry that you've turned to driftwood
But you've been drifting for a long, long time
You've been drifting, for a long, long
Drifting for a long, long time
interpol: obstacle 1
We can cap the old times
Make playing only logical harm
We can top the old lines
Clay-making that nothing else
Will change
But she can read
She can read
She can read
She can read
She's bad!
She can read
She can read
She can read
She's bad!
Oh, she's bad
It's different now
That I'm poor and aging
I'll never see this face again
You go stabbing
Yourself in the neck
We can find new ways of living
Make playing only logical harm
And we can top the old times
Clay-making that nothing else
Will change
starsailor: Alcoholic
Don't you know you've got your Daddy's eyes
And your Daddy was an alcoholic
But your mother kept it all inside
Threw it all away
I was looking for another you
And I found another one
I was looking for another you
When I looked round you were gone
Stay by my side
And the pipe dream is yours now
Stay by my side
And the singer won't get in our way
Don't you know you've got your Daddy's eyes
And your Daddy was an alcoholic
But your mother kept it all inside
Threw it all away
I was looking for another you
And I found another one
I was looking for another you
When I looked round you were gone
Stay by my side
And the pipe dream is yours now
Stay by my side
And the cynics won't get in our way
Don't you know you've got your Daddy's eyes
And your Daddy was an alcoholic
But your mother kept it all inside
Threw it all away
I was looking for another chance
To see your blue eyed problem
radiohead: black star
I get home from work and you're still standing in your dressing gown
Well what am I to do?
I know all the things around your head and what they do to you
What are we coming to?
What are we gonna do?
Blame it on the black star
Blame it on the falling sky
Blame it on the satellite that beams me home
The troubled words of a troubled mind I try to understand what is eating you
I try to stay awake but its 58 hours since that I last slept with you
What are we coming to?
I just don't know anymore
Blame it on the black star
Blame it on the falling sky
Blame it on the satellite that beams me home
I get on the train and I just stand about now that I don't think of you
I keep falling over I keep passing out when I see a face like you
What am I coming to?
I'm gonna melt down
Blame it on the black star
Blame it on the falling sky
Blame it on the satellite that beams me home
This is killing me
This is killing me
placebo: without you I`m nothing
Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide
I'll take it by your side
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide
I'll take it by your side
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies
I'll take it by your side
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide
I'll take it by your side
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tick
Tick
Tick
Tick tock
I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen
I seem to lose the power of speech
You're slipping slowly from my reach
You grow me like an evergreen
You've never seen the lonely me at all
I
Take the plan, spin it sideways
I
Fall
Without you I'm nothing
Without you I'm nothing
Without you I'm nothing
Take the plan, spin it sideways
Without you I'm nothing at all
spiritualized: i think i`m in love
Sun so bright that i'm nearly blind
Cool cos i'm wired and i'm out of my mind
Warms the dope running down my spine
But i don't care 'bout you and i've got nothing to do
Free as the warmth in the air that i breathe
Even freer than dmt
Feel the warmth of the sun in me
But i don't care 'bout you and i've got nothing to do
Love in the middle of the afternoon
Just me, my spike in my arm and my spoon
Feel the warmth of the sun in the room
But i don't care 'bout you
And i've got nothin'
I think i'm in love
Probably just hungry
I think i'm your friend
Probably just lonely
I think you got me in a spin now
Probably just turning
I think i'm a fool for you babe
Probably just yearning
I think i can rock and rool
Probably just twisting
I think i wanna tell the world
Probably ain't listening
Come on
I think i can fly
Probably just falling
I think i'm the life and soul
Probably just snorting
I think i can hit the mark
Probably just aiming
I think my name is on your lips
Probably complaining
I think i have caught it bad
Probably contagious
I think i'm a winner baby
Probably las vegas
Come on
I think i'm alive
Probably just breathing
I think you stole my heart now baby
Probably just thieving
I think i'm on fire
Probably just smoking
I think that you're my dream girl
Probably just dreaming
I think i'm the best babe
Probably like all the rest
I think that i could be your man
Probably just think you can
Come on
I think i'm in love
