31.12.2006., nedjelja
Nešto je trulo...
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Pričala sam jučer sa prijateljicom koja je pobjegla iz Bosne za vrijeme rata.Suze su mi došle na oči kad sam slušala što su svašta proživjeli dok su bježale njena majka i ona(tada je imala tri godine,a to joj je majka ispričala).Zatim je bila dvije godine bez oca koji je morao u rat zajedno s drugim očevima.Majka radila 13 sati na dan kako bi prehranila obitelj,a ona gledala kako sva ona djeca u Njemačkoj imaju oca,a njen nije tu.A zatim kada je cijela obitelj došla,posljedice od rata bile su ogromne,histerija,svađe,prepiranja... Zatim se sjetim kako mi je davno pričala jedna druga djevojka iz Vukovara kako mrzi ići u Vukovar iako joj je sada tamo baka.Kaže točno se zna tko je Hrvat,a tko Srbin.Kupuješ na tržnici nešto,a možda pare daješ upravo onoj osobi koja ti je ubila oca.Najviše me zgrozilo kada mi je rekla da šećeš tom istom tržnicom i vidiš na prodaji svoj obiteljski album i još neke stvari iz tvoje kuće koju su upravo ti koji sada to prodaju opljačkali.A nikome ništa,samo se okreneš i možeš plakat,drugo ti ne preostaje.I opet sjetim se one njene rečenice:»A možda ti je baš ta osoba ubila oca» (kako ste uspjeli shvatiti njen je otac ubijen u ratu) Jedna druga djevojka bila je nešto starija kada je bježala te priča kako se sječa granata,bomba koje su letjele iznad autobusa dok su oni prolazili,sjeća se ljudi koji su ulazili u autobus s puškama i derali se na balavu djecu i prestrašene žene.Djeca nisu smjela govoriti kako ne bi ovi shvatili od kuda su,a nisu smjela ni plakati.Sjeća se kako bi neke ljude izveli iz autobusa,a potom čuli pucanj.Sjeća se svih grozota i danas kada čuje grmljavinu skriva se doma ispod pokrivača i drhti. Zašto ovo pišem? Zato jer sam iskreno zgrožena i sramim se države u kojoj živim! Za vrijeme rata bilo je toliko patnje,stradavanja,gubitaka i rat je svakako trebalo zaustaviti. A tko ga je zaustavio?Oni ljudi koji su napustili domove i obitelj kako bi branili svoju državu. A gdje su sada ti ljudi?Kako država postupa s njima?Kao sa životinjama! A ono zbog čega se zgrožavam jest to da Srbima gradimo kuće,a branitelji koji su svoje napustili kako bi nas obranili od Srba sada žive po kojekakvim stračarama. Eto pa kako živim u Puli navesti ću tragičan primjer branitelja na Valovinama. Ljudi moji,ono gdje oni žive već 13 godina,ono je grozno.To su stare stračare,ne znam jel ono uopće ima struje i vode,sve vlažno budući da je uz more,to je par metara kvadratnih čiste bijede.Kada sam tamo šetala nisam ni slutila da tamo netko živi,samo sam se zgražala kako je to staro i zapušteno i jezivo.A kada sam saznala da tamo već 13.godina žive branitelji ostala sam bez riječi.A onda osvane u novinama kako je netko crvenim sprejem na podu napisao: »Zaklat ćemo vas dok spavate»,»Vratite nam Valovine» i tome sl. natpise.Da,kao da oni uživaju tamo!Jednostavno ne možeš vjerovati da netko to uopće može napisati.Kao da dovoljno ne pate i ovako nego im je još i to potrebno. Da imam novaca sama bih izgradila stanove za te jadne ljude! A s druge strane,evo opet ću navesti samo Pulu kao primjer,ima toliko napuštenih zgrada koje se samo puštaju da propadaju umjesto da ih se malo obnovi i dodijeli im se neka svrha.Eto jedna zgrada Rojca npr.,cijela zgrada Italuniona,zatim razni vojni objekti pored mora koji su dobro izgrađeni i dosta veliki (dakle u Puli i okolici),ali nitko ne brine o njima i sada su već devastirani i propadaju.A sve će to propasti skroz jer nikog nije briga.Tu bi mogla biti uređena tolika prihvatilišta,napravljeni stanovi,pa makar skromni,ali barem za normalan život,humani život.Moglo bi tu biti još mnogo toga – i to samo da se na vrijeme preuredilo,obnovilo...ili da se to učini dok još nije prekasno. Ali ne,to ne očekujem od ove države.Očekujem izgradnju još nekih stanova koji će biti dodijeljenji Srbima (jer im to dugujemo?),očekujem još samoubojstava branitelja,očekujem još tuge i bijede ljudi poput onih sa Valovina....I sve mi se to gadi! Gade mi se ljudi koji su na vlasti,koji su dobro upoznati sa svim tim i koji ništa ne čine osim što podmiruju svoje pohlepne «potrebe» i kradu,gadi mi se ova država i način na koji se «odužila» onima koji su je stvorili(jer bez njih je ne bi ni bilo) I nemojte misliti da mislim da je drugdje bolje.Svaka država ima svoja sranja.Ali ja živim u ovoj i kako sam rekla,sve mi se to gadi. A ona cura iz Vukovara sad živi u jednom stanu koji se nalazi u jedno zgradi koja je cijela izgrađena upravo za obitelji branitelja.Da vi vidite kako je to bezveze izgrađeno,ono tek tako da jest,vidjeli biste koliko država misli na takve.To je čisti pokazatelj nepoštivanja i onoga: «Ma tko te jebe».To sve sobice u nekim nepravilnim oblicima,zidovi se spajuju u obliku trokuta,ne možeš namještaj staviti,pa ne radi ovo,ne radi ono,zapravo ti treba duplo više novaca za popravke tih radova nego što bi ti trebalo da si i sam kupiš nešto. I opet si na nuli. Eto toliko od mene.Žao mi je što je tema ovako negativna,ali mislim da se neke stvari ne smiju tek tako zaboraviti,a neke se ne smiju tek tako dopustiti jer to ide na tuđu nesreću,a našu sramotu i zadovoljstvo onih koji to najmanje zaslužuju. Za kraj jedna pjesma,odnosno refren od jedne punk grupe iz Pule,Antitodor: ... I tek sad vidim što je nastalo, i tek sad znam za koga se ginulo, i već sad gadi mi se ovo sve Daj vec jednom hajmo od tud! ... |
