An alcoholic
Senka said it right, some twelve years ago.
She said she's afraid I'm gonna turn into an alcoholic.
Well... she also described one of the most beautiful love stories caught on film ever, the Secretary as a story about... guess what... "two compatible psychopathologies".
Fuck taht.
But, i want to be "normal". And normal people don't use drugs. I never did, except hash and some weed.
I'm focusing on alcohol. People understand alcoholics much better, they're much more understandable fools.
I want to be a well-understood fool.
Raymond Carver was.
Bukowski was.
So many other turned out to be.
Well understood.
Well, i'm nowhere near Carver or Bukowski.
But gimme some time, and see?
Maybe there some drunken potential in me.
Now when I'm Maria free.
Ya all can see how Free Of Maria am I.
Is that enough, I ax myself. Noway near.
But gimme time, I'll accrue some more misery.
Now that I'm married to Maria.
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