04.10.2004., ponedjeljak
viva manu chao!!!
ev,sve nesto kontam kako je ovaj blog dobra stvar...u jednu ruku,a losha u drugu...bar za mene...prvo dobre strane: -donekle je anonimno,i mozes pisati razna sranja,i tajne,i traceve,niko te nece osuditi(bar te to nece pogoditi toliko),a nece niko(to se svi nadamo...)nikad saznati da si to ustvari ti! -od kako pishem blog tek pocinjem shvatati sebe kako treba...npr.uvijek(ne bash uvijek,al recimo veci dio mog zivota)sam sebe smatrala rock,pa kad sam malo porasla(psihicki...fizicki...nista!),metal curom,koja ima svoj neki "smisao" za humor,koja je svima nekako luda,i s kojom se ipak moze ludo zabavljati,ali koja ima neka moralna nacela,averziju prema drogama,i kojoj se citav svjet vrti oko obale,i raje s obale(rokeri,metalci...etc.)...medjutim sad kontam da sam ustvari skroz nekako drugacija...kada bih citala svoj blog,i ne znala da sma u pitanju ja(ovo je apsurdno,al zamislite samo na trenutak da je to moguce),ne bih se nikad prepoznala...mozda u rijetkim slucajevima...tek sad kontam koliko ustvari volim metal,grunge,ali i reggae!!!ozbiljno...tek sad vidim koliko sam ustvari uvijek zudila za zivotom vagabunda,hippija...ilitiga...slobodne osobe....tek sad kuzim,koliko ja ustvari nemam averziju prema vutri!sta vishe...volim je,jeb ga...odgovara mi...mozd aje to prolazna pubertetska faza,al ipak...i koliko ustvari ne postujem svoja moralna nacela...kojih sam se,bar sam tako mislila,uvijek pridrzavala... e to ujedno moze biti dobro,ali i loshe...al josh jedna dobra stvar je sto fevka kaze u svom jednom postu,da mogu pisati ono sto me muci,ubija,al ne zelim nikoga muciti svojim problemima,a ovdje me ljudi mogu(ako zele)a i ne moraju citati! ali,opet jedna losha stvar...tek sad i kontam koliko sam ustvari postala(ili sam oduvijek bila?!)umisljena i sebicna...stvarno...kroz neke postove vidim,koliko sebe ustvari dizem iznad nivoa "ostalih obicnih smrtnika"...nemogu bash reci da mi se to dopada...stvarno ne...al,ovako bar vidim na cemu sam,ovako bar znam da nisam svetica,i nisam savrsena,i nisam tako dobrodusna,i fina,i blabla...ne da to nisam znala i prije,nego sad mi je kristalno jasno,i ovako imam priliku mjenjati nesto...a ako ostanem dovoljno dugo na ovom blogu(a imam osjecaj da cu ostati cak i kad se jednog dana,ako Bog da,udam,...hehehe),i ako me vi budete dovoljno dugo citali,skontat cete jednom da li sam uspijela ili ne u nakani da se promjenim...mozda cu nekad i manje voljeti sve ovo sto danas volim..en znam...nadam se da necu,nadam se da cu ostati ipak vjerna svojim manirima iz srednje skole...cak i ako me svi iznevjere,uvijek cu biti sama sebi vjerna!to ne zelim mjenjati...a sad,sama sebi vjerna ne znaci da cu ostati ovo sto sam danas zauvijek,nego da cu pokusati ostaviti sve svoje vrline i neke svoje mane netaknutima...al sebicnost i umisljenost se fakat,al ono bash fakat,moraju promjeniti!!! i sad dok citam ove stare postove...pitam se samo jedno...kakos am uspijela zaboraviti pomenuti manu chao?!!!!!!!!! mislim,ima josh puno bendova koje nisam pomenula,a ipak ih slusam cesto,i volim...ali manu chao?!!?!pa haloooo!!!!najbolji koncert na kojem sam ikad bila,bio je nastup manu chao-a u sarajevu!!!!Ljudi su genijalni...odrzali su besplatan koncert prije...hm...cini mi se tri...a mozda cka i 4 godine(bila sma josh u osnovnoj,uglavnom...) ,a ja sam dosla tri sata prije pocetka koncerta i upoznala se s ljudima,nakon toga sma bila u prva dva reda,u shutci(moja prva VELIKA shutka,i ujedno moj prvi koncert na kojem sam bila sama,bez odraslog nekog...),i upoznala jednog super tipa...ovim putem...dario,navratis li ikad,bilo koji slucajem na ovaj blog i sjetish se tri cure(tada josh i curcie)koje si branio od onih debila...veliku pusu ti saljem,i pozdrav!javi se!al,ne vjerujem da ces ikad doci...tako da...ipak...kao "predgurpa" su nastupali adi lukovac&ornamenti...elektronsku muziku prave,i svirali su do 22h,i tada su napokon izalsi manu chao...onako predivni,i atmosfera je bila odlicna...pocele su i shutke,i sve je bilo jednostavno super!!!namjeravali su zavrsiti do 00.00h,ali je raja trazila ponovo,i ponovo...tako da su tri puta,ili cetiri odsvirali koncert,da bi smo mi u pola pet cetiri,otisle na carsiju(poznata sarajevska,BASH CARSHIJA),legle na stepenice blizu imperial-a....i nako mrtve umorne i izudarane,ali josh uvijek super raspolozene,sjedile tu do negdje pola pet,kad smo se uputili u park na drveniju,i tamo odspavali sat-dva...kad se koncert zavrsio bilo je toliko raje u gradu...nista vishe nije radilo,i sve bi u normalnim uslovima bilo pusto,ali je raja josh hodala dugo carshijom,i pjevala ( e sad ja ovo ne znam napisati gramaticki pravilno...)"me gusta marihuana,me gustas tu..."...to je bilo jedno od najljepsih,najboljih iskustava u mom zivotu...bilo je genijalno,i nikad to zaboraviti necu!!!! zato...ubrajam i manu chao,ubjedljivo medju svoje najdraze bendove...a kao sto znate vec,ima ih mali milion!!!! evo,trenutno slusam pjesmu Mystic Roots-pass the marijuana dobra je pjesmica pravo... et...posto vam rekoh o svojoj ljubavi prema reggae muzici,i svim njenim oblicima i kombinacijama...mogu sad ciste savjesti malo i o tome pisati ovdje...ma zezam se...pisala bih ja prije,da sma prije skontala sve ono sto sam danas napisala u postu... |
