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09.09.2007., nedjelja

TIŠINA... ... : : : Sumnja kao da me skinula Ogoljela me sve do kostiju Sad iza svakog osmijeha Slutim podsmijeh i prevaru Sve dok u meni živi Sumnja i nemir Budi tu i dokaži mi Da imam zaklon u tebi Kada me niski udarci Zabiju duboko u zemlju Sve dok u meni živi Sumnja i nemir Budi tu i pomozi mi Kada mi bliske osobe Pokažu tamno naličje I otkriju budalu naivnu ... Neznam odakle, niti kako da počnem. Teško mi je i nemogu pronači prave riječi kojima bi opisala kako se bijedno osječam. Sve se nakuplja u meni a sada kad sam polako počela pucati, nije dobro... Sva iskustva, dobra i loša, sva pitanja, sve sreće i boli dijelila sam sama sa sobom. Nitko me nije ni pokušao slušati. Počela sam toliko razmišljati... nabila sam si toliko glupih kompleksa da ponekad jednostavno stojim pred ogledalom i plačem jer nemogu podnjeti ovakvu sebe. Osječam se tako sama ali...jednostavno ne želim nikoga od njih u svojoj blizini. Bojim se da kad počnem nekomu vjerovati i kad sve što imam uložim za njega/nju da će samo nestati. Da će sve pasti u vodu a ja ću ostati sama plutati na površini. Oko te stvari već dugo vrtim pitanja....Prijatelji?????!!!???? Tko su oni, postoji li uopće pravi prijatelj? Toliko sam puta bila povrijeđena da sam i sam postala sve ono što sam mrzila. Jednostavno ljudi su sami protiv sebe pa zbog toga nesvijesno idu na druge i čine stvari kojih nisu ni svjesni. Vrijeđaju, diraju najbolnije točke i na kraju te ostavljaju na cijedilu. ... Sama sebi zvučim poput nekoga luđaka. Ponovno sam počela s tim svojim glupostima. Jedno vrijeme sam se smirila i sve je bilo stabilno. Nisam se uopće zamarala a sad opet. Nemogu si pomoći ali bude mi lakše kad barem ovdje napišem pokoju riječ. Mogla bih pisati u beskonačnost....trošiti riječi i s ovim zapravo nekako sama sebi objašnjavati besmislenost moga stanja. ... No...idem sada... Nemam ništa pametno reći za kraj...

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• VIVERE EST MILITRE
  "Život je borba"
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  Sexy šuze.....
  
  Bila je sama...
  Sama na svijetu...
  Plakala je stalno...
  Nije nalazila sreću...
  Smrt je bila u njenoj glavi...
  Smatrala je da je to rješenje...
  Uzela žilet...
  Prerezala žile...
  Krv je curila...
  Sjedila je u svojoj krvi...
  Plakala...
  Vrištala...
  Nije ništa postigla...
  Bol joj je razderala dušu...
  Nikad nije shvatila...
  Da život boli...
  I da nije jedina koju nitko ne voli....
  
  
  ~Krv u meni vrije, dok me gledas ti, tvoj osmijeh blag tako mi je drag, daj okom znak,
  hajdemo u mrak da ti priznam sve, nemoj reci ne, jer ja zelim te!! (haha) :)))
  
  
  
  
  
  Fuck all the rest
  we
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  the best!!!!
  
  
  

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  Brojac posjeta
  
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  Helloween - If I Could Fly Lyrics
  
  No fear, no pain
  Nobody left to blame
  I'll try alone
  Make destiny my own
  I learn to free my mind
  Myself I now must find
  Once more
  Once more
  If I could fly
  Like the king of the sky
  Could not tumble nor fall
  I would picture it all
  If I could fly
  See the world through my eyes
  Would not stumble nor fail
  To the heavens I sail
  If I could fly
  So here I am
  In solitude I stand
  I've got dreams inside
  I need to realize
  My faith has grown
  No fear of the unknown
  No more
  No more
  If I could fly
  Like the king of the sky
  Could not tumble nor fall
  I would picture it all
  If I could fly
  See the world through my eyes
  Would not stumble nor fail
  I could ravage my jail
  If I could fly
  If I could, if I could, fly
  If I could, if I could, fly
  If I could, if I could fly
  Like the king of the sky
  Could not tumble nor fall
  I would picture it all
  If I could fly
  See the world through my eyes
  Would not stumble nor fail
  To the heavens I sail
  If I could fly
  Like the king of the sky
  Could not tumble nor fall
  I would picture it all
  If I could fly
  See the world through my eyes
  Would not stumble nor fail
  I could ravage my jail
  If I Could Fly
  
