Reckless life

21.06.2007., četvrtak

Key of life

Tama.
Prilaz smrti je otvoren.
Tama, još bje tama u lugu…
Ne, tamo nema Pana.
Ovdje ne skakuće i ne pjevuši nitko,
ovdje sablazan vrišti i puzi.
Nymphe?
Ovdje jedino mistično i lijepo je
smrt.
Kada nas dohvate kraci kraja
života
sva tjeskoba nestaje.
Suze kaplju,
al izvor im nije oko.
Glasnice se paraju,
ali zvuk im nije koljač.
Srce iskrižano ožiljcima,

a nož su riječi.



Život je kovanje lanaca koje sami stežemo. Već sada bol je kao jeka u beznađu. Koža puca, lome se kosti, a lanci se stežu sve jače i jače… Otupjela na bol koju si sama nanosim. Ne osjećajući granice prisiljavam se sjećati. Sjećati svega što je bilo i što se nikada ponoviti neće. Zakopano je duboko, a stari alati: poznata pjesma i rukopis nanovo ruju i kopaju. Čemu sve ono dobro kad nakon toga ostaje želja da se nastavi sanjati, a san se pretvori u želju… Ono što razdire jače od bilo koje oštrice jesu nasmiješena lica onih koji ne razumiju.

Odjekuje smijeh: ˝Izgubiti se i sniti,
Ili ostati i biti.˝
Ali ne, nešto sputava. Lanci su labavi, ali ipak dovoljno teški da ne mogu poletjeti. Lanci su čvrsti, previše čvrsti da bih izdržala ostati.
Ali smijeh ostaje. Leti nesputano, snagom volje i mogućnosti.
Dolazi od nasmiješenih lica onih koji ne razumiju.



Već se osjeti tamošnji zrak, krijesnice ganja lopta. I ja sam tamo. Tamo želim ostati.




Estranged


- Guns n` roses: Estranged

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
One, two

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart


I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could you ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me


Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out


Still talkin' to myself and nobody's home
(Alone)


So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see


When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for


Well I jumped into the river too many times
to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die


I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time
Oh this time
Without you


I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die


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