just realized
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duality is not a mistake |
31.05.2012., četvrtak
28.05.2012., ponedjeljak
poslušajte
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coming back to life http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=RKVJicTW9rc#t=1978s I knew the moment had arrived For killing the past and coming back to life istine su uvijek trešy isuse ja ne znam šta je meni neke pjesme sam upalim i krenu mi suze ne znam opće od koje emocije jel sreća jel tuga jel dirnutost jel uznemirenost mislim znam šta je gilmourov predivan glas je taj tu krivac često se nađem da slušam nešto na cesti hodam onako jučer tipa sam hodala dubravkinim i slušala sam okej neću reć kaj al zbog neke faking solaže i počnem se sam smijat i nemrem nemrem se ne smijat tolko me pika ta solaža i suze opet oh god emotionally unstable al gitara na ovoj pjesmi je isuse moj bože kak možeš pisat tak predivne spore i originalne i predivne i najbolje solaže ozbiljno su mi najbolje nije tak faking ono tehnički impresivno i nije bogznakolko alternativno i kul al su tolko emocionalne i tolko pikaju jebenti david jebenti sve |
zašto mi je pink floyd najdraži bend svih vremena
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(trenutno) (na trenutke to brijem za radiohead i dylana iako on nije bend ali... to su tih top 5 koji se stalno vrte) ne da mi se sad pisat jer sam preumorna al baš bi htjela razložit imam tolko doživljaja i tolko misli dok slušam muziku a i inače al pogotovo s tim Najdražim stvarima i u biti svaki put dok razmišljam šta bi htjela radit u životu je da bi htjela slušat muziku i pričat o tom šta u meni triggera i šta doživim s tim da ne bi htjela bit kritičar i recenzist nego čisto prenijet to kao ma i za sebe brijem da ću to ostatak života radit ko što ću ostatak života uvijek htjet imat neki dio kose koji je kratak i ko što ću htjet navijat fotić jer ima jeben filing pod prstima uglavnom ovo je podsjetnik meni sutra koja nije na đibici ali svejedno na isti način doživljava Najdraže stvari a zato su i najdraže isuse ova stvar http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=RKVJicTW9rc#t=1730s ako itko otvori neka krene od početka na tolko stvari me isuse plače mi se zvjezdano nebo dok sam se vozila na mljet fan blog davida gilmoura koji me nabrijo na liverpool opsesija s gilmourovom ženom prvi put dok sam u british councilu i posudila live at pompeii jer se našao među kazetama a ime benda mi je zvučalo dobro iako nisam imala blagog pojma šta su prvo gledanje live at pompeii u zamračenoj sobi na vhs-u dok su videi još bili aktualni i prvo oduševljenje muzikom plakanje na live8 i zapis u tadašnji dnevnik pink floyd lives forever prve maštarije o odlasku na kampiranje s helenom i jimu morrisonu s kojim sjedim pod zvjezdama na toj plaži u komiži |
26.05.2012., subota
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danas sam pušila doma hehhehehe elektronsku cigaretu odurna je odurna s tim da brat je reko da možeš svašta ti još otopit u tom glicerinu osim nikotina i možeš pušit bilogdje (i tam gdje se ne puši) jer se to vodi pod inhalator (kao, medicinski pribor da olakša život nama ovisnicima) a ne tobacco i prvo šta sam pomislila- jebeno to bi značilo da mogu opet ić u stari medvedgrad u tkalči :S i pričali smo o isplativosti toga i mama me pitala kolko ti kutija popušiš dnevno? ja sam rekla ne pušim kutije... hehehehe |
subota navečer je i odlučila sam ostat doma
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u reviziji tjedna, pila sam svaki dan osim utorka. a i u utorak sam pila, prek dana. količina cuge danas: 2 gemišta za ručak količina slatkog danas: gomila chocolate ice-cream cake i faking...after eight koji leži uokolo jeste primjetili kak je after eight svježiji dok ga tek dobiješ (nikad ga ne kupiš sam jer si ne možeš priuštiti takav luksuz) (tj moji roditelji :?) i onda kasnije se nekak stvrdne i nije tak fin al ga stavljaš u usta iz navike jer ja nisam jer mi je uvijek fin količina super stvari i misli danas: krdo. sad sam se podsjetila na to kak mi je bio super dan i sad će mi se post svest na opisivanje dana a htjela sam to izbjeć. ah išla sam na sljeme u ranu zoru i bilo je tako predivno. blago blago jutarnje svijetlo koje zrakasto pada pod ranim oštrim kutem obasjava obrise stabla a lišće u podnožju je svo tako široko samo da primi što više sunca. baš sam razmišljala da li se ta činjenica da je lišće šire i veće na tlu (i na mjestima gdje teže dopire sunce) nego na granama i u visinama igdje podučava. kao piše u nekoj knjizi kao neko pravilo il nešto ono ergo, evolucija je također očita u veličini lišća. u zadnje vrijeme gro vidim tu evoluciju posvuda i dođe mi da napišem neki priručnik hej! jeste li ikad primjetili kako... je lišće šire na........ am i stupid i dođeš gore i nema ni žive duše na činovničkoj ni nigdje sve je TAKO tiho ali TAKO tiho oblaci jure prek sunca i malo ti je lice vruće malo nije malo imaš dobru ekspoziciju malo ne i razmišljaš pa da prođe i sunce i prođu i oblaci all things must pass TJ. sunce je uvijek ovdje samo šta ga oblaci ponekad prekriju tj. jedna neautorska every cloud has a silver lining (ta mi je najljepša uz still water runs deep) (post nubila phoebus) jebenti smisao života je tako jebeno očit onda ona prefina bučnica i mamurni razgovori s dvije djevojke s faksa za koje nikad ne bi rekla da će mi pravit tak super društvo imala sam vjerojatno