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Todo sobre mi madre, u pet (plus jedna) recenica

Jedna od korisnijih vjezbi kod moje cognitive-behavioral glavoderke bila je kad mi je u domaci zadatak dala da opisem vlastitu majku u pet recenica.

Pet recenica? Fuuu. Prije bih mogao napisati pet (losih) romana, nego to sve svesti na pet recenica, pomislio sam, no jedne sam se veceri lijepo napusio, uzeo biljeznicu i krenuo biljeziti umnazajuce asocijacije. Ostalo je na nekih cetiri stranice skrabotina.

Nekoliko dana potom krenuh ih cekicem i dlijetom oblikovati. Evo sto je ispalo (sorry, sa svojom glavoderkom komuniciram na engleskom a mrzi me prevoditi na hrvatski):

Todo sobre mi madre

My mother is overprotective, overwhelming, confused and has a number of substantive complexes pushed behind a front, with mixed results; she is insecure, often well-meaning and not generous or giving as such, instead she is self-less in accommodating others by negating herself.

This displaced position of self-neglect/self-negating creates frustration because the overkill of "care" she offers to others is often unsolicited and overwhelming and is consequently neither acknowledged, recognized nor returned - on the contrary: it leads to a certain emotional void or vacuum that fills with frustration, anger or rage, all of which is expressed just as inappropriately, inarticulately or incoherently - without tact or grace - whenever it happens. It creates a self-sustaining vicious circle of administering and receiving emotional abuse of different kind and intensity.

In her approach to others she lacks consistency, balance and discipline or seemingly any strong or lasting conviction, and is consequently "given" very little authority. However, she has had these traits (and probably still has them at work) when resuming her law studies and changing her career from a singer/entertainer to a lawyer/judge and it was an achievement she is understandably proud of, so much so that she asserts or tries to assert her authority by virtues of her being a lawyer/judge in all matters, appropriate or not, even in personal contacts with her friends or relatives.

She has no close and lifelong friends (friendships usually last 2-3 years), has unstable and volatile relationships with anyone, started numerous court cases because of spite or inability to otherwise communicate.