Faithful friend
She watched all those lights in the distance,
she watched a little spot blinking, surrounded by darkness,
almost as if it followed her heartbeat.
Another city and behind her back she heard the one she loved taking a shower;
they had just made love/had sex - it was all perfect.
She wondered if he was just as confused, just as sad/mad, in the same denial as she was.
They didn't understand each other eventhough they had so much to say - probably nothing smart, nothing that would make any difference, nothing that would help them.
She felt a cool breeze on her feet, sitting on the balcony seemed comforting enough all by itself.
So many mixed emotions;
he was great
she was confused
he doesn't care
he's so loving
she's cold
he's lost
he'll never be hers
they're different
he's all she wants
she's...in love?
They sat by each other on a bench, he said nothing, didn't even show the need to speak - he turned out to be so much smarter than her. She had a lot to lose, right person at the wrong place, at the wrong time.
Why wasn't she stronger?
Why did she let the whole thing fall out of hand?
Why didn't she just move away from him instead of being happy like a little love-sick puppy everytime he payed attention - what was so special bout him anyway???
Why isn't he feeling guilty...why isn't he missing her...
How the fuck did he get inside her head?!
She heard someone listening to "Knockin on heavens door" - the irony, a smile appeared on her face, then it turned into an empty gaze. God damn you! And that night, and that day...and everything!
She knew she was crazy, crazy for missing him - what the fuck was she thinking - such a perfect couple, such a stupid story. He hugged her so tightly, she responded with her body and mind...dreamed a kiss...And the light at the distance stopped blinking...she stopped breathing, that's how bad it got...
The light appeared again..flashed twice, in the distance, like a faithful firend.
She looked into the sky, wished a hug and went back to bed, curling next to the one that loved her so...a tear fell down her face.
The light blinked twice.
p.s. ponekad mi se sto puta lakše izrazit na engleskom, nemojte se ljutit, to je jače od mene. ipak studiram engleski pa eto logična posljedica!
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