Feeling: 
stressed
Prvo i prvo, recite: Hvala draga Reneesme što moram čitati ovaj preglupi blog više nego što je potrebno (
nabavit ću vam njen e-mail pa pišite svoje izraze negodovanja). Za sada nemam ništa za napisati osobno, jer se uglavnom ništa ne događa u mom blesavom životu, kao i obično. Zapravo, sada sam shvatila. Mi svoj zanimljiv dio života prepričavamo tako da svi imamo dojam da je trajalo ne pet minuta nego tri dana.
And it sucks, totally. Ja sama trebam prestati to raditi.
Dalje, jednostavno
MORAM prokomentirati zadnji post
Mermaid syren. Nemoj misliti da ti kradem post ili štogod, samo želim malo duže prodiskutirati jer kad sam pročitala tvoj dobila sam snažni poriv da napišem cijelih deset prokletih stranica proklete doktorske dezertacije.
Zašto nama curama trebaju (porno) slike da bi se osjećale ženstvenima i privlačnima, možda odraslima? Čemu droga, alkohol i cigarete već od pa....13 godina? Zašto "veze, vezice" u onovnoj školi koje traju jedno deset minuta? Čemu sve to? Ljudski odnosno ženski um je kompliciran nama samima a pogotovo drugima. Tolika pitanja se mogu namirisati u zraku, a nitko se ne trudi dati objašnjenje. Ni profesori ni psiholozi, pusti učeni ljudi, svi se prave da toga nema. Roditelji imaju prevažne poslove da bi odvojili 5 minuta razgovora sa djecom i onda se svi mi pitamo kako je sve ovo otišlo kvragu. Čudim se i ja sama nekim novim klincima, nekom novom generacijom pune potrebe za uništavanjem i buntom. Da sada ne bi dobili esej na jedno sto strana, skratit ću cijelu priču.
(PISALA SAM BEZVEZE U 1. LICU MNOŽINE; NITKO VAS NE PROZIVA)
Ubile bi za ljepotu. Patile bi za ljepotu. Ubile bi za novac. Razorile bi za novac. Prodale bi dušu za novac. Prodale bi svu svoju intimu za novac.
Zašto? Zašto želimo dokazati nešto što smo već odavno dokazale? Da smo moćne, da imamo sve konce u rukama.
Jel se moramo ponašati kao kurve u bordelima? Jel moramo MI drpati muške, ljubakati svakoga, (
započinjati tour the drolja) i onda se poslje čuditi statusu glavne kurvetine. Zašto se moramo hvaliti koliko smo muških bile? Je li to stvar kojom se trebamo hvaliti? Pravimo se snažne a kad smo stjerane u kut zbog toga, onda cmoljimo kao mala djeca.
Zašto djeca od 11, 12 godina rade isto što i mi? Da bi bile bolje i starije? Haha, zadivljena sam. Sada izgledaju, kao, oh, oh, pa i dalje 11, 12 godina! Hoho! Dođe mi da im nekada u putu dobacim:
so,came out of the closet? Odmah znam odgovor: NO.
Zašto imamo tu jadnu naviku da slinimo za popularnima? Jel trebamo biti uz zvijezde i zvjezdice kad već mi to ne možemo biti?
Mi smo žene. Možemo braniti, dovoljno smo snažne, lijepe i pametne. Ne ovisimo o drugima. I znamo se izboriti za sebe. Voljene smo i znamo voljeti. Osjećamo.
Predosjećamo i vidimo neke stvari koje muški uopće ne primjećuju.
Komadić pljunute šminke nam ne bi trebao biti sredstvo kojim postajemo bolje i superiornije.
Ja sam kao primjer sebi uzela Morgan Le Fay. Nadam se da većina zna o kome govorim, a ako ne, svatko neka misli općenito.
Možemo manipulirati muškarcima. To što smo "osjećajnije" daje nam veliku prednost da ih koristimo u različitim svrhama. Snalažljive smo. Imamo talente. Ne bojimo se.
Ali nam svejedno fali toliko samopouzdanja. Samopozudanje nas tjera da se uvlačimo u konfekcijske brojeve 2 i 4 (američke oznake), da oblačimo štikle od deset centi, da stavljamo tonu šminke jer mislimo da nismo nikom privlačne, da se junačimo sa drogom i alkoholom, da se poistovjećujemo sa muškarcima, da se mijenjamo.
