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Me:

Ime: Laura

cudna je... povucena, blesava...
voli tog jednog prekasnog decka...
sve bi napravila za njega
i sve vas voli da ne zaboravim :)
nije sigurna u sebe, ne vjeruje nikome, pa ni sebi... iznenaduje samu sebe svojim ponasanjem... luda je



MSN/mail
laura16anna@hotmail.com

slobodno mejlajte il dodajte...

×X MJERE I SLIČNO

visina: 179

02.11.2008. - novi pocetak eek
oko 66 kg namcor


×X CILJEVI
64 -
63 -
62 -
61 -
60 -
59 -
58 - najveca zelja


2.11. +
3.11. +
4.11. +
5.11. +/-
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6.11.
7.11.
8.11.
9.11.


×XLEPTIRICE
nekadasnje i sadasnje:

Ambra

Just me

Ne težim za savršenstvom, samo želim smršaviti

Samo želim biti lijepa

Thin Fantasy

Baby Ana

Nesretna i debela

Yellow

Tia

crvena

I wanna be thin...

debela sam

Anna Freak

*look what they have done to my dream*

ghetto girl

UN-kica

Mulla

Miss Ana

Smjer Ilica

Best friend to Anna

Apple

Be my baby

Jedna od mojih najdrazih:
Beautiful_disorder :)

Chat:
Leptirice chat

eek

Savjeti:

Ovo nemojte shvacat Pro-ana jer ja nisam Proana... ovo je samo za cure koje poremecaj u prehrani vec imaju i dobro znaju kaj je to i kak je to.... nadam se da ce vam pomoc bar malo....

1.) ne preporucam vaganje svaki dan... voda i sve to... radije svaka 4-5 dana
2.) uvijek morate imat cilj, bez cilja cete jako brzo odustat
3.) ponekad je osjecaj gladi najljepsi osjecaj...
4.) zabavite se necim... napravite si manikuru, provedite dan u shopping-centru, zabavljajte se... samo da ne mislite na hranu
5.) nemojte govorit drugim ljudima da ne jedete... pocet ce vas uvjeravat da vam treba hrana, da niste normalni i na kraju ce se udaljit od vas jer nece znat kaj da naprave s vama
6.) ako se zelite nekom povjerit il vam je tesko, sigurna sam da ce barem jedna leptirica saslusat i pomoc... ja sam uvijek tu za vas
7.) nemojte gladovat pa se navecer prezderat... jedino kaj s tim dobijete je uzaaassaaannn osjecaj krivnje, isti tren se osjecate duplo deblje i na kraju pošizite do kraja... radije jedite malo tijekom dana umjesto gladovanja i recite NE
8.) pisite postove redovito... pomaze i vama da pratite kilazu, osjecaje, promjene i da razmisljate o necem drugom, a pomaze i curama koje citaju
9.) nadite neku svoju mantru... ponavljajte ju kad vam je tesko i kad vidite da neide dalje... nek vam to da snage da nastavite
10.) thinspiration... predivna stvar.. svakoj od vas preporucam bar jednu sliku mrsave cure u novcaniku il na zidu...
11.) nemojte se zavaravat s tim da su sve kalorije iste... mozda uneses 500 il kolko vec kalorija dnevno, al nije isto dal je to 500 kalorija špeka, čipsa i čokolade il 500 kalorija jabuka i naranči, kaj ne? zato pazite i na kvalitetu i masnocu hrane, ne samo kalorijsku vrijednost
12.) ZLATNI SAVJET... ako dulje vrijeme ne jedete il jedete npr. samo naranče il nesto kiselo vrlo vjerojatno dobijete žgaravicu ili bolove u zelucu il nesto... sir pomaze... samo kockicu nekog mrvicu masnijeg sira pojedite i odma ce bit bolje... puno bolje nego da (na vjerojatno jaaako prazan zeludac) pijete tablete...


to bi bilo to, dodat cu jos toga kad smislim nesto pametno :D

Lyrics...