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HELLOWEEN "I Want Out" From our lives' beginning on we are pushed in little forms no one asks us how we like to be in school they teach you what to think but everyone says different things but they're all convinced that they're the ones to see So they keep talking and they never stop and at a certain point you give it up so the only thing that's left to think is this I want out--to live my life alone I want out--leave me be I want out--to do things on my own I want out--to live my life and to be free People tell me A and B they tell me how I have to see things that I have seen already clear so they push me then from side to side they're pushing me from black to white they're pushing 'til there's nothing more to hear But don't push me to the maximum shut your mouth and take it home 'cause I decide the way things gonna be I want out--to live my life alone I want out--leave me be I want out--to do things on my own I want out--to live my life and to be free There's a million ways to see the things in life a million ways to be the fool in the end of it, none of us is right sometimes we need to be alone No no no, leave me alone I want out--to live my life alone I want out--leave me be I want out--to do things on my own I want out--to live my life and to be free SONATA ARCTICA "The Misery" I write the lines you want me to, with the words. I dare to use of all the ones that you have taught me, along the years. You cast a perfect shadow on the paper. Fade away with sunlight, I fear the way you know me, love can leave a stain... You steal my only hope and make me stay awake another night. I wish you bear with me, stay near me. When the autumn leaves have fallen. Solitude, my pain, the last thing left of me... If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared, you'll be safe, this I swear. If you only love me back. Seven lonely lies written on Deadwinter's night, open the only book with the only poem I can read... In blood I sign my name and seal the midnight with a tear. Burn the paper, every line for them I cried... If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared, you'll be safe, this I swear. If you only love me back. I am the Playwrite and you are my Crown, make me cry for your love, like you've done many times, so I know. I can't write these storylines without you, lady pain, make me strong, can't we be together without them forever... The words I write can only hurt you, sorry for the rain. Thank you, my only one, you gave me this pain...I leave you gently on the floor, take one step towards the door. Where's the letter never written, good night now... If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared, you'll be safe, this I swear. If you only love me back. If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared, you'll be safe, this I swear. If you only love me back. SONATA ARCTICA "Abandoned,Pleased, Brainwashed, Exploited" Wake up my child, hope is here. With the vengeance, we have no time to bleed. My only world filled with fear. I never saw the sower of the seed. Where is the world we had. Who can ever save you and your little lives. A child guides a child guided child. A child is never guilty. But you should not run free... The grave is open, let us pray without remorse. Empty the cradle with fire for them once again. Why not look through your fingers what they've done. Your own blood will clean the blood, for now the glory days are gone.... Time has come for everyone, to think what we have done. Open your eyes and see, it's not a dream. You aim for a common goal, you are one with your foe. If only we could wake up soon and scream. Abandoned, pleased, brainwashed, exploited, madness has a reason. Throw money at the problem and it will remain. Your life has no value for them, "violate me and this never ends. My children will then hate you too." The grave is open, let us pray without remorse. Empty the cradle with fire for them once again, tonight. Why not look through your fingers what they've done. Your own blood will clean the blood, for now the glory days are gone.... Now, when it seems that we have nothing to believe in. Maybe we should be waiting for the rock to come. For our children soon have nothing they should learn. The grave is open, let us pray without remorse. Empty the cradle with fire for them once again. Why not look through your fingers what they've done. Your own blood will clean the blood, for now the glory days are gone.... Time has come for everyone, to think what we have