Where do you live? asks the nurse at the emergency admissions. I look at her haggardly. My wife names the road . “I don’t know if you belong to us... ” My head spins. As it happens, my street crosses the limits of their jurisdiction. The dragon is not idle in calling to check. She wants to send us away, it is clear. I am sweating still more, I am shaking still more, as if I am paralyzed, I can’t speak. It goes without saying, I can’t think. Only a spinning feeling and all negative. Never in my life was I so afraid, now I shiver here for no reason, in fact because of crazy little bureaucracy. The stupid feeling of impotence boils in my rage, and never in my life was I so angry. Like some spiral, those rages wind each other up somewhere in the depth of my gut and I feel I will break down, blackness covers my eyes, voices like the sound of dragons. If I fall it is the end, they will lock me in a straitjacket, chemical or linen, all the same, and I will not see the sun for months… The sun! The sun is intensely important. The sun is crucial. Just cooperate, just cooperate… How, the devil, how? A glance at the sun shining as if it trickles two drops of comforting light into the chaos of my breast and I wonder whether I could pull myself together a little, enough to sell it to them. -Well, this time we will accept you, but it is only this once. Now already from a great distance I hear the voice of the dragonlike woman. -Sit a little, she continued, the doctor will come to you.
Somehow I got out into the open, and while my beloved arranged the paperwork I sat at some table stranded in front of the entrance. Something familiar and benign touched my face.
The sun!
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Finally I understand why Kozaric landed the sun
Where do you live? asks the nurse at the emergency admissions.
I look at her haggardly.
My wife names the road .
“I don’t know if you belong to us... ” My head spins. As it happens, my street crosses the limits of their jurisdiction. The dragon is not idle in calling to check. She wants to send us away, it is clear. I am sweating still more, I am shaking still more, as if I am paralyzed, I can’t speak. It goes without saying, I can’t think. Only a spinning feeling and all negative. Never in my life was I so afraid, now I shiver here for no reason, in fact because of crazy little bureaucracy. The stupid feeling of impotence boils in my rage, and never in my life was I so angry. Like some spiral, those rages wind each other up somewhere in the depth of my gut and I feel I will break down, blackness covers my eyes, voices like the sound of dragons. If I fall it is the end, they will lock me in a straitjacket, chemical or linen, all the same, and I will not see the sun for months…
The sun! The sun is intensely important. The sun is crucial.
Just cooperate, just cooperate…
How, the devil, how?
A glance at the sun shining as if it trickles two drops of comforting light into the chaos of my breast and I wonder whether I could pull myself together a little, enough to sell it to them.
-Well, this time we will accept you, but it is only this once. Now already from a great distance I hear the voice of the dragonlike woman.
-Sit a little, she continued, the doctor will come to you.
Somehow I got out into the open, and while my beloved arranged the paperwork I sat at some table stranded in front of the entrance. Something familiar and benign touched my face.
The sun!
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