DEAD CELEBRITY STATUS
"Someone I Once Knew"

She wasn't born anorexic, but nowadays she suffers,
staring at these half-naked stars on magazine covers.
feeling pressured by the public.
She only weighs 90 pounds but still sucks in her stomach.
On the inside she's dieing, lying to herself, thinking:
- 5 more pounds won't jeopardize my health.
One day she might just collapse, she can't avoid it.
Too many sleepless nights spent bent over a toilet.
Spewing vomit, like she was an alcoholic.
Praying to a God she never believed in to stop it.
Hasn't eaten in weeks, drinks water by the heaps.
Now she looks like the skeleton she sees in her closet.
So close to death she can taste it, body looks wasted.
Hates life, hates you, hates the way she looks naked.
Now she's feeling drowsy, lousy,
thinking maybe this world's better off without me

I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.

She's staring at her belly, she's so scared to touch it,
imagining the feeling when it kicks inside her stomach.
Too late for safe sex, should have used a latex.
She can't afford a baby on minimum wage paychecks.
Her waistline climbs by inches,
'cuz she traded in the morning workouts for morning sickness.
Feeling nauseous, sleeps on a mat because she's cautious.
Give life or take life, that's her only options.
Only if she had a magic wand, she'd go back to that night
and put her clothes back on.
But she can't change time, or what's growing inside.
How could she love something that's barely alive?
Her body's aching, shaking, from sweaty palms, and cold sweat.
Mentally exhausting like phone sex.
No regrets, life or death, it's high stakes.
'cuz right or wrong, it's only her choice to make.

I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.

[Side]
- Help!
[Girl:] You smell like perfume. That's NOT mine.
[Guy:] Your head's going fucking crazy, Your head is going crazy.
Gotta get outta here and look after myself.
[Girl:] What? What's so wrong with me that you can't love me?
[Guy:] Look-
[Girl:] What is wrong with me? I do everything for you.
I, I, I make myself look good, I go to the gym.
I, I eat like a fucking rabbit.
I don't, I don't know what else to do.
Tell me.
[Guy:] Baby, you don't understand because-
[Girl:] What it is I have to do to make you love me.

I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done,
I'm so sorry for what I've become.
I'm so sorry, so sorry for wasting your time,
I can't hold you back 'cuz I'm losing my mind.

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SUPERCHICK
"Courage"

I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well," "I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
And for a moment, for a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone, no one hears me cry

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be OK
Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I've changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm OK
And for a moment, for a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not OK
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be OK
Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
(together we'll make it through somehow)

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be OK
Together we can make it through another day


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SILVERCHAIR
"Ana's song"

Please die Ana
For as long as you're here we're not
You make the sound of laughter
and sharpened nails seem softer
And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you

Imagine pageant
In my head the flesh seems thicker
Sandpaper tears corrode the filth

And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you

And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones
And Ana wrecks your life
Like an Anorexia life

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
Open fire on the needs designed
Open fire on my knees desires
On my knees for you

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RADIOHEAD
"Creep"

When you were here before
Couldnt look you in the eye
Youre just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
Youre so fuckin special

But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.

I dont care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When Im not around
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special

But Im a creep, Im a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.

Shes running out again,
Shes running out
Shes run run run running out...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
Youre so fuckin special
I wish I was special...

But Im a creep, Im a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I dont belong here.
I dont belong here.

------------------------------------

JOYDROP
"Beautiful"

If I was beautiful like you
All the things I would do
Those not so blessed would be crying out murder
And I’d just laugh and get away with it too
Like you do

If I was beautiful like you
I would never be at fault
I’d walk in the rain between the rain drops
Bringing traffic to a halt

But that would never be
That would never ever be
Cause I’m not beautiful like you
I’m beautiful like me, beautiful like me

If I was beautiful like you
I’d be quick to assume
they’d do anything to please me, why not
To see their reaction when you walk into the room

But that would never be
That would never ever be
Cause I’m not beautiful like you
I’m beautiful like me, beautiful like me
Beautiful, beautiful like me
Like me, Like me...