najzanimljiviji razgovor ovog tjedna s njima gledanje kroz prozor slušanje nationala osjećanje osjećaja koji su bili tako tako tako lijepi i sjetila sam se kak sam jednom kod sare šnjofala nešto s mirisom nekog i sa svakim udahom sam udahnula taj jedan osjećaj koji je bio tako tako tako lijep i dođe mi da samu sebe zagrlim al neću još s tim..... to je posljednji stadij brijem imam još neke određene korake foreveralonestva za preć sad mi se više ne da prepričavat dan al bio je jeben i dalje sam nije bio tolko lifechanging. išla bi svaki dan na sljeme. isuse tak mi se ne da više živjet u gradu. hoću do neke šume. bilokakve sam da je faking šumetina i da je tiho. neki dan mi se činilo da mi je tolka buka u sobi od tramvaja od jebene susjede koja jebeno usisava u 7 ujutro ma samo bivanje u gradu danas sam se spustila s tog sljemena osjećala sam se kao da sam došla iz oaze mira ljubavi i vrta svevišnjeg stvoritelja bez ljudi u sodomu i gomoru gledam te ljude po gradu neka obitelj mama tata tinejđ kćer obučeni ko u dinastiji s vrećicama prek ulaktusavijenih zapešća (uh..mda) i kak se prešetavaju tolko ono viša srednja klasa sa pretenzijama na višu i gledam te biserne naušnice na toj curi i okej decentno je kao al decentno je kičasto sve je kičasto sve je kičasto taj kič SVE je kičasto onak 99% stvari je kičasto i minimalizam je kičast i hodam po gradu s noge na nogu tak je toplo bilo i ta masetina nepregledna rulja koji hodaju po tim zgradama i pločnicima ograničenim kavezima i sjede na tom betonu ispred horvatinčićeve palače piju preskupe kave i gledam to i mislim si jebote nemate vi pojma nemate jebenog pojma kolko je bolje na sljemenu neg ovdje E LJUDI JA SAM SAD UPOZNALA BOGA i hodam u tim mizuno awkward tenisicama i trenirci i u nekom trenutku pomislim --- "da sam bar obukla neš ljepše" onda sam stala i počela sam se smijat jako ironiji dobro uglavnom da ne duljim. sutra sam mislila ić na nekog swamija besplatno dada mislila sam ić NA swamija. iako mi je vitomira danas rekla da je predavanje jučer bilo prešugavo i ja sam rekla kako disrišpektam art of living i da su mi se počeli gadit jer mi se čini da dogmatiziraju stvarnost (a svi znamo da to nije moguće jer priroda stvarnosti ne podliježe IKAKVIM ali ikakvim tim...da) iako to pokušavaju kao izbjeć al ne ide im i da premalo zrači ljubav a previše samoljublje (iskomentirale smo sve duhovne institucije na svijetu i zaključile kak su sve za kurac) al i dalje mi se ide nekak iako je možda za kurac želim vidjet užasno sam znatiželjna užasno možda onak možda je taj swami jeben lik i možda izbjegnem još jedan dan predviđen za štancanje zaostataka faksa. i s tim razgovorima o smislu tih duhovnostišitova sam se sjetila kad je D. rekao ha! vi ste pričali o smislu života mi smo ga doživjeli! i to mi je bilo prejebeno sjećam se dok je to rekao mi je bilo prejebeno dobro osim izjave kao takve i osim tog šta sam se apsolutno složila, jer me u to doba morilo to nešto na što nisam mogla staviti prst i to je ta cijeli res non verba koju želim nabit T. u lice jer mi se ponekad čini da je cijela verba i ništa res tak mi dođe da joj kažem molim te odi na more odi plivaj odi se druži s ljudima odi među ljude odi van odi bilošta počni bilošta prestani bit unutra budi vani imala sam tad takav clarity clarence trenutak potajno al s druge strane mislim da nije svrha T. da mi bude prijateljica mislim je mi prijateljica ali je pitanje kolko ću se držat za nju i sigurno neću. svrha T. je bila da me gurne u sigurnu propast s tim svim...prezanimljivim sranjima žalila sam se danas mami kak me maltretira (a ne maltretira me neg me grizla savjest što nisam otišla na swamija a rekla sam joj da budem vidiš ti tu ljudsku prirodu preodurno) i onda je ona rekla a maja pa znaš da i ti to radiš to ti je kad si preoduševljen s nečim i onda želiš da svi to isto iskuse i onda svima to preporučaš i onda sam bila onak :| jebemu i sam mi se u glavi izlistao popis stvari s kojima maltretiram ljude od boksa do blendera i onak oh god why... baš sam sad recimo pejstala m. adyashantija [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZXGayXKx5s&feature=related] meni on nije Tolko drag baš jer je amerikanac heeeeee al i dalje nekak opsesivno klikćem te videe i hoću čut na koji način prezentira to sve i fakat nemam nijedan prigovor na sadržaj šta je stvarno jako pohvalno s tim da me gro iritira nastup i cijeli koncept i to i creepy je i ne sviđa mi se kak izgleda heh al... mogla bi radit recenzije tih spiritual shitova brijem da sam tolko dobro pohvatala sve konce da s jednim gledanjem isusovački procijenim (mislim nije teško, 99.9% govna bi bio otprilike statistički) ma čak ni mooji nije savršen...da, nije savršen. al blizu! so close...  (donji rakurs- sugerira autoritet)  ko gorila u sredini <3 issss <3 <3 <3 <3 sad sam pročitala to kaj sam napisala i svjesna sam da je jako zbrčkano i polubesmisleno ne sadržajno, formalno, jasno tak da disclaimer nisam nepismena ako išta aaaa niiiiisaaaaaaam ništaaaaaaaaa |
21.05.2012., ponedjeljak
i once was lost but now i'm found was blind but now i see you
