Walking with Satie

petak, 04.08.2006.

Sour times

Kad mi je bilo 16 slušala sam Massive Attack i Portishead.
Crtala crveno i bila na rubu suicida.
Zapalila prvi, naknadno se opila.
Kad mi je bilo 16 nisam znala da ću izgubiti nevinost sa 17
u ljetnoj noći, na rubu horizonta hvatajući zvijezde.

Kad sam imala 16 otkrila sam latinoameričku književnost
i prvi put spavala s Marquezom, Pessoaom, Nerudom,
Cortazarom i Japancem Mishimom.

Kad sam imala 16 bila sam opsjednuta iluzijom vremena,
sanjala o altruzimu u svijetu i borila se sa sobom,
bila nadobudna, puna ideala i u svađi s Nietcheom.

Sad kad imam dekadu više znam koliko mi je pomogla
ta šesnaestogodišnjakinja da budem ono što jesam...

... sa suncem u svojim rukama, uperenim u Istok.



Moje 16-godišnje "ja" je napisalo:


Tko je jučer bio na cesti i gledao u vrijeme, tražio vrata,
otvarao prozore. Tko je jučer bio ispred moga bitka,
pustio vodu u moj vrt, pokupio lišće, iščupao korov.
Tko si ti i kako se zovu slova i pjesme
kuda kročiš? Kada se počinješ gubiti i nestajati,
kada prestaješ voljeti moje ruke, željeti moje misli?




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El que pasea por donde no estoy,
El que quedera en pie cuando yo muero.

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