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Osjećam se kao loptica skočica…. Ma, znate je. Totalno sam hiperaktivna. I to već neko vrijeme. Ne znam zašto. Ali onako hiperaktivna, da je to za se zabrinut. Skačem. Derem se. Smijem se. Izlazim. Pričam sa puno ljudi. Čak i s onim koje ne poznajem. A mama je rekla da se to ne smije. Ima me. Svugdje. Kući. Kuham, skačem, čistim, smišljam plesne koreografije. Pa se smijem. Na faxu. Gubim se. Piskaram. Smijem se. Gubim se. Pa mi je smiješno. Kod susjeda. (zgodnih!!) smijem se. Dosađujem im. Pokušavam ih napiti. Pa im se smijem. Na kavama. Smijem se. Kofein me lupi u glavu. Pa mi je smiješno. I onda sam hiperaktivna. Idem na ispite. Teške. Bez da učim. I nadasve optimistično se nadam prolazu. … ma koji prolaz?! Vrijeme je da mi u indexu piše odličan (5). U Ri. Često. Špiciram. Ri mi je baš prirasla srcu. Nemam pojma zašto. Eto me u pon, i u čet, i u sub. Takav je plan. Za sada. Nemam love. Pa mi je smiješno. Mislim da sam smršavila. Čvrsto vjerujem u to. Evo, idem se vagat. . . . 62 kg. Još uvijek??? Nije bitno, glavno da se ja osjećam mršavije… I, moram se pohvaliti da idem spavati oko 00:30- 01:00. I dižem se oko 9. haahah… Ako ja mogu, može bilo tko. Jer ono svaki dan spavati do 3, i ići spavati u 6 ujutro me izludilo. Nije ni čudo što sam bila deprimirana. A jadan David. Ja vam imam moć percipiranja stvari totalno drukčije od stvarnosti, kada poželim. I moć uvjeravanja… same sebe. I onda ja vjerujem u to, pa i svi ostali. Ali, mi smo si stvarno dobri. I ja više nikad ne bi bila s njim. Čisto jer mi se prestao sviđati kao dečko. Nije ništa komplicirano. Ne odgovara mi po nekim svojim razmišljanjima, ja se za 5 godina vidim na jednom mjestu, a on želi biti na sasvim drugom mjestu… tako da je bilo samo pitanje vremena kad će do prekida doći. On se pomirio s tim i snašao se bez mene bolje nego što sam ja mislila da hoće. Ali, kad mu je najteže, zove mene, kao i ja njega. I kad mu uleti lova, zove mene na večeru jer sam uvijek bila uz njega. I na večeri nitko se na uvaljiva nikome. Ne moram brinuti što reći, tralalalala… Puno smo više od samo prijatelja, ali se niti ne sexamo niti se ne ljubakamo… Samo se glupiramo ko da imamo 10 godina. I baš je super. Problem je samo jedan debeljuškasti čovjek, koji je uvijek gladan, moj Mr. Ego ofkorse… Ali, toliko sam hiperaktivna da jednostavno više ne mogu sjediti i tipkati…. Moram vani…. Među ljude… Tralala lal lalalalal…. aa... Puno vas pozdravljam, a neke još više cijenim, a za neke bi se moglo reći da volim…. Najbolji ste. Nemojte biti blesavi kao ja, pa da se bedirate zbog stvari koje niti ne postoje. Život je kratak, a ja još samo 2 mjeseca imam 20 godina. Jebote…. EDIT: i sad idem van. nacugat se! iako je tek 19h. ma ko kaže da se ne izlazi prije 23.00??? moram ispoljavati energiju... moram... a kako drukčije nego otić vani, odjebat cijeli svijet, pa da postojimo samo ja i muzika... (pa makar ona loša). daj što se nudi. ja ću to već iskoristiti nekako.... EDIT II: možda se taj višak energije pojavio usred nejebice?? ma boli me briga. ako će mi cijelo vrijeme biti ovako dobro neću više ni imati dečka. he. ci vediamo! |
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Vrijeme mi prolazi. . . . . . . čujem sat. Curi… Nestaje… Potraćeno. Ostajem ja u sobi. Ja i misli. Nikog da me spasi. Da barem mogu isključiti mozak. Gotovo je. Odlučeno.  Ovaj put je zauvijek. 4ever… kako smo si pisali u pismima. Udaljeni 550km, ali uvijek zajedno. Protiv svih. Ja i ti. Sjećaš se kako nas nitko nije mogao razuvjeriti od toga da smo si suđeni?! Nitko… osim mene… Ja odustajem. Ne mogu se boriti protiv sebe. Priznajem, ostala sam sama. Nitko mi ne šalje slatke poruke, nitko mi ne šalje ni jebozovne poruke, nikakvih anonimnih poziva, nitko se ne želi upoznati sa mnom… nitko ne gubi glavu za mnom, nikome ne ideš na živce jer si mi bivši dečko… Ne ti nemaš nikakvih problema sa mnom. Bar ne takvih. Ja ne moram bježati u hodnik jer me netko zove, dok mi ti pereš suđe u hladnoj vodi. Mislim da je to kap koja je prelila čašu. Činim ti usluge… a ti vječno na mobu, s njima. A kad ti ja pošaljem poruku onda nemaš love… Koja sam ja glupača. A cijelo vrijeme krivim jedino sebe. Tebe dižem u nebesa kao najbolju osobu na svijetu. A slijepa od krivnje ne vidim da si ko i svi ostali dečki… ne vidiš ništa osim pičke. I od kad ne dobivaš više od mene, ne vidiš ni mene… Ja sam ti jednostavno uvijek dostupna. Uvijek tu za tebe. Za bilo kakvu uslugu… ne obraćaš se svojim droljicama, nego meni. Ja sam s tobom tražila idealan bor. Skoro da sam zavoljela Božić. Moje srce je odlučilo da ga sve to zajedno previše boli i povlači se. Pogriješila sam. Ali ovo mi je prevelika kazna. I ti si pogriješio… više nego ja. Ali, naravno, ja sebe uvijek krivim za sve, pa tako i za tvoje greške. Ja sam ona koja je uvijek u kurcu. Nitko se nije trudio oko tebe više od mene, ali to se nikad nije uzimalo u obzir, jer ja to moram. Možeš se izderati na mene kad ti svi idu na živce, zato jer sam ja jednostavno tu. I jer ja tu moram biti. Možeš me pipati kad ti dođe, možeš me poljubiti kad ti dođe, možeš mi plakati kad ti dođe… ali ako ti je neka od aktualnih droljetina u blizini onda u minuti ponoviš 15 puta kako smo samo frendovi. Ja propješačim 3 km po kiši samo da te vidim, a ti me ignoriraš tako da ti se jedna od drolja ne bi naljutila… Jako dobro ti prolazi kod komada ta priča o slomljenom srcu. Ja sada kažem dosta je. Ja ti nisam kriva što si se slupao s autom. I prestajem ti biti dostupna. Dosta mi je ove depresivne faze. Dosta mi je toga što moram plakati svaki dan. Ljubav ne postoji. Barem ne za mene….  |