           http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XpXaWUaBe7E&feature=related to sam htjela stavit prije 6 sati glavni kolodvor- zgrada s frizom tko je radio zgradu na glavnom? kad? zašto po antičkom uzoru? zašto je antički uzor uopće uzor? što to ljudima paše u uzoru friza i tko je to radio i za koga je to namijenjeno (možda za mene da gledam u to kao što i jesam) klice klice klice otkud je ta riječ zašto mi je u glavi otkud njemu ta riječ zašto mu je bila u glavi I went to tell everybody, But I could not get across. komplicirano+komplicirano+komplicirano+komplicirano+n-numberofkomplicirano=jednostavno Don't the moon look good, mama, Shinin' through the trees? Don't the brakeman look good, mama, Flagging down the "Double E"? Don't the sun look good Goin' down over the sea?  how selfish of you to believe in the meaning of all the...  |
18.05.2012., petak
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i firmly believe that our universe is a corrective one, not a vindictive one |
12.05.2012., subota
neki ono subota popodne je i na kompu sam
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danas sam ležala na kamenčićima na zagrebačkom moru i gledala sam nebo i osim šta sam osjećala ogromnu sreću i ekspanziju duše i this is it utapanje u oblacima sam također osjetila neko neobično škakljanje duboko u moždanoj kori i mislim čak u srčanoj čakri neko lagano istezanje i malu naježavajuću senzaciju nešto što čini disanje ugodnijim i nekak punijim izvana je dolazila i dala se jasno razlučit od joy of pure being i pitala sam se na trenutak sam se ekšli zapitala šta je to i onda sam skužila da je to zapravo pitanje koje bi se dalo verbalizirati u kaj radiš? kak si? šta smiješno pričaš? jel ti kosa svezana? kaj radiš sad točno u ovom trenutku. nije to toliko (iako je) samo interes za to nego je više ko neko nastojanje transcendacije time&space-a i nastojanje napipavanja nekim telepatskim pipcima tvoju dušu u masi i gomili drugih i možda samo možda natruhe nekih tvojih obrisa oslikati u pozadini glave ne na vidljiv način nego na neki osjetilni :? al uvijek mi se čini mislim čini mi trenutno ne uvijek da imam neki you've got to hide your love away nagon isto ono daj ajde ne budi lejm zanemari to daj odi van i radi nešto konstruktivno nemoj se zatvarat brijem da zapravo imam strah neki duboko duboko podsvjesni da prepuštanje neminovno vodi kao račvanje rijeke u jednom smjeru i prekriži drugi neminovno ću jedan dan ležat i gledat oblake i ta izvanjska senzacija call it what you want će se sukobit sa srećom postojanja i možda samo možda ću se izgubit u tome možda ću morat odabrat i uplest se u začarani krug ups&downsa i vječne samsare jin&janga sreće i tuge i onda nekak se sjetim da me opće nije dovoljno briga za ta sranja (osim šta su logički apsurdna) i da bi (čak da nisu logički apsurdna) skrenula u bilokoje račvanje rijeke bilokad jer šta imaš drugo za radit uopće u životu. (a i brijem da imam neke traume) i još sam neki dan iskopala neko glupo vjerovanje iz sebe da je ljubav do koje je teško doć vrijednija od one do koje nije. al zapravo nije. to nije ljubav. ljubav je cijelo vrijeme tu. i ne moraš uopće ić do nje. jer je tu. ovo sve ostalo su pizdarije i smiješne stvari. glad i solved that bit i čini mi se da je danas govorit o ljubavi i govorit o svim tim kvazihipi stvarima veći tabu nego govoriti o biločemu (a dobro mi pričamo...o svemu hvala isusu krstu i mariji (i lani :?) al šokantnije recimo drugim ljudima :? koji nisu pripadnici elitne postrojbe) in other news za koje nikog nije briga mama mi je prestala ić na kemoterapije (tehnički šta je odlučila još i prije al su joj doktori rekli da je luda i da Mora ić or else- masters of life and death pa jasno) . daleko od toga da bi trebala to napravit. :D i ja sam fakat gro sretna zbog toga. ne pomažu joj tak i tak. sam joj odmažu i uništavaju joj kvalitetu života jebote čini mi se da mi je taj koncept ostao negdje duboko zakopan iz nekog filma il neki kurac života jedna od onih standardnih životnih priča koje čuješ kao joj pa nema mu spasa bolje da je doma bolje da može živjet normalno kraće neg da je u bolnici i na aparatima dulje "uništava kvalitetu života" i tako joj je jebeno laknulo kad je to odlučila cijelo vrijeme bolestan strah od jebenog utorka kad kao mora ić (vene su joj počele odbijat primat kemoterapiju i mogu joj sam zabit cijev u vrat) jer je to tolko...užasno on so many levels, nema smisla da pričam, morate to proživjet lol i jebeni doktori i jebene bolnice ja fakat ne bi htjela da itko ide tamo :s nakon kaj sam bila u svim bolnicama ikad u zagrebu rađe bi da svi pomru neg da se tak muče (lol :o) ne znam jel ste ikad bili na odjelima za te kao kronične (akutne?) bolesnike onkologija itd kao da smo usred rata u bukerima kao da su ljudi jebeni štakori na jebenim pokretnim trakama idu kroz mašine koje ih režu šivaju uštrcavaju kemikalije gotovo ono miris rotting flesha i ta hrana ti doktori kolko su nehumani i misliš si medicina humano a u praksi ne postoji odvratnije stvari (svaka čast iznimkama govorim temeljeno na svom iskustvu i generalizirano) da i onda to olakšanje "ne idem više aaaaaaaaa" to je najljepša stvar na svijetu :( i na kraju dana ima veze samo s hrabrošću i okretanjem drugim stvarima. alternativi :? i onda mi još kaže da se ne brinem ja ništa oko toga, sve će bit kak treba bit, riješit će se. i onda sam ja rekla mama ti živiš od prane ne od kemoterapije (od kemoterapije se umire) i onda je ona rekla da jelda lol šta je istina. trebala je kao umrijet (po doktorima) već 89 puta. e pa jebite se doktori! a i šta god se dogodi će bit dobro. ne postoji fragmenta loše stvari u istini. ne postoji. sve se uvijek vraća na nulu. kao u mehanici. the universe is constantly changing! every second! every fragment of a second! |