If I was beautiful like you
I’d have so many friends
All fighting for my time to be next in line
So if I hurt one, I wouldn’t have to make amends

That would never be
That would never ever be
Cause I’m not beautiful like you
I’m not beautiful like you
I’m not beautiful like you
I’m beautiful like me
Beautiful like me, beautiful like me
I’m beautiful like me, I’m beautiful like me.

Thinspiration

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no title...
četvrtak, 31.01.2008. u 21:21

ok, izdrazala i danas na vodi deadgreedycerek
tj., recimo... prije 15-ak min. sam pojela neku jako malu jabuku jer mi je vec bilo malo previse vode i svega, vrtilo mi se i sve, dugo nisam gladovala bas ovak pa sam izgubila kondiciju za to eek
ali dakako, nije mi bilo dobro jer sam pojela to na jako puno vode pa mi je bilo jos gore... ispovracala sam jabucicu, tak da u stvari danas nije bilo kalorija... ak je nes od jabuke i ostalo, to je max. 10-ak kCal... oko toga se bome necu zamarat cerek
i dalje je sve super... ako izuzmemo to da mi na najtisem satu (dakle, biologija kod žene-zmaja) zeludac pocne ispustat cudne zvukove i signalizirat svima da je jaaaako gladan lud
dakle, vodica i dalje funkcionira... pokusat cu i sutra bit na vodi, ak zagusti cu si napravit sokic od jabuke, narance il neceg...
pusaaaaa

Vodeni dan - USPJEŠAN!
srijeda, 30.01.2008. u 20:40

ajde, napokon... bilo je i vrijeme da izdrzim na vodi..
dan je protekao savrseno..popravila se situacija u skoli, dragi i ja smo prekinuli, vodeni je bio lagan i uspjesan... slatki mi je jedan decko iz skole... iako sam si obecala da se vise necu palit na ljude koje kasnije moram gledat svaki dan, predomislila sam se cerek
presladak je... i smješka mi se zubo
on mi je dodatni poticaj da kilice idu dole...
izgleda da je opet doslo ono savrseno razdoblje kad je sve super, sve preslatko, savrseno i najvaznijeee rozooo...
danasnji post je malo kraci, al to je zato kaj sam prezaokupljena savrsenim stvarima koje se dogadaju,...
pusa cure i nadam se da je i vama sve rozo i savrseno!

Back to black...
petak, 25.01.2008. u 18:49

Neznam o cemu zelim pisati... dosta mi je razmisljanja o hrani... dosta mi je razmisljanja o decku, skoli, problemima... al nema sanse da na 1 tren prestanem razmisljat o tome... brojim kalorije, placem zbog decka, brinem se oko skole... sve je negativno kroz moje oci koje su ne tako davno gledale na svijet kroz roze naocale...
od danas sam opet na onom Challengu koji sam nasla prosle godine na nekom ana-blogu, nisam sigurna kojem, uglavnom, sakupljam bodove kroz dan (ne)jedenjem i vjezbanjem, ucenjem i tak... zabavno mi je to... al opet ne jedem vise od 500 kalorija dnevno a vjezbam tolko da se zrusim skoro nakon nekog vremena. oslabit ce mi imunitet jako jer sam skroz izbacila ugljikohidrate i masti, jedem samo jogurte, voce i nes malo proteina (iz mlijeka i jaja).
decko se ponasa jako cudno, udaljava se od mene... mozda je samo faza, mozda zeli prekid... nemogu razabrat, precudan je da bi shvatila... kad ga pitam, on mijenja temu i kaze da je dobro, da je sve dobro, da ga nis ne muci... prekid i nebi bila tolko losa solucija, ovak ionak smo se vec navikli jedan na drugog, nije to vise to.
skola? uh... imam problem s izbjegavanjem hrane pod velikim odmorom :) svi jedu, svi mi guraju hranu u usta a ja izmisljam ko i inace. mislim da svi kuze da sam na nekoj dijeti il nes, al niko nema pojma.......
inace je sve ostalo dobro.
promjenila sam adresu bloga, nema nekog posebnog razloga...

