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Down this road
Another day, another dollar, another bill collecting caller.
Disillusioned, let down, all my heroes are junkies now.
I've been down this road, in the end it's all the same,
another day I'm getting older, another day nothing has changed.
I've been down this road, I'm wrong when I know I'm right,
hard pressed to make it better, but I got no will to fight.
26 and I'm flat broke, I've been down so long I have given up hope.
Shattered nerves anxiety, so much more than I wanted to be.
I often wonder what went wrong,
but I can't remember, it's been too long.
Think out loud things I want to change,
but I know I never will I'm gonna stay this way.
I've been down this road, in the end it's all the same,
another day I'm getting older, another day nothing has changed.
I've been down this road,
I'm wrong when I know I'm right,
hard pressed to make it better, but I got no will to...
Is this my great reward, servitude and solitude,
a lifetime of chances I have blown
I woulda coulda shoulda been so much more than I really am,
and it's nobody else's fault but my own.
Another day, another dollar, another bill collecting caller.
Disillusioned, let down, cause I'm nothing more than a fuck up now.
I've been down this road, in the end it's all the same,
another day I'm getting older, another day nothing has changed.
I've been down this road, I'm wrong when I know I'm right,
hard pressed to make it better, but I got no will to fight.

Zero down

STUMBLE AND FALL
Making a bet and I feel that I should have known better
Turning the pages so slow as I ever could
Shot shot I need a shot of persuasion right now
Let down the offer at once
'cause I'm weak and afraid to be wrong

But in time, well I need another piece of your mind
In time, and the feeling is strong and I'm riding it high
In time, well I need another piece of your mind
In time, and the feeling is strong
and I'm riding it high for you

Shaking my head so gently afraid to be simple
Waiting for you reaction, for your response
Time out, I don't need any suspension at all
Sit still, it's all for the best
'cause you stumble and fall for your love

Faking a laugh the sound is loud and annoying
Taking it back is something that can't be done
Let go, the spirits is no in the ceiling tonight
Step down and lick all my wounds
is the only thing left for me now

NO FUN AT ALL


Jack of all Trades
Give me a reason not to lash out,
because I don't see much reason now
I want to banish frauds, slay unruly sods.
Since false idol gods have nothing figured out
Nothing at all
So you've got a tale to tell,
Well how about something real?
feel free and stifle someone.
Go on and belittle someone as well.
Or but fucker yeah you'll get yours
So fill up your pockets, and watch them swell.
You could be no one, an inconsiderate bastard son.
Kiss your smile goodbye.
Kiss it all goodbye.

Hot Water Music


Original Me

Mirror, mirror,
Please believe,
Need to find myself,
All my life spent wondering,
I've been trying to hide this place of mind,

Confusion,
Illusion,
Misinterpretation,
Of the original me.

I need a sign a simple chime,
When grown kids have crossed my mind,
Followed to in the craziness,
A welcome man who rode behind,

Confusion,
Illusion,
Misinterpretation,
Of the original me.

What big thoughts you had,
I can see them in your eyes,
When you pretend to laugh,
Reflection I see,
Reminds me, of somebody like me

Tender day,
Spent to laugh,
Don't say all but the impact,
Mental prostitution,
In this universal, institution,

Confusion,
Illusion,
Misinterpretation,
Of the original me

Confession,
Aggression,
My time to end this session,
One bang and I'm free.

What big thoughts you had,
I can see them in your eyes,
When you pretend to laugh,
Reflection I see,
Reminds me, of somebody like me.

What big thoughts you had,
I can see them in your eyes,
When you pretend to laugh,
The reflection I see,
Reminds me of somebody like me.
ALL

19.10.2007., petak

IS VLAD HOME?