između ostalog, sreća dolazi kad se oslobodiš ambicije. JES!
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Questioner: Why do we worship God? Krishnamurti: I am afraid we don't worship God. Don't laugh. You see, we don't love God; if we did love God, there would not be this thing we call worship. We worship God because we are frightened of him; there is fear in our hearts, not love. The temple, the puja, the sacred thread - these things are not of God, they are the creations of man's vanity and fear. It is only the unhappy, the frightened who worship God. Those who have wealth, position and authority are not happy people. An ambitious man is a most unhappy human being. Happiness comes only when you are free of all that - and then you do not worship God. It is the miserable, the tortured, those who are in despair that crawl to a temple; but if they put aside this so-called worship and understand their misery, then they will be happy men and women, for they will discover what truth is, what God is. |
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Now, if you must have a guru, somebody to inspire you, to encourage you, to tell you that you are doing well, it means that you are relying on that person, and inevitably you are lost when he goes away someday. The moment you depend on a person or an idea for inspiration there is bound to be fear, therefore it is not true inspiration at all. Whereas, if you watch a dead body being carried away, or observe two people quarrelling, does it not make you think? When you see somebody being very ambitious, or notice how you all fall at the feet of your governor when he comes in, does it not make you reflect? So there is inspiration in everything, from the falling of a leaf or the death of a bird to man's own behaviour. If you watch all these things you are learning all the time; but if you look to one person as your teacher, then you are lost and that person becomes your nightmare. That is why it is very important not to follow anybody, not to have one particular teacher, but to learn from the river, the flowers, the trees, from the woman who carries a burden, from the members of your family and from your own thoughts. This is an education which nobody can give you but yourself, and that is the beauty of it. It demands ceaseless watchfulness, a constantly inquiring mind. You have to learn by observing, by struggling, by being happy and tearful. |
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THE OTHER MORN1NG I saw a dead body being carried away to be burnt. It was wrapped in bright magenta cloth and it swayed with the rhythm of the four mortals who were carrying it. I wonder what kind of impression a dead body makes on one. Don't you wonder why there is deterioration? You buy a brand new motor, and within a few years it is worn out. The body also wears out; but don't you inquire a little further to find out why the mind deteriorates? Sooner or later there is the death of the body, but most of us have minds which are already dead. Deterioration has already taken place; and why does the mind deteriorate? The body deteriorates because we are constantly using it and the physical organism wears out. Disease, accident, old age, bad food, poor heredity - these are the factors which cause the deterioration and death of the body. But why should the mind deteriorate, become old, heavy, dull? When you see a dead body, have you never wondered about this? Though our bodies must die, why should the mind ever deteriorate? Has this question never occurred to you? For the mind does deteriorate - we see it not only in old people, but also in the young. We see in the young how the mind is already becoming dull, heavy, insensitive; and if we can find out why the mind deteriorates, then perhaps we shall discover something really indestructible. We may understand what is eternal life, the life that is unending, that is not of time, the life that is incorruptible, that does not decay like the body which is carried to the ghats, burnt and the remains thrown into the river. Now, why does the mind deteriorate? Have you ever thought about it? Being still very young - and if you have not already been made dull by society, by your parents, by circumstances - you have a fresh, eager, curious mind. You want to know why the stars exist, why the birds die, why the leaves fall, how the jet plane flies; you want to know so many things. But that vital urge to inquire, to find out, is soon smothered, is it not? It is smothered by fear, by the weight of tradition, by our own incapacity to face this extraordinary thing called life. Haven't you noticed how quickly your eagerness is destroyed by a sharp word, by a disparaging gesture, by the fear of an examination or the threat of a parent - which means that sensitivity is already being pushed aside and the mind made dull? Another cause of dullness is imitation. You are made to imitate by tradition. The weight of the past drives you to conform, toe the line, and through conformity the mind feels safe, secure; it establishes itself in a well-oiled groove so that it can run smoothly without disturbance, without a quiver of doubt. Watch the grown-up people about you and you will see that their minds do not want to be disturbed. They want peace, even though it is the peace of death; but real peace is something entirely different. When the mind establishes