nastavak
i got up put on the water for a cup or two of coffee and lit a cigarette. i looked out the window. it was still raining. no robins out there today. a door slammed somewhere in the building. he stirred in his peaceful sleep. i couldn’t care less. i turned to the plants in my room and said hi to each one of them so they wouldn’t be jealous of each other. the last thing i needed in my life is a bunch of jealous plants bothering me with their silly problems. in a few minutes the rich aroma of the coffee filled the whole apartment. i went back into the bedroom and sat at the edge of the bed. it was after the first sip that i noticed he was gone. then on second thought i wondered if he was even there or was it just my imagination. it took another sip to notice the splitting headache i was harboring. i closed my eyes and lay back.
everything is purple. a conversation was coming together in my head.
“let’s go for a swim” that was me, i couldn’t hear the answer. i could only hear myself. funny. “no. a swim in the oceans of pink and violet. or green if you prefer....i thought you liked me...oh...well that was nice, yes, very nice...i don’t think, if i did i’d miss too much fun...oh yes i can imagine this. the picture is quite clear. you and me, entangled. in a kiss. in white this time. swimming. riding on feelings...look out the window, the time has stopped for us...what? oh you like my nails...yes, i suppose they could do a lot of damage if they wanted to.”
i opened my eyes suddenly feeling someone moving around the room. so i didn’t just imagine waking up next to him! he looked kind of embarrassed, standing there in the middle of the room in his jeans looking for his shirt. i closed my eyes hoping to catch the rest of the conversation and leaving him to the search knowing that he will never find his shirt because i remember vividly we threw it outside watching it fall to the ground like a parachute.
again i butted into the conversation which had gone on without stopping while my eyes were opened.
“but please, you’ve already had enough...yes i know that you can rarely control yourself, but please try, at least while you’re with me...o.k....what do you think about flying?...come on, it’s nothing to be embarrassed about.”
everything is purple. a conversation was coming together in my head.
“let’s go for a swim” that was me, i couldn’t hear the answer. i could only hear myself. funny. “no. a swim in the oceans of pink and violet. or green if you prefer....i thought you liked me...oh...well that was nice, yes, very nice...i don’t think, if i did i’d miss too much fun...oh yes i can imagine this. the picture is quite clear. you and me, entangled. in a kiss. in white this time. swimming. riding on feelings...look out the window, the time has stopped for us...what? oh you like my nails...yes, i suppose they could do a lot of damage if they wanted to.”
i opened my eyes suddenly feeling someone moving around the room. so i didn’t just imagine waking up next to him! he looked kind of embarrassed, standing there in the middle of the room in his jeans looking for his shirt. i closed my eyes hoping to catch the rest of the conversation and leaving him to the search knowing that he will never find his shirt because i remember vividly we threw it outside watching it fall to the ground like a parachute.
again i butted into the conversation which had gone on without stopping while my eyes were opened.
“but please, you’ve already had enough...yes i know that you can rarely control yourself, but please try, at least while you’re with me...o.k....what do you think about flying?...come on, it’s nothing to be embarrassed about.”