A zašto? Zbog koga? Zbog čega?
Mi smo mi. I svi smo na neki način savršeni. Mi smo žene.

Drugi dio posta posvećujem Reneesme. Ne posvećujem posvećujem, samo posvećujem. Dakle, odem ja malo do Reneesme, želeći joj ostaviti sneak peak za cigarettes & chocolate milk , jer je jedina koja ga redovito čita i kaže da je voli. I ona lijepo zatvori blog sa izgovorom ja bih se tebi morala odužiti zato što si jedina koja još uvijek čita moja sranja...i zato sam ti neizmjerno zahvalna.Broj jedan, draga moja Reneesme, ja ne čitam sranja. Kad ja vidim sranja, zaobilazim ih u širokom luku (mislim na blogove, oke?), bježim od njih k'o vrag od tamjana. Jedna sitnica, mala mala: mogla si barem ostaviti link za komentiranje da mogu normalno odgovarati na tvoje komentare (i komentirati i objašnjavati priču, ako se toga isto nisi sjetila) jer ja imam potrebu. Broj dva, ti čitaš moja oba bloga od samog početka, i podupirala si me kad sam imala aktivni graphics blog sa dizajnovima. Broj tri, ne moraš brisati ili zatvoriti blog, ostavi ga samo neaktivnog (da ti nije palo napamet brisati blog!!!). Broj četiri, ovo sam prenespretno formurirala. Ono što pokušavam reći jest, ako je potrebno, da ću prestati pisati priču i zabraniti komentiranje na blogu a maloj veseloj četici ljudi koja je čita objasniti razlog.
I da, meni ono P.S. hvala Freckles! ne znaći, barem dok ne ispuniš ono što te tražim. Nisam puno ljudi molila na koljenima jer mi je to stvarno teško ide. Moljakanje i ponižavanje. I nisam nikoga molila na koljenima da ne zatvore blog. Što je kad malo razmisliš bizarno, jel da?
Zašto ljudi brišu blogove? Mislite da je plemenito osloboditi nekome adresu? Pa evo mali prijedlog: jebeš takvu plemenitost. Idućeg koji izbriše blog, šupirat ću nogom u dupe, a prije nego to napravim...hm, smislit ću nešto. Okrutno. Javim vam kad smislim.
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me
The Italian job mood theme made by
me
Merlin mood theme made by
wikked-angel-78
{ Screencaps & pictures }
www.screencap-paradise.com/ // lost-media.com/ // fanpop.com
imdb.com // abc.go.com/primetime/lost // www.evangeline-lilly.net/ // www.sawyerandkate.com/ // kate-sawyer.net
www.mrhedlund.com/ // evangelinefan.com/gallery/ // www.evangelinelilly.co.uk/ // www.evangelinelillyweb.com/ // community.livejournal.com/merlin_tv // www.arthurandmorgana.org/ // bradley-james.org // bradley-james.com //
colin-morgan.com // merlin.fan-sites.org // katie-mcgrath.com // lhwo.hostrator.com/merlin // community.livejournal.com/bradleykatie // letsey-x.livejournal.com // bing.com // sabino.tumblr.com // ex-posed.com // tweexcore.tumblr.com // elli.livejournal.com // weheartit.com
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{ Video }
www.cucirca.cm // www. youtube.com // video.google.com // community.livejournal.com/merlin_tv // www.arthurandmorgana.org/media // katie-mcgrath.com/Media_Videos // merlin-streaming.blogspot.com // mytvsource.blogspot.com // missedashow.net // megavideo.com // fanpop.com
{ Memories }
Lips of an Angel (currently fav.) //
The fifth rose // Write Your Own Song // Mixed Signals // cigarettes & chocolate milk // florescentia.livejournal.com // julieinthesky.livejournal.com // missbaggins.livejournal.com // xtine005.livejournal.com
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megaupload.com //
www.easy-share.com
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Katie McGrath icons
Freckles. from ashes we were born.
Beneath the eyes of this little girl, lies the soul of an individual who is very much herself, yet who pretends to be other in order to function in this world. She is intrigued by people, what they think, and what they do, and very much wants to show herself to the right person. She has been rebuffed frequently, so, unless she trusts you, you will only see what she chooses to show.