After 5 days in London, Timisoara was quite a cultural shock. I wasn't crazy about going to Romania especially because I was tired and full of impressions from London which I did not want to ruin. I just had one night in Zagreb to contemplate. But a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!
There are not any direct flights from Zagreb to Timisoara for any amount of money so I had to fly over Budapest 4th time this year. The Republic of Croatia should seriously consider improving its traveling-by-plane possibilities. We traveled with small planes that were half empty. Not many people travel to Romania let me tell you, especially not as turists to Timisoara. I was happy to find out that there are airports smaller than ours in Zagreb, kippis!
The suburbs of the City look really bad. Surroundings reminded me of the picture of Croatian people leaving the City of Vukovar in 1991. The weather was rainy and gray so I guess that it made my impression stronger. The city center is renovated and some parts look really nice. Still, kind of gray and cold. The architecture is interesting, both eastern and western influences can be seen. There are beautiful oriental buildings and also the ones that are more of a Hungarian and German style. It can be seen that they invested in development of the city center, hopefully they will do the same with outskirts one day. Timisoara is a student city and there are many young people around. I'm sure that it will ruin the gray impression with time. People are very friendly and nice. Styles are weird but as it turnes out there are weird everywhere. Women want to look very feminine so they overdo it with accesories and make-up. Most guys have some salesmen-of-used-cars styles. Fashion is probably the last thing on peoples' minds there. The average salery is 200-250 euro. Since they entered in EU they have new stores and shopping malls and the prices are the same, if not higher than in Croatia. Horror.
The food is cheapper buy how cheap does it have to be that 200 euro would be enough to get through a month, with paying rent, paying bills, eating... We do not even know how happy we are and still we complain.
If you consider the fact that they had Mr. and Mrs. Ceauºescu, you must say that they came a looooong way since then and made a huge progress.
I have visited some nice restaurants with good food and friendly people and also pubs that were crowded with young people any day of the week. Stores are open until 10 o'clock or sometimes even midnight. I do not really understand why, it's not like they have turists. I have heard some native music, watched their folklore dancing, national costumes and enjoyed their hospitality. All in all, I am happy that I went to see what Romania is like. It definitely improved my opinion and idea of that country.

Click to see the pics!

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18.10.2007., èetvrtak

IS THiS THiNG ON?

Get in the groove and move those hips!!

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17.10.2007., srijeda

LONDON CALLING

I've been to London airports few times but I never visited the city. This fall I had a great opportunity to visit my cousin who is working in London for 5 weeks. She was kind enough to invite me and I was keen enough to hurry to visit her. It was so much fun fun. My first time in the english speaking area! I loved hearing english people speak!
I've been around,visited many cities around Europe but I find London very different and special. There are so many things to see. The center of the town is here, there and everywhere and there are things and places for everybody. I do not know how much time would it take to see every part of the city properly. The only thing that freaks me out in London is traffic and masses of people. One should seriously be affraid of buses and cabs. Those drivers don't care if they run people over. Still, seems like they know what they are doing cuz I have not seen any accident. I was confused and couldn't get used to looking in another direction while crossing the street.. If you're a foreigner and you're not paying attention, you can get killed. It says LOOK RIGHT on the concrete but that did not help that much. By the end of my stay I just looked in all directions, prayed and then crossed the road.

The other thing is too many people. London has at least 2 times more citizens than Croatia + all the turists. Everybody is on the street. People are crossing the road with 100 other people. It's scary. It's not the city for kids and old people. I tried to avoid rush hour but one day I needed to meet my friend at 5.30pm in very busy neighborhood. That was a crazy experience, there were so many nervous working people in suits, going out of the tube station and hurrying in unknown direction with plugs in their ears, or speaking on the phone or reading trashy newspaper that they took in the street. I couldn't find my meeting point although it was huge and right in front of me, I tried to ask somebody but it was difficult to catch them. Crazy. After I have seen that I am glad to live in a small country. Still, London is not just an European capital, it's one of biggest capitals in the world so what can one expect?
Most of museums are free and that's excellent! You can't get enough! I saw 4 museums in one day and I wouldn't advise anyone to do so. You get so tired, you forget what you saw, it's too much info for short period of time. Parks are wonderful, one can get the peace and quiet even in the center of the city. I haven't seen many dogs on the street, maybe people have no time for dogs. Well, streets with that many people are not really the place for dogs. I love the fact that in London you can walk with bunch of crap on your head and no one will look at you funny. We, here, beat those. There are so many different styles but on the street no one cares what you wear. People don't comment eather! Weird but nice. There are many Petes and Kates around. I saw few Pete wannabes and I cannot figure out how those guys have legs that thin. Even if I did not have muscles, fat and celulite on my legs, my bones are bigger than those sticks. All in all, I would say that Englishmen are very goodlooking, but the women are mostly unattractive. Of course, I cannot generalise but this is just my impression.
Oh yes, if you're Balcanian, look out what you're saying because people there are politically correct! If they only knew what kind of jokes we have...