leptirice? kak vama ide?
na kakvoj ste sad dijeti?
kako kilaza?
kak ste?

volim vas sve
Laura

Mjesečeva dijetaaaa....
ponedjeljak, 07.01.2008. u 20:41

Vidim da ce nas dosta gladovat sutra pa moram posvetit post tome smokin
Dakle, za sve vas koji niste sigurni kak izgleda dan kad je mijena, tj. što i kako... ukratko: na dan mijene, koji je sutra (pocinje u 12:37), ne jedete bas nista, pijete samo vodu i to punooo vode i eventualno zeleni čaj... i tako do srijede u 12:37, što je tocno 24 sata.
ne zvuci komplicirano... samo je upitno kolko volje imate, makar nebi trebao bit problem... ako mislite da vam je potrebno, rano ujutro mozete nes sitno poklopat jer mijena sluzbeno (pa tako i post) pocinje tek u 12:37.
ako unosite dovoljno vode, zeludac ce vam bit pun, osjecaja gladi nece bit... ne preporucam žvake jer nekima smanje efikasnost dijete, tj. nisu jednaki rezultati eek lud
ako niste naviknute na gladovanje, mozda bolje da ne vjezbate previse da vam nebude slabo, al šetnjica il lagane vjezbe sigurno nece skodit...
ako imate obicaj jest kad vam je dosadno, pisite post il komentirajte druge cure... prosetajte malo... spavajte... i nemojte razmisljat o hrani...

kaj se tice mojeg dana... protekao je jako cudno... al zadovoljna sam... tolko sam stalno bila u pokretu da nisam ni stigla bas jest... ujutro (dakle oko 1 XD, dugo spavam...) sam odgrizla komadic šnicla da bar nes pojedem (taj komadic je bio povrsine 2cm kvadratna, nisam se bas prezderalazujo), a navecer jedna naranca... kad zbrojimo kave i zelene čajeve koje sam popila, mislim da sam na eventualno 100kcal... puno sam hodala i vjezbala, sad cu jos malo vjezbat pa u krevet... jako sam zadovoljna... smokin
jedva cekam da se pocnu vidjet rezultati truda cerekdeadgreedy

pusa cure i sretno svima koje idu sutra na mjesecevu... cujemo se da vidimo kak napreduje zubo

eh da, jos nesto....
kalendar za 2008. za mjeseceve mijene... vodeni dan (dakle dijeta) provodi se kad je mlađak ili uštap...
Mjeseceve mijene 2008.

uuhhh... PMS...
nedjelja, 06.01.2008. u 16:32

jedem otkad sam se probudila... tj. otkad sam se jucer probudila nono
al tak to zgleda kod mene... mogu izdrzat po 2-3 tjedna na mrkvicama, narancama i krastavcima, al u ta 2 dana PMSa sve ode u k.... ... jedem čokoladu, kakao, jogurt, KRUH, salame... sve ono sto uspjesno izbjegavam inace... i nije da sam gladna nego jednostavno moram.. nisam ni svjesna toga kolko sam pojela dok ne napravim popis hrane koju sam unjela... jucer sam preko 900kcal... i danas ce bit barem tolko... al sutra vec mog PMSa nece bit, necu jest uopce... mozda narancu...
8.1. je mjeseceva mijena, pa me zanima ko ce od vas ne-jest jer znam da smo se prije (dakle, prosle godine, neke druge leptirice za koje trenutno neznam ni gdje su ni nis jer su jednostavno nestale s blogova) dogovarale za mjesecevu pa s podrskom uspjele u svemu tome sretan
dakle, ko ce samnom? smokin

pusa leptirke :)

Another day...
petak, 04.01.2008. u 20:00

Hej ljepotice!
nadam se da ste dobro i da se drzite!
ja sam danas bila savrseno raspolozena, anti-prehrambeno rofl
pojela sam za ručak mrkvu, a za večeru naranču... to je ok valjda...

