subota, 10.05.2008.

Mais je reve...

Mogla bih samo nabaciti stihove nove pjesme koju slušam u zadnje vrijeme. No, nema mi to puno smisla. Kao ni bilo što u zadnje vrijeme. Sve je čudno, i u ničemu se više ne snalazim. Situacije koje su se i prije događale me sad još i više izbacuju iz takta, a one koje me nisu uopće ni dirale me sad deprimiraju, i to traje čak po nekoliko dana. A sve same gluposti!
Mislim, nisu to meni gluposti, ali za objektivnog promatrača (što i ja uspijem postati, s vremena na vrijeme) su to sve sranja. Tinejđerska sranja, a nisam ni tinejđerica. Čak su i oni zreliji i mirniji u glavi od mene u ovoj fazi. Ne znam, možda je to neka faza pred živćani slom, ili pred uputnicu za psihijatriju, kako piše kolegica! :-) (POZZ)
Ne bi me začudilo. Najgorije je to kaj više nisam ni u stanju da to skrivam. Prije kad me nešto mučilo nije se moglo tako lako skužiti na meni. Sad mi se događa situacija da mi mama i tata dođu u posjetu do Zg-a, i vidim ih nakon 2 tjedna (što i nije puno ali kako sam se ovaj semestar skoro potpuno preselila ovdje, ne viđam ih baš), i umjesto da sam sretna ja ne mogu voditi ni normalan razgovor! A da i ne pričam kako me stari nakon 3 minute kak me vidio odmah pitao kaj sam tužna. Užas! Onda se samo izbediram još jače.
I na kraju svega mi uopće nije jasno zašto se to događa. Mogu reći djelomično zbog koga, ali zašto u takvom intenzitetu i tako često.... nije mi jasno!
Pozdravljam vas, na kraju, s pjesmicom!

The Dresden Dolls - Girl anachronism

you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and the cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that are breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think that youd believe me
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to
be
it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

i am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
cause they've seen it all before
they'll say just
let
her
crash
and
burn
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her

and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that you're sorry that you asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing you're immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off

and then you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...

i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
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