itself in a groove, in a pattern, haven't you noticed that it is always prompted by the desire to be secure? That is why it follows an ideal, an example, a guru. It wants to be safe, undisturbed, therefore it imitates. When you read in your history books about great leaders, saints, warriors, don't you find yourself wanting to copy them? Not that there aren't great people in the world; but the instinct is to imitate great people, to try to become like them, and that is one of the factors of deterioration because the mind then sets itself in a mould. Furthermore, society does not want individuals who are alert, keen, revolutionary, because such individuals will not fit into the established social pattern and they may break it up. That is why society seeks to hold your mind in its pattern, and why your so-called education encourages you to imitate, to follow, to conform. Now, can the mind stop imitating? That is, can it cease to form habits? And can the mind, which is already caught in habit, be free of habit? The mind is the result of habit, is it not? It is the result of tradition, the result of time - time being repetition, a continuity of the past. And can the mind, your mind, stop thinking in terms of what has been - and of what will be, which is really a projection of what has been? Can your mind be free from habit and from creating habits? If you go into this problem very deeply you will find that it can; and when the mind renews itself without forming new patterns, habits, without again falling into the groove of imitation, then it remains fresh, young, innocent, and is therefore capable of infinite understanding. For such a mind there is no death because there is no longer a process of accumulation. It is the process of accumulation that creates habit, imitation, and for the mind that accumulates there is deterioration, death. But a mind that is not accumulating, not gathering, that is dying each day, each minute - for such a mind there is no death. It is in a state of infinite space. So the mind must die to everything it has gathered - to all the habits, the imitated virtues, to all the things it has relied upon for its sense of security. Then it is no longer caught in the net of its own thinking. In dying to the past from moment to moment the mind is made fresh, therefore it can never deteriorate or set in motion the wave of darkness. Questioner: How can we put into practice what you are telling us? Krishnamurti: You hear something which you think is right and you want to carry it out in your everyday life; so there is a gap between what you think and what you do, is there not? You think one thing, and you are doing something else. But you want to put into practice what you think, so there is this gap between action and thought; and then you ask how to bridge the gap, how to link your thinking to your action. Now, when you want to do something very much, you do it, don't you? When you want to go and play cricket, or do some other thing in which you are really interested, you find ways and means of doing it; you never ask how to put it into practice. You do it because you are eager, because your whole being, your mind and heart are in it. But in this other matter you have become very cunning, you think one thing and do another. You say,'`That is an excellent idea and intellectually I approve, but I don't know what to do about it, so please tell me how to put it into practice" - which means that you don't want to do it at all. What you really want is to postpone action, because you like to be a little bit envious, or whatever it is. You say, "Everybody else is envious, so why not I?", and you just go on as before. But if you really don't want to be envious and you see the truth of envy as you see the truth of a cobra, then you cease to be envious and that is the end of it; you never ask how to be free of envy. So what is important is to see the truth of something, and not ask how to carry it out - which really means that you don't see the truth of it. When you meet a cobra on the road you don't ask, "What am I to do?" You understand very well the danger of a cobra and you stay away from it. But you have never really examined all the implications of envy; nobody has ever talked to you about it, gone into it very deeply with you. You have been told that you must not be envious, but you have never looked into the nature of envy; you have never observed how society and all the organized religions are built on it, on the desire to become something. But the moment you go into envy and really see the truth of it, envy drops away. To ask, "How am I to do it?" is a thoughtless question, because when you are really interested in something which you don't know how to do, you go at it and soon begin to find out. If you sit back and say, "Please tell me a practical way to get rid of greed," you will continue to be greedy. But if you inquire into greed with an alert mind, without any prejudice, and if you put your whole being into it, you will discover for yourself the truth of greed; and it is the truth that frees you, not your looking for a way to be free. Questioner: Why are our desires never fully realized? Why are there always hindrances that prevent us from doing completely as we wish? Krishnamurti: If your desire to do something is complete, if your whole being is in it without seeking a result, without wanting to fulfil - which means