Pandora's Box(ers)
ponedjeljak, 30.10.2006.
La-De-Dah...
 I, kao sto i sam naslov kaze... (...) Svasta. Vrijeme je proslo, izdogadjalo se svasta i nista... I evo me opet tu. Nekako se i dalo za ocekivati. Nisam bas neka consistent persona, i fakat me uhvati tlaka kad se ubacim u kolotecinu, kad stvari postanu neizbjezna navika... Onda svjesno stanem. Odustanem. No, radoznalost je ubila macku, zar ne??? De da samo zavirim na blog... Joj, ma neznam bih li nesto i napisala... Pa hocu, pa necu... Pa opet odustanem. No, eto me. Ta-Ra! No, nije sad od toga stvarati temu... Gdje sam? Jos uvijek ista; zaposlena, udata, bez djece (i sa sve manjom namjerom da ih ikada imam), samo nekih 15 pounds lighter.... He he he, napokon se oduprijeh amerikanizaciji svoje tjelesine, i vratih se na svoje Croatian proporcije. Sretna ko malo dijete. Valjda se fizicki moras navici na drugu klimu? Nemam pojma. A cak se i nisam posebno trudila. Fora. Tako se to obicno i desi, kad odustanes od necega - eto ti ga na! Ma, blah... Ali desilo se... Uslijed promocije na poslu, te sluzbenog putovanja u neke druge dimenzije... Moj svemir se totalno izokrenuo. Dobro, ne bas TOTALNO. Tjedan dana koji je trebao proteci u vrlo sluzbenim, edukativnim domenama - krenuo je skroz drugim tijekom. Kao da sam odjednom nasla sebe back u srednjoj skoli; boozing na sve strane (e, a fakat sam se ubila na Jager Bombs, i Irish Car Bombs - damn! DAMN!!!), dva sata spavanja nocu... i osoba C. Totalno funny story; tip je mrak. Mrakchina. I naravno, zenska tastina zaigrala kartu. Kontam, ajde, 30-tak godina (if so many); de da vidimo u koliko dana mogu upecati krokodila... Fuc*! Prvi dan odmah sam zadobila paznju. Posebnu dozu. Spika tu, spika tamo... Ajde, cool. Drugi dan, tek tako, pitam "so, how old are you". Kaze 42. Ja se odvalila! Izvadi tip osobnu, i kaze "can you believe that I looked like this only a year ago" - man, man, MAN!!!! FUCK. Stari starac. Debeljuskast, procelav. 40 godina fakat. Faca si krenuo u gym, nabildao se, izbrijana zurka... Izgleda kao da je sin tipa sa slike. Plus, sam ima 2 djece; 20 i 22 godine, cak je i djed. I, naravno - razveden. Odvala. No, eto... Stvari krenule kako su krenule, ja sam jos uvijek Crocodile Hunter. Sad i radoznalija. I desilo se da sam krokodila upecala i brze no sto sam mislila. I sad je tu. Vrlo prisutan. Ono, relativno napet... Naravno, nista se konkretno nije desilo. Samo rijeci. I paznja. T je uvijek jedina i najvaznija osoba u mom zivotu (osim Bi). Upoznat sa cijelom situacijom. Ne pretjerano odusevljen paznjom koju sam dobila, no i sam ima Ego. Pa konta. However, uslijed cijele te situacije s krokodilom - sve se promijenilo nabolje. Izmedju mene i T. Sve je ponovno postalo kao na pocetku; nerazdvojni, zaljubljeni... sex tri puta dnevno... hah! Jeb'o Logiku! Bi mi je standardno rekla da sam luda. Standardno. No s obzirom na to da sam jos uvijek "good girl" i ona je cool s razvojem dogadjaja. Pocelele smo tako da sam ja bila "losa" sestra. No igrom slucaja, Bi je uvijek sve lose napravila prva. Obojala kosu u neku ludu boju. Tetovirala se. A ja sam uvijek kao vjerni psic bila odmah korak iza nje. No, Bi pametno igra svoje karte. Tiho. Ja sam puno ociglednija. Kao Godzilla. Bi sutra ima interview za vizu. I ako ju dobije tu je cijeli 12 mjesec. To bi bilo totalno mocno, zelim da upozna krokodila! Mislim da je skroz njen tip tipa. Nekih 15-stak godina stariji, but hey - kraj krokodila sam skuzila da si as old as you feel... No, brine me ta viza... |
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Speed of Pain
 They slit our throats Like we were flowers And our milk has been devoured When you want it It goes away too fast Times u hate it It always seems to last But just remember When you think you're free The crack inside your Fucking heart is me I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day I wish I could sleep But I can't lay on my back Because ther's a knife For everyday that I've known you When you want it It goes away yoo fast Times u hate it It always seems to last But just remember when you think you're free The crack inside your fucking heart is me I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day Lie to me, cry to me, give to me I would Lie with me, die with me, give to me I would Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair I hope at least we die holding hands for always
'Say Just Words' by: Paradise Lost
 You get high, with your destructive instinct You get high, with your corrosive instinct Where can I go, to escape your foul mind tricks You're trying it more, but you will never break me 'Cause you presume the winner is you, but that's not true, so say just words to me Unreal what your hate's providing, say just words to me Your talk is always contradiction, say just words to me You won't feel the warmth of friends around you, say just words to me Is it true that there is worth inside so say just words to me Your designs, all the worse from power craving Your desires, only where there's fire burning I'll show you the way, a pleasure that's for the taking You're trying it more, but you won't get satisfaction 'Cause you presume the winner is you, but that's not true, so say just words to me Unreal what your hate's providing, say just words to me Your talk is always contradiction, say just words to me You won't feel the warmth of friends around you, say just words to me Is it true that there is worth inside so say just words to me...... 
Egoism is the Very Essence of a Noble Soul *** *** Friedrich Nietzsche 
Everything becomes a little different as soon as it is spoken out loud. *** *** Hermann Hesse 
Morality is simply the attitude we adopt towards people whom we personally dislike. *** Oscar Wilde 
It is hard enough to remember my opinions, without also remembering my reasons for them! **** ** Friedrich Nietzsche 
I was thrown out of college for cheating on the metaphysics exam; I looked into the soul of the boy sitting next to me. ** Woody Allen 
I don't know why we are here, but I'm pretty sure that it is not in order to enjoy ourselves.*** *** *** - Ludwig Wittgenstein 
Whenever people agree with me I always feel I must be wrong. *** *** *** Oscar Wilde 
I don't want to achieve immortality through my work. I want to achieve it through not dying. *** *** Woody Allen 
I never know what I think about something until I read what I've written on it.*** *** William Faulkner 
You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, single power, a single salvation... and that is called loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else. *** *** Hermann Hesse 
I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their intellects. A man cannot be too careful in the choice of his enemies. *** *** Oscar Wilde 
In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends. *** *** *** - Martin Luther King Jr |
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