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PAULA

0:51:09 (došao sam da ti kažem da odlazim)

Here already? l wasn't expecting you until tomorrow.
What a lovely surprise! Are you hungry?
We all went to bed early.
We thought we'd have an early night. The girls and l have been dieting.
- Would you like some sandwiches? - Sounds good to me.
Or shall l fry you some eggs and ham, or fix some soup?
No, sandwiches and beer will do fine.
By the way, Peter and Katarina will call you on Monday.
What an ordeal they're having!
They don't seem able to decide about their divorce.
l told them to get a lawyer each, but they won't.
Listen, change into your pyjamas and l'll bring in a tray.
Sounds nice...
l was afraid you were angry with me.
- Why should l be? - l was beastly on the phone.
l called back, but you'd pulled out the plug.
l was tired last night.
l'd been with that numbskull from the ministry.
Those bureaucratic idiots in charge of our well-being...
- l still think l behaved badly. - Let's drop the subject.
You never want to finish talking about anything,
but this won't take long, dear.
l just wanted to say that you were right, but so am l.
lf you don't want to wear a tuxedo, that's your business.
- But l've a right to my own opinion. - l hate wearing a tux.
lt's a ridiculous outfit. l feel like a dressed-up chimp.
Let's not start quarrelling.
Tux or no tux, l love you.
A tuxedo is hardly essential to our marriage.
- lt seemed like that last night. - l said l was wrong.
Watching you eat makes me hungry...
l need a sandwich.
l'm so hungry, l feel light-headed.
l've lost nearly two kilos this week. Does it show?
l can feel it, though.
But it seems pointless at times...
Why should we grudge ourselves the good things in life?
Why can't we be fat and cheerful?
Remember Aunt Miriam and Uncle David?
They were big, fat and cheerful.
They slept in that double bed of theirs, holding hands.
Content with each other the way they were.
Why can't we be like them,
brimming with contentment?
What's the matter?
Are you upset?
Has something happened?
What's wrong?
Tell me.
l came here to tell you something.
l've gone and fallen in love.
lt's quite absurd and probably all wrong...
l met her at that congress in June.
She was an interpreter.
She's a student of Slavic languages.
She's nothing much to look at.
You might even think she's ugly.
l've no idea what this will lead to.
l don't know a thing. l'm bewildered.
On some level l'm happy,
but l have one hell of a guilty conscience about you and the girls.
We've always got along so well.
Things have been no better or no worse
than in most families.
Say something, for Christ's sake.
l don't know what to say.
lt was wrong not to tell you sooner,
but l figured l'd get over it.
l didn't want to worry you.
lt's funny...
..that l haven't noticed anything.
Everything's been like usual.
Better, in fact.
You've been so sweet.
l've been a silly blind fool.
l didn't understand...
- How mortifying. - No, you haven't understood a thing.
You've never been particularly observant.
- Where do we go from here? - l don't know.
Do you want a divorce?
Are you going to marry her?
Why tell me now? What's the rush?
We're leaving for Paris tomorrow.
l want to get away from it all.
l was going this autumn anyway.
Paula has this scholarship...
..and l want to be with her.
l can't make it without her.
So we're leaving tomorrow.
Now that l'm talking to you,
l want to ditch the whole damn thing.
l feel tired and scared.
Nothing could be more ridiculous.
l know just what you're thinking.
How could you know that?
l'm trying not to feel guilty, which has rather affected me.
Facts are facts, there's nothing to be done.
Let's go to bed. l expect you need to make an early start.
l have a meeting at nine.
Then we should get some sleep.
Aren't you going to undress?
You have marks on your chest.
How tactless of you.
ls my grey suit here or in town?
- lt's at the cleaners. - What a shame.
Did you want to bring it along?
Can't you go and pick it up?
l won't have the time.
l'm busy right up to 3 o'clock.
l can pick it up for you.
l'll do your packing, too. You're no good at such things.
- No, thank you. - Don't be silly...
l'm a bit conventional.
l think you have all you need here.
There are clean shirts and underwear.
Why don't you travel in your jacket and flannels?
- They give you a youthful air. - Whatever you say...
- How long will you be away? - lt depends.
What do you mean?
l've taken leave of absence for at least six months.
l'll probably stay away for at least seven or eight months.
l want to make a clean break.
- And if l'm not here? - l couldn't care less.
Do you know how long l've wanted to leave?
How long l've thought about leaving you?
- Don't tell me! - Four years!
- l can't take this! - Empty words...
What are you going to live on?
You'll have to pay child support.
Don't worry, l'll manage.
You must have assets l'm not aware of.
That is correct, Marianne.
- How is that possible? - Listen, damn it!
Even though it's none of your damn business,
l've sold the boat
and l've raised a loan.
The bank will pay you and the girls 1,600 krona a month.
We'll make some other arrangement when l return.
Get advice from your colleagues, l don't care.
Name your price!
l'm not taking a thing apart from my books.
l'll just vanish.
l'll dematerialize.
l'll pay all l can to support you.
All that interests me is to end this.
Do you know what l'm most fed up with?
All this carping about what we're expected to do
and the people we must accommodate.
What will your mother think?
Hadn't we better ask so-and-so to dinner?
We have to go here, we have to go there...
We must celebrate Christmas, Easter, birthdays...
Every single damn occasion!
- My poor darling... - l don't want your sympathy!
Stop pawing me!
This is pure affectation, my running on like this.
l can't get at the truth about us.
There isn't any one truth.
Whichever way we turn, it hurts.
Please don't go!
- l beg you. - lt's no use.
Postpone your trip. l believe we can save our marriage.
We could make a fresh start. You must give me a chance!
Perhaps Paula would understand me.
l should meet her and talk to her...
Let us face this together. Let me have a chance!
You're facing me with a fait accompli.
You're forcing me into an intolerable situation.
You mean: What are our parents going to say!
What will our friends think? Jesus, how tongues will wag!
How will it affect the girls?
What about the dinner parties?
What will you tell Peter and Katarina? Who cares?
lt feels good to be a cad!
That wasn't what l meant.
Forget it...
l forgot to set the alarm.
- When do you need to leave? - Please set it for 5:30.
l need to pack and l have a conference at nine.
l've been meaning to get a new alarm clock.
This one's so noisy and it's not very reliable.
There, it's set for 5:30.
l'll wake up on my own anyway, so you needn't worry.
- Tell me about Paula. - Please... What's the point?
- Why torment yourself? - l want to know what she's like.
lt's much worse picturing some faceless threat.
- Do you have a picture of her? - Can't we be spared this ordeal?
Please help me with this.
Well, you asked for it...
Where's my wallet? l guess it's in my jacket...
Here are two photos.
That was taken two years ago, on holiday.
That is her passport photo. lt's a good likeness.
She has a nice figure.
- And lovely breasts, right? - Yes, she does...
- Does she dye her hair? - lt's possible.
- Her smile is nice. How old is she? - 23.
She hasn't been lucky in love.
She's been engaged twice
and has had lots of affairs.
- Does that bother you? - Yes, it does...
Her frankness is quite unpleasant.
She insists on giving me the details of her erotic past.
l suffer from retrospective jealousy.
She has no illusions
and she has no great hopes for the two of us.
She knows l'll go back to you.
lt all sounds like a hackneyed old melodrama.
Are you compatible in bed?
Yes, we are, actually.
At first it was all wrong.
l wasn't used to it - being with other women, l mean.
We've spoiled each other, you and l, living in a bubble of our own.
Everything's gone like clockwork.
- The lack of oxygen smothered us. - And Paula will revive you?
l have little self-awareness.
l know little of reality, regardless of all the books l've read,
but this may be an opportunity for you and l to really live.
Has Paula filled your head with rubbish like that?
- Just how naive can you get? - We can do without your taunts.
- Forgive me. - l'm trying...
l'm trying to be honest and it's not easy!
We've never talked like this before.
ls it any wonder we're naive?
What else can we expect?
You're in a tight spot.
Come and lie down beside me.
Come...
l want you to make love to me.
Please?
For old time's sake.
Lie here in my arms
and we'll both go to sleep together.
l don't think l can sleep.
l'd better leave at once.
Close your eyes.
We both need the rest.
Tomorrow will be a busy day.
l'm so damned ashamed.
We'll talk about that later.
Right now, it's just the two of us.
We still have a few hours left.
Just you and l...