without fear - then there is no hindrance. There is a hindrance, a contradiction only when your desire is incomplete, broken up: you want to do something and at the same time you are afraid to do it, or you half want to do something else. Besides, can you ever fully realize your desires? Do you understand? I will explain. Society, which is the collective relationship between man and man, does not want you to have a complete desire, because if you did you would be a nuisance, a danger to society. You are permitted to have respectable desires like ambition, envy - that is perfectly all right. Being made up of human beings who are envious, ambitious, who believe and imitate, society accepts envy, ambition, belief, imitation, even though these are all intimations of fear. As long as your desires fit into the established pattern, you are a respectable citizen. But the moment you have a complete desire, which is not of the pattern, you become a danger; so society is always watching to prevent you from having a complete desire, a desire which would be the expression of your total being and therefore bring about a revolutionary action. The action of being is entirely different from the action of becoming. The action of being is so revolutionary that society rejects it and concerns itself exclusively with the action of becoming, which is respectable because it fits into the pattern. But any desire that expresses itself in the action of becoming, which is a form of ambition, has no fulfilment. Sooner or later it is thwarted, impeded, frustrated, and we revolt against that frustration in mischievous ways. This is a very important question to go into, because as you grow older you will find that your desires are never really fulfilled. In fulfilment there is always the shadow of frustration, and in your heart there is not a song but a cry. The desire to become to become a great man, a great saint, a great this or that - has no end and therefore no fulfilment; its demand is ever for the 'more', and such desire always breeds agony, misery, wars. But when one is free of all desire to become there is a state of being whose action is totally different. It is. That which is has no time. it does not think in terms of fulfilment. Its very being is its fulfilment. Questioner: I see that I am dull, but others say I am intelligent. Which should affect me: my seeing or their saying? Krishnamurti: Now listen to the question very carefully, very quietly, don't try to find an answer. If you say that I am an intelligent man, and I know very well that I am dull, will what you say affect me? It will if I am trying to be intelligent, will it not? Then I shall be flattered, influenced by your remark. But if I see that a dull person can never cease to be dull by trying to be intelligent, then what happens? Surely, if I am stupid and I try to be intelligent, I shall go on being stupid because trying to be or to become something is part of stupidity. A stupid person may acquire the trimmings of cleverness, he may pass a few examinations, get a job, but he does not thereby cease to be stupid. (Please follow this, it is not a cynical statement.) But the moment a person is aware that he is dull, stupid, and instead of trying to be intelligent he begins to examine and understand his stupidity - in that moment there is the awakening of intelligence. Take greed. Do you know what greed is? It is eating more food than you need, wanting to outshine others at games, wanting to have more property, a bigger car than someone else. Then you say that you must not be greedy, so you practise non-greed which is really silly, because greed can never cease by trying to become non-greed. But if you begin to understand all the implications of greed, if you give your mind and heart to finding the truth of it, then you are free from greed as well as from its opposite. Then you are a really intelligent human being, because you are tackling what is and not imitating what should be. So, if you are dull, don't try to be intelligent or clever, but understand what it is that is making you dull. Imitation, fear, copying somebody, following an example or an ideal - all this makes the mind dull. When you stop following, when you have no fear, when you are capable of thinking clearly for yourself - are you not then the brightest of human beings? But if you are dull and try to be clever you will join the ranks of those who are pretty dull in their cleverness. |
10.05.2012., četvrtak
rumi kaže
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your task is not to seek for love but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it anetisi |
09.05.2012., srijeda
neki spot i pjesma i to