Click on the link to see the pics!

I did not do any shopping, I just bought onitsuka sneakers and that was it. London is bloooody expensive, but I was not really into shopping anyway (which is weird). Most of the money I spent on tube tickets and eating out. Since I was eating with professionals, I have tried some new and delicious food.

It was an important trip for me; I moved away from work for a while, went places and saw things and refreshed relationships with some nice people. First of all, it was great to see my cousin and spend some time with her since we do not hang together often. I am just sorry that I missed her birthday. Lepa, I hope you had even better time after I left and thank you for everything!
I met my friend from Finland that I did not think that I will see ever again. I'm so glad that I did because I had the best guide to show me the city and a great person to spend time with. I often remember how we drank coffee and smoked tabacco on a side walk at the market place in the sun. Good times Meredith, thank you! Tapš!

Then I met my friends who just started studying in Brighton. Unfortunately for me and fortunately for them, I won't be seeing them for a year. We did a turistic tour together and ate some fish and chips. Nice to see you kids, come home soon!
And then, the surprising part was meeting a girlie from highschool on the plane and her friend. We never hanged out together before and we probably would not if it wasn't for this trip. It would be a shame because I got to know 2 great people. Yeah, yeah, guys I will start advertising you in my next post!
Enjoy the pics!

p.s. pics from european languages day from Cvjetni trg

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02.10.2007., utorak

THINKING OF A REBOUND ON A TUESDAY AFTERNOON

Henry Rollins wrote a song called Thursday afternoon but I cannot use that one today. Still, I'll copy one part for you. I love Henry's lyrics, it's like he asked me what to write.
Please let me see the faults my ego denies me
Don't let me grow so tall, I forget the ground beneath me
Don't let me forget that satisfaction has no friends
That glory's only fleeting - already gone

I've wasted so much time
I'm trying to get it straight in my mind

Don't let me think it's love, when it's only just obsession
I've spent so many nights punching that wall
Show me the difference between decision and denial
I want to know why I ask why

Let me see my confusion for exactly what it is
Don't let me make my rage a tool of regret
Allow me to sidestep my frustration and hostility
And the violence that comes to me so easily, too easily

I am getting older and hopefully wiser but I still cannot figure out many many things. This list is getting bigger with time which is just the opposit of what I would want.
Rebound is on my mind constantly. Thank God that I'm going to leave Zagreb for a while so I could have some time to think...or not think at all. Heavy thinking is always too much.

So, what the hell is rebound anyway? According to Wikipedia, it is a period of time following a particularly painful break-up. What does “period of time” stand for? Is this like mourning without a dress code? No white shoes, huh? Is this something everyone has to have or only we, the weak ones? As my little Austrian friend said: Sometimes I wish I was so damn arrogant that I could just say fuck you and bye bye! That would be best, but normally it never happens. Is there a rule how people should act in that period? Are we supposed to meet someone new and hurt them because we’re hurt? SelFISH, no? Is that necessary in order to move on? Is a rebound significant other really significant? What does moving on really mean? How will we know that rebound is really over in order to proceede with our lives? And when it’s finally over, does that mean that we have healed? Do we ever?

In my book, all of the stuff I have written above is such crap. This rebound thing is such waste of time. A break-up is painful itself, it sucks all the joy of life out of us. We’re unhappy, have things on our minds 24/7 and are not fun to anybody and just horror for ourselves. We do the reconstruction of events and irrational self-analyzing that have never done anything good to anyone. We can pretend that we’re dealing with it just fine for some time, at work, among friends etc. but still we’re so dry and torrid inside. News flash: time is not waiting for us. So our days pass… I think that we need some help to heal. We need someone to save us!! Rebound will not do the trick, neither will time itself. But someone will. We just have to be careful while searching for the one who can save us and if we find them, we should let them in. Who knows, maybe we are meant to save somebody.
Looking forward to your Facebook comments,
I’m off to London! Kippis!
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