Gledala sam malo ženskice po gradu.... 90% ima kile viška, 30% njih je predebelo, a svi ostali su na najboljem putu da to postanu... a najgore od svega je sto skoro nitko nista ne poduzima... neki pokusaju pa odustanu... nemaju motivaciju.... neznam za njih, al meni je dovoljna motivacija to da cu moc obuc sve sto pozelim, da cu mozda napokon bit zadovoljna odrazom u ogledalu i da cu (osim sebi) ljepsa biti i drugima...
Onda sam pokusala u novinama nac neki Thinspiration da si poljepim po zidovima pa sam skuzila da nema slika jako mrsavih zena... to je sad zabranjeno... sto nije dobro! sto su zene na TVu i novinama deblje to ce bit vise stvarnih zena koje su debele....
Onda hrana.... bila sam s mamom u ducanu i gledala ljudima u kolica i košarice... isuse boze... artikli u vecini kolica i košarica su čips, čokolada, bijeli kruh, punomasno mlijeko, salame, hrenovke, keksi, kolačići... i onda se ljudi (ponovno) čude kak je vecina populacije pretila...
Al dobro... meni su jaaaako poremeceni standardi kad se radi o hrani, debljini i zdravlju... svi ljudi mi djeluju deblje nego sto jesu, sva hrana mi se cini kaloricnija i opasnija nego sto je, a o zdravlju vise i ne razmisljam....

E, da... preporucam svima pjesmu od Superchick - Courage
imate lyrics u boxu.. uglavnom, radi se o anoreksicnoj curi, jako je dobra...

Sretno svima i citamo se
pusa
i Thinspiration...

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Sretna Nova!
utorak, 01.01.2008. u 17:38

Za pocetak, svima sretna Nova godina... zelim da vam se ostvare sve zelje i svi ciljevi, zelim da svi rijesite svoje kilice i probleme koje vam one donose...

A sad malo o proslavi.... zajebala sam.... u 2 sata je propalo sve sto sam 2 tjedna gradila... imali su cast vidjet malu pijanu anoreksicarku u veliiikom trenutku slabosti... prezderala sam se... i onda sam mrtva pijana sjedila na podu, gledala u hranu u rukama i govorila samoj sebi: gluuupa debela curo! zasto si to napravila..., i tome slicne recenice... par puta mi je izletilo i: kučko anoreksična, sve ti je propalo... naravno, svi su skuzili... nikome nije bilo jasno zasto se tolko bediram oko toga, al sam sigurna da vi znate kakav je osjecaj nakon sto se prezderes i zelis jos jest a znas da nesmijes...
Kad bolje razmislim, taj tulum uopce nije bio dobar... svi su bili mrtvi pijani, mislim da sam prevarila decka, al cak ni u to nisam sigurna jer sam bila prepijana da bi se sjecala... sad sam se tek probudila, sve me boli, neznam uopce kaj je sve nocas bilo, znam samo da se pol toga uopce nije trebalo dogodit....
Pušila sam nakon 3 mjeseca kaj ne pušim, pila sam ko manijak, skakala sam ko luđak i bila ljuta na sebe veliku vecinu vremena...

Od danas postim... samo voda i eventualno neka kavica jer sam ovisnik...moram si procistit organizam jer sam stvarno pretjerala.... a apetita nemam uopce tak da barem to nebude problem....

Sad kad sam se ja pojadala za svoju Novu, leptirice, kak je vaša prošla?
di ste bile?
kak je bilo?
jel bilo barenja i slicnog? naughty
jeste se jako naroljale? party eek

idem dalje spavat... mislim da cu se jos tjedan dana od ovog svega oporavljat...
sve vas jako volim, jedva cekam da se cujemo...
velika pusa
Laura Prežderatorica namcor

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