  
  
  
  
  

• NE TAMO (GDJE SAM BIO NEKADA)
  
  Lutam tako starim krajem
  Mjesec šara mi po faci
  Oko mene strana lica, ubojice i pijanci
  Krvavo je ovo vrijeme, prokleti su ovo ljudi
  Samo želim da me nikad
  Niko više ne probudi
  Bacio sam zadnji pedalj, moje sreće, moga sna
  Sad ne zelim da se vratim
  Gdje sam bio nekada
  Nekad bilo mi je dobro, živio sam kao kralj
  Al nekada nije sadaa, sad ja više nisam taj
  
  Ne vračam se tamo, gdje sam bio nekada
  Ne vračam se, ne vračam se, gdje sam bio nekada
  
  
  
  
  
  ----The Unforgiven II
  
  Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
  Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
  The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
  If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you
  
  Lay beside me, under wicked sky
  The black of day, dark of night, we share this paralyze
  The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
  Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
  No, there's no sun shining through
  No, there's no sun shining...
  
  What I've felt, what I've known
  Turn the pages, turn the stone
  Behind the door, should I open it for you....
  
  What I've felt, what I've known
  Sick and tired, I stand alone
  Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
  Or are you unforgiven too?
  
  Lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
  She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
  She lay beside me, But she'll be there when I'm gone
  Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
  Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
  Dead sure she'll be there...
  
  What I've felt, what I've known
  Turn the pages, turn the stone
  Behind the door, should I open it for you....
  
  What I've felt, what I've known
  Sick and tired, I stand alone
  Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
  Or are you unforgiven too?
  
  Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
  The door is closed, so are you're eyes
  But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
  Yes now I see it
  
  What I've felt, what I've known
  Turn the pages, turn the stone
  Behind the door, should I open it for you....
  
  What I've felt, what I've known
  Sick and tired, I stand alone
  Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
  The one who waits for you....
  
  Oh what I've felt, what I've known
  Turn the pages, turn the stone
  Behind the door, should I open it for you.... (So I dub thee unforgiven....)
  
  Oh, what I've felt....
  Oh, what I've known....
  
  I take this key (never free...)
  And I bury it (never me...) in you
  Because you're unforgiven too....
  
  Never free....
  Never me....
  'Cause you're unforgiven too....
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  Until It Sleeps
  
  Where do I take this pain of mine.
  I run but it stays right by my side.
  
  So tear me open and pour me out
  There's things inside that scream and shout,
  And the pain still hates me
  So hold me until it sleeps.
  
  Just like a curse, just like a stray.
  You feed it once and now it stays,
  Now it stays.
  
  So tear me open but beware
  There's things inside without a care,
  And the dirt still stains me
  So wash me until I'm clean.
  
  It grips you so hold me
  It stains you so hold me
  It hates you so hold me
  It holds you so hold me
  Until it sleeps.
  
  So tell me why you've chosen me
  Don't want your grip
  Don't want your greed
  Don't want it
  
  Now tear me open make you gone
  No more can you hurt anyone,
  And the fear still shakes me
  So hold me, until it sleeps
  
  It grips you so hold me
  It stains you so hold me
  It hates you so hold me
  It holds you, holds you, holds you until it sleeps
  
  Don't want it want it want it want it want it no
  
  So tear me open but beware
  There's things inside without a care,
  And the dirt still stains me,
  So wash me till I'm clean.
  Now tear me open make you gone
  No longer will you hurt anyone,
  And the hate still shapes me,
  So hold me until it sleeps
  
  
  
  
  
  HAVE A PROBLEM
  MAKE A POINT
  TAKE IT EASY
  SMOKE A JOINT !!!
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  etooo tako
  
  One Last Goodbye
  
  How I needed you
  How I grieve now you're gone
  In my dreams I see you
  I awake so alone
  
  I know you didn't want to leave
  Your heart yearned to stay
  But the strength I always loved in you
  Finally gave way
  
  Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
  Somehow I knew you could never.. never stay
  And in the early morning light
  After a silent peaceful night
  You took my heart away
  And I grieve
  
  In my dreams I can see you
  I can tell you how I feel
  In my dreams I can hold you
  And it feels so real
  
  I still feel the pain
  I still feel your love
  I still feel the pain
  I still feel your love
  
  And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
  And somehow I knew you would leave me
  And in the early morning light
  After a Silent peaceful night
  You took my heart away
  I wished, I wished you could have stayed