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uubJ7IzOrEE&ob=av2e e mrzim ovo al u isto vrijeme volim al mrzim al volim mislim srbi kažu gotivim HEJ! ne možeš da kažeš volim osim za najviše 5 bendova a ostale gotiviš. tako je rekao vasa tako kažem i ja s jedne strane gotivim s druge strane koji kurac listen to your head girl, not to your heart??? what are we not living in the same world ako išta listen to your heart head ne donosi nikad ništa osim kruha na stol a to nam uopće kao ne treba k vragu tako ću failati (koja je hrvatska riječ za fail) izgubiti :? u životu feel with your hear girl not with your head to bi bio moj advice za take it as it comes u tom je stvar isuse take it as it comes je koncept koji podrazumijeva heart a ne head ako je take it as it comes to je spontano i intuitivno a to su pojmovi koje obično vežemo uz heart inače smiješno mi pjevaju i to smiješno namjerno to rade al onda ti ostane u uhu to neko faking zavlačenje i taj 60s đir koji je treši obnovljen loša gluma i sve tak je sve loše al opet znam ga napamet what does it mean isuse kako je hipnotizirajuće sad sam opet po gledala isuse kako ste kontradiktorni akdaklsdksakslskskaa explode ovaj hairspray je totalno nice touch http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=uubJ7IzOrEE#t=113s ko to tak stavlja isuse super je nitko to tak ne stavlja NI TKO kako si hawt http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=uubJ7IzOrEE#t=145s hgh nene i luv it superretardirano da ok |
07.05.2012., ponedjeljak
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drugi ljudi nisu samo statisti ili likovi u priči tvog života (nisam ni ja) AFFB80BBF6 |
06.05.2012., nedjelja
kad bi svi ljudi na svijetu
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zakaj ljudi briju da ih stvari razdvajaju mislim naravno na standardne stvari rasizam diskriminacija bla o kojima pjeva ne znam marley i neki drugi rastafai e pa zabriješ da je netko drugi nešto drugo i onda je tu automatski strah jer je nepoznato (kad će se ljudi prestati bojati nepoznatog?) iz straha mržnja i uvijek je uvjetovano jasno bojom kože ili seksualnim opredijeljenjem ili biločim ali biločim e i ljudi se obično u razmišljanju o ovome zadrže na tim stvarima na površini, velikim, izraženim problemima koji su pod zakonskom regulativom i tako dalje al čekaj malo. ako kažemo non-dualism (neki kažu da s rođenjem i sa življenjem zabrijemo da mi Jesmo svoje tijelo da mi Jesmo svoj identitet da mi Jesmo ono s čim se bavimo da mi Jesmo svoja klasa svoj kvart svoj ovo svoj ono. mislim jesi, ali nisi. jesi ovak naravno da jesi. ali zamisli poistovijećivanje s tim. uvijek te netko ili nešto uvrijedi oko nečeg ili nekog sam zato jer je drukčiji sam zato jer drukčije brije jer je po tvojim mjerilima bezobrazan il štagod. zamisli da se ne poistovijećuješ s tim. zamisli da se ne poistovijećuješ s ničim. e u tom negdje leži taj- nisam to. mislim jesi ti to sve realno i u prostoru, ali nisi opet ako se ne poistovijećuješ.--- e i onda je kao shema životna da prestanemo to brijat. da si ovdje i sada baš zato da naučiš da si mogao biti i bilogdje i bilokada, doesnt matter. e i onda ako to kao shvatiš kaže advaita onda shvatiš da si ti zapravo sve. i da nije bitno ništa. ma. evo neki citati čitajte sve “All separation, every kind of estrangement and alienation is false. All is one—this is the ultimate solution of every conflict.” “You are not in the body. The body is in you.” “The way to truth lies through the destruction of the false. To destroy the false, you must question your most inveterate beliefs. Of these the idea that you are the body is the worst. ...Realize that what you are cannot be born nor die and with the fear gone all suffering ends.” “You are so accustomed to think of yourselves as bodies having consciousness that you just cannot imagine consciousness as having bodies. Once you realize that bodily existence is but a state of mind, a movement in consciousness, that the ocean of consciousness is infinite and eternal, and that, when in touch with consciousness, you are the witness only, you will be able to withdraw beyond consciousness altogether.” “You need not reach out for what is already with you. Your very reaching out makes you miss it. Give up the idea that you have not found it and just let it come into the focus of direct perception, here and now, by removing all that is of the mind.” “See that you are not what you believe yourself to be. Fight with all the strength at your disposal against the idea that you are nameable and describable. You are not. Refuse to think of this or that. There is no other way out of misery, which you have created for yourself through blind acceptance without investigation. Suffering is a call for inquiry, all pain needs investigation. Don’t be lazy to think.” “Believe me, there is no goal, nor a way to reach it. You are the way and the goal, there is nothing else to reach except yourself. All you need is to understand and the understanding is the flowering of the mind.” “The yogi comes to know many wonders, but of the self he remains ignorant. The gnani may look and feel quite ordinary, but the self he knows well.” “Nobody ever fails in yoga. It is all a matter of the rate of progress. It is slow in the beginning and rapid in the end. When one is fully matured, realization is explosive. It takes place spontaneously, or at the slightest hint. The quick is not better than the slow. Slow ripening and rapid flowering alternate. Both are natural and right.” “You can only know your self by being yourself without any attempt at self-definition and self-description. Once you have understood that you are nothing perceivable or conceivable, that whatever appears in the field of consciousness cannot be your self, you will apply yourself to the eradication of all self identification, as the only way that can take you to a deeper realization of your self. You literally progress by rejection—a veritable rocket. To know that you are neither in the body nor in the mind, though aware of both, is already self-knowledge.” “We dream that we are awake, we dream that we are asleep. The three states are only varieties