Freckles. 16 years. 6 December. Split. Rainy day readings. Deep-sea diving. Artist. Sensible. In love. Ironic. Romantic. Absentminded. Dreamer. Shy. Peaceful. Faithful. loves: Photoshop. her friends. books. Tv-Shows. Fashion. Movies. Music. Foods. Coffee. Songs. Choccolate. Snow. Travelling. Shopping. Chupachups. Sun. Mountain. Snow.
London. New York. Katie.

fandoms. looking through distorted eyes.
literature. Shakespeare. Romeo and Juliet. Matko Marušić. Škola Plivanje. Lord of the Rings. The Lovely Bones. Catcher in the Rye. John Ronald Reul Tolkien. The Vampire Diaries. My sister's keeper. Oscar Wilde. The Picture of Dorian Gray.
actors.
Garrett Hedlund. Bradley James. Colin Morgan. Ian Somerhalder. Josh Holloway. Mark Wahlberg. Katie McGrath. Evangeline Lilly. Cate Blanchett. Katherine Heigl. Olivia Wilde. Jennifer Morrison.
movies. The Lovely Bones. The Happening. Pirates of the Carribean. The Lord of the Rings. Tristan + Isolde. Four brothers. The Italian Job. P.S. I love you. Elizabeth: The golden age. Bride wars. He's just not that into you. Music and lyrics. The devil wears Prada. The Proposal. Tron Legacy. Atonement.
books & tvshow. Merlin. Lost. Dr House. Greek. The Vampire Diaries. The Tudors. Friday Night Lights.
Katie & Bradley. Colin & Katie. Arthur & Morgana. Merlin & Morgana. Kate & Sawyer. Charlie & Claire. Juliet & Ben. Dan & Charlotte. House & Cuddy.
Freckles. Aaron Littleton. Claire Littleton. Boone Carlyle. James Ford. Greg House. Damon Salvatore. Stefan Salvatore. Arthur Pendragon. Morgana Le Fay. Merlin.
music. Maroon 5. Niravana. Hinder. Nelly Furtado. Joe Purdy.
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credits. what lies beneath.
Arthur: We can't leave him here! We have to lift him unto the bed!
Merlin: Why? He's asleep, he's not gonna know!
Arthur: MERLIN!
Merlin: Well...I'll get him a pillow!
Arthur: He is THE KING!
Merlin: ALL RIGHT! Two pillows!
Arthur: We must keep my father hidden.
Merlin: Why don't we disguise him?
Arthur: That might just work.
Merlin: We can dress him as a woman!
Arthur: ...That, on the other hand.
Merlin: We could dress him as a servant.
Arthur: That's better.
Hurley: Dude that beer has been sitting there since before Rocky III, maybe even II. It's probably poison by now.
Sawyer: Skeletor seems to like it. Bottoms up!
[clinks can on corpses head]
Hurley: That's not cool dude. That guy had a mom, a family, friends, oh and a name. It's not Skeletor, it's Roger Workman.
Sawyer: It's Work Man ya blockhead! That's his job! He was a Dharma janitor.

John Bridger: I feel so optimistic. How do you feel?
Charlie Croker: [shrugging] I'm fine.
John Bridger: Fine? You know what "fine" stands for, don't you?
Charlie Croker: Yeah, unfortunately.
John Bridger: Freaked out...
Charlie Croker: Insecure...
John Bridger: Neurotic...
Charlie Croker: And Emotional.
John Bridger: You see those columns behind you?
Charlie Croker: [looks behind him and sees the pillars] What about them?
John Bridger: That's where they used to string up thieves who felt fine.
Bobby: Look, look at your little brother.
Jack: Oh I'm sorry, is this the master suite?
[Angel, Bobby, and Jerimiah laugh]
Jack: Am I making the property value go down?
Angel: This is the man from the painting.
Katie: This is obviously my true love, Morgana's true love, because his picture is in my chambers. And I would like to point out that I'm really jealous that he gets the crown and I don't.
Man: It's tiara.
Katie (sarcastic): I'm sorry, it's tiara.
Katie: Everyone said: Katie, it's fine rehearsing in the caves, they've got loads of light and it's all grand. And then all the lights go out.
Colin's laughing at her.
Katie: So, we're doing a read through with the moblie phone lights.
Colin:Yeah it was good fun weren't it?
Katie: Yeah, the joys of TV.
Man: Guy called Paul plugged in a water cooler and shorted all the electricity they had.
Katie: Oh, Jesus Christ. That was you.
Man: No, no, it was Paul actually.
Colin laughs.
Katie: I actually think I'm gonna cry
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