1:17:12 (odlazak)

- Are you going to pack first or eat? - You decide.
- Tea or coffee? - Tea, please.
- What about your mail? - l'll send you my address.
You can send the letters on, pay the bills in the usual way.
The plumber was scheduled to come to fix the bathroom.
Shall l call him?
l figured it might have slipped your mind.
l've phoned him dozens of times, l haven't forgotten it.
What about your car?
l've asked Paula's sister to take care of it.
She needs a car.
l see.
Would you please
cancel my dentist's appointment?
lt's your father's birthday on Friday, we're supposed to dine there.
Are you planning to phone him?
That's tricky...
Maybe l can write him a letter.
As long as you don't forget.
Dealing with our parents will be tough.
- What should l tell the girls? - Say whatever you like.
- That you walked out on us? - You couldn't have put it better.
l don't expect you to understand me.
l have to leave now, to avoid traffic.
Goodbye, Marianne. Take care.
- l may be home in a week's time. - l wish...
We'd make a fresh start.
We'd throw out stale old routines.
We'd talk about the past.
We'd try and find out where we went wrong.
You'd never hear me blame you.
Johan, it's all so unreal...
l don't know what to do.
You're shutting me out.
Any solution would be better than this.
Couldn't you promise to come back? Then l'd have something, at least.
You can't leave me without hope.
Even if you don't intend to return, tell me you will.
l have to go now.
Fredrik? lt's Marianne. Sorry to wake you.
ls Birgit there? No, let her sleep.
So, how are you doing?
Oh, you're an early riser, are you? l won't keep you long.
lt's cloudy... That sounds lovely.
There's something l need to talk to you about.
l really need to talk...
You and Birgit are friends of ours.
l have to...
lt's all so unreal, Fredrik.
You see...
l'm on the verge of tears
and crying only makes things worse.
Johan has fallen in love with another woman.
They're leaving for Paris today.
Couldn't you talk to him?
Tell him not to do anything rash.
You've already talked to him?
l see...
So, you both have known all along?
You knew, but you never told me?
And you call yourselves friends?
How could you be so disloyal?
l don't buy your explanations!
All those times we've met
and neither of you said a word...
Damn you!
What kind of friends are you?
To hell with your explanations!
How many others have you known?
Oh, lots of people...
Well, isn't that nice!