of the dream state. Treating everything as a dream liberates. As long as you give reality to dreams, you are their slave. By imaging that you are born as so and so, you become a slave to the so-and-so. The essence of slavery is to imagine yourself to be a process, to have past and future, to have history.” “There is no need of a way out! Don’t you see that a way out is also part of the dream' All you have to do is see the dream as dream. ...Wherever it leads you, it will be a dream. The very idea of going beyond the dream is illusory. Why go anywhere' Just realize that you are dreaming a dream you call the world and stop looking for ways out. The dream is not your problem. Your problem is that you like one part of your dream and not another. Love all, or none of it, and stop complaining. When you have seen the dream as a dream, you have done all that needs be done.” “You want something like round-the-clock ecstasies. Ecstasies come and go, necessarily, for the human brain cannot stand the tension for a long time. A prolonged ecstasy will burn out your brain, unless it is extremely pure and subtle.” “Experience, however sublime, is not the real thing. By its very nature it comes and goes. Self-realization is not an acquisition. It is more of the nature of understanding. Once arrived at, it cannot be lost.” “If you want to make real progress, you must give up all idea of personal attainment. The ambitions of the so called yogis are preposterous. A man’s desire for a woman is innocence itself compared to the lusting for an everlasting personal bliss..” “Do not try to know the truth, for knowledge by the mind is not true knowledge. But you can know what is not true—which is enough to liberate you from the false. The idea that you know what is true is dangerous, for it keeps you imprisoned in the mind. It is when you do not know, that you are free to investigate. And there can be no salvation, without investigation, because non investigation is the main cause of bondage.” “Awareness is ever there. It need not be realized. Open the shutter of the mind, and it will be flooded with light.” “You merely dream that you roam about. In a few years your stay in India will appear as a dream to you. You will dream some other dream at that time. Do realize that it is not you who moves from dream to dream, but the dreams flow before you and you are the immutable witness. No happening affects your real being—that is the absolute truth.” “What you need will come to you if you do not ask for what you do not need.” “Why desire at all' Desiring a state of freedom from desire will not set you free, because you are free. See yourself with desireless clarity, that is all.” i zanimljivo je kaj kabala isto tako nekako brije u tom smjeru isuse imaju najdivnije crtežiće i grafička objašnjenja svog tog nekog sustava (koji je isti ko bilokoji drugi duhovni sustav lišen otrovnim vjerovanjima samo ispričan na drugi način) tipa  to je njihov odgovor zašto ljudi nisu svjesni da su prosvijetljeni. ima objašnjenje jebeno je al ne da mi se sad.) znači ne odvajanje (šta znači ne odvajati se od tijela- u biti zvuči jako kontradiktorno, kažeš "nisam tijelo" a govoriš o neodvajanju. pa odvajanje bi upravo bilo "jesam tijelo" jer to podrazumijeva da su crnci i bijelci recimo odvojeni po boji. ugh ima smisla kad razmisliš detaljno o tome sigurno) znači ne odvajanje bi teoretski bio koncept koji bi doveo mir među ljude (inače kad kažem ljudi moram se složit tu s oshom da ne mogu pričat o društvima jer ne znam društva znam samo individue. ne poznajem pojam society) ("Because all the societies, all the nations, all the cultures, have taken it for granted that the individuals exist for them, not vice-versa. To me, just the opposite is the case: the society exists for the individual, the culture exists for the individual, the nation exists for the individual. Everything can be sacrificed, but the individual cannot be sacrificed for anything. Individuality is the very flowering of existence -- nothing is higher than it. But no culture, no society, no civilization is ready to accept a simple truth.") osho kaže i ovo- conditioning as such is wrong "Meditation means a state of unconditioned mind. Meditation is the process of undoing the harm that every society goes on doing to every individual -- communist or Catholic, Jaina or Jew, it does not matter. I am not talking about any particular conditioning that is wrong; I am saying conditioning AS SUCH is wrong." i icanthelpit pomislit da svi cijelo vrijeme govore o istim stvarima okej dobro osho malo stoji preblizu selfhelp police al jeben je i čitak je i zanimljiv i duhovit i jednostavan i bok. ne šta sam ono htjela reć za nondualism da okej da zakaj stat zakaj ne otić u ekstreme zakaj to kao koncept ne pokosi sve sve sve i do najmanjeg detalja da recimo profesori ne pričaju više s učenicima kao da su autoritet nego kao ljudska bića s ljudskim bićima (kao moj mentor s nama) da doktor prek veze ne ufurava prvo svoju rodbinu jer je apsolutno svjestan da svi imaju jednako pravo pitam se da li je to moguće da li je to moguće! da li je to moguće. mislim meni nije moguće trenutno naravno da nije baš bi htjela da netko napiše roman kako bi funkcionirao svijet da je u svima duboko ukorijenjen nondualism (amer koji priča o zenu lol. al drag je i super stvari kaže http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRpD3-RXfoQ&feature=related ) |