done. Open your eyes and see, it's not a dream. You aim for a common goal, you are one with your foe. If only we could wake up soon and scream. Time has come for everyone, to think what we have done. Open your eyes and see, it's not a dream. You aim for a common goal, you are one with your foe. If only we could wake up soon and scream. ICED EARTH "Melancholy" Make the sadness go away Come back another day For years I've tried to teach But their eyes are empty Empty too I have become For them I must die A sad and troubled race An ungrateful troubled place I see the sadness in their eyes Melancholy in their cries Devoid of all the passion The human spirit cannot die Look at the pain around me This is what I cry for Look at the pain around me This is what I'll die for Make the sadness go away Come back another day The things I've said and done Don't matter to anyone But still, you push me to see Something, I can never be Why am I their shattered king? I don't mean anything I see the sadness in their eyes Melancholy in their cries Devoid of all the passion The human spirit cannot die Look at the pain around me This is what I cry for Look at the pain around me This is what I'll die for ICED EARTH "Stand Alone" Listen not to ones who preach Those who feel you're a freak Everything about you is wrong You must be sick, you don't belong Father said, worry not what they say Use your mind, your own free will In a time when everyone follows Ignorance can kill They only say what they want you to hear Half-truths have been twisted to conceal your fate In a world of spoon-fed emotion Intelligence can save Stand alone Hear what I say Stand alone You will seize the day Son, say what you mean, don't be afraid Tell them how you feel, hear what I say Be true to yourself and true to your own Your spirit will crush the hearts of stone Stand alone Hear what I say Stand alone It's a leap of faith ICED EARTH "Consequences" As human beings, we're a complex thing Sometimes so beautiful, other times so vain We've built an empire, the blood is on our hands Genocide and the chains that bind The consequence ahead Oh, you ought to know Oh, you ought to know Wrote about in history as if it's all O.K. A race of people murdered another one enslaved Now our world crumbles, it's happening within Open your eyes and realize The world we're living in Oh, you ought to know Oh, you ought to know If we could focus on important things Live and let live true freedom, not everyone's the same No more war for your god, no more war for your race It's our world, it's what we make it Make it a better place Oh, you ought to know Oh, you ought to know We can change the world that we're living in Live and let live true freedom Let the reign begin STRATOVARIUS "Infinity" Mother watch your children The iron fist of fear is ruling our lives It's not too late to change the course We can make this world a better place to be in How much more do we want until we're satisfied? What happens when we have what we want? Acquiring more , still there's never enough We forget those who really are in need The end is near, or so they say Selling peace with guns Infinity - Where do we go from here? Infinity - Where do we go from here? Infinity - Where do we go? Infinity - Where do we go from here? Guns spitting (out the) message of peace everywhere Is it really that we don't care? See mercenaries of fear selling love Telling salvation comes from above Arrogance and fear walking hand in hand We must see that there's much more to life than this Mother see your children Make us understand and help us to find the way The answers lie inside They are locked inside to the vault of truth for us It's time to spread the word around Be yourself and do what you want to do with your life Remember, you get just what you give You reap all what you sow You are in charge of your own life Infinity... You make your own way As long as you are here Find your place in life Make your dreams come true There's so much more than this A million ways to live Unlock the door To the universe with love Free your soul LOST HORIZON "Perfect Warrior" I was falling into the boundless sea I'm the sacred one who chose to change this world Everything I hate to see... Everyone I hate to hear... Raise your sword and never fall again I was calling, world never answered me Time was standing still and life plunged into ruin Everything I hate to see... Everyone I hate to hear... Hold your head up high and spread your words Mob of "right", I despise your way of life! I'm a "sinner", yet forgive me nothing I'm a "heathen", but forever free Remember! If you try to break my wings If you dare to watch my dreams You'll forever bare your blame In the name of pain Remember! If you try to break my wings If you try to steal my dreams You will never free your name From the chains of pain If you try to break my wings If you dare to touch my dreams Then my curse will be your pain |
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