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no name-just pain
    (ta 'pomenuta' scena iz filma 'sanjari')     Bendovi(i artisti) koje volim i cije cd-ove i mp3-ce trenutno forsiram maximalno Aqualung Tonic Turtles Blur Sufjan Stevens Adam green Oasis Imogine heep Jive Eles dios malos doves ellen ten dammme Dido Nelly furtado Negativ Juli sentenced iced earth nirvana placebo anathema lost prophets evanescence on thorns i lay lacuna coil guano apes alanis morisette papa roach(lovehatetragedy-u znak dobrih starih vremena:-)) van gogh i et...to e to trenutno... TRENUTNO CITAM 11 Minuta - citam... Choices - Nancy Toder - procitano Wien um 1900-procitano Oliver twist-na citanju Demijan—precitavam po ko zna koji put Tajna veza-procitana Zamka za snove-S.King=procitano Ponornica-S.Kulenovic-procitan kabinet cudesa-procitano linearni grad-nikako da dovrsim a nema ni 100 strana radije uzmi moga brata(njem.)-procitano citadela-cronin- procitano misterije svijeta-davno predjeno g.g.marquez-ljubav u doba kolere-nikad procitala et...tolko za sad... ...Sweet child in time you'll see the line The line that's drawn between the good and the bad See the BLIND man shooting at the world Bullets flying taking toll If you've been bad, Lord I bet you have And you've not been hit by flying lead You'd better close your eyes and bow your head And wait for the ricochet... evo mojih dosadasnjih googlizama...tj.kako me ljudi nadjose na googlu... -ocu ajvar za cevape(???) -bol u ledjima kod djece -nazif gljiva.mp3(e ovaj mi je najkrvaviji bez sumnje) -Lyrics-sheeter feat.amy lee -blog sam uradila -pjesma za spavanje -jajacki izbori -dnevnik jedne teenager-ke -hand made nakit -pearl jam-voice for change -lektire za malu raju -bajke -srebrenicani slike(obratiti se gdniu Amoru Masovicu,a ne meni...) Guns'n'Roses-Don't Cry If we could see tomorrow What of your plans No one can live in sorrow Ask all your friends Times that you took in stride They're back in demand I was the one who's washing Blood off your hands Don't you cry tonight I still love you baby Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I know the things you wanted They're not what you have With all the people talkin' It's drivin' you mad If I was standin' by you How would you feel Knowing your love's decided And all love is real An don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I thought I could live in your world As years all went by With all the voices I've heard Something has died And when you're in need of someone My heart won't deny you So many seem so lonely With no one left to cry to baby An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry tonight Baby maybe someday Don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry Tonight Cold Heritage-Lacuna Coil Don't tell me why I'm so near to commit a crime When I stay alone here in front of you (I'm here) Illusion falls when you're not honest about the way I feel I know I need only your voice Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Saving all my words only for you I don't know why There's a limit to defy With the vision of the future at my feet (I'm here) The night embrace me while The picture simply blows me away I feel I'll need only your voice And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Reveal the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me I've never, never felt myself this way before And I want to leave with my tears If you'll disappear Believe in the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Falling on me knees only for you Forgive me Bosnia-the Crannberries I would like to state my vision Life was so unfair We live in our secure surroundings And people die out there Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo, change my mind And we all call out in despair All the love we need isn't there And we all sing songs in our room Sarejevo erects another tomb Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sure, things would change If we really wanted them to No fear for children anymore There are babies in their beds Terror in their heads For the love of life! When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? Rummmpatipum, Rummmpatipum... Traboo, Traboo, Traboo... Watching Over Me-Iced Earth I had a friend many years ago One tragic night he died The saddest time of my life For weeks and weeks I cried Through the anger and through the tears I've felt his spirit through the years I'd swear, He's watching me Guiding me through hard times (chorus) I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me We shared dreams like all best friends Blood brothers at the age of ten We lived reckless, he paid the price But why? Why did he have to die? It still hurts me to this day Am I selfish for feeling this way? I know he's an angel now Together we'll be someday I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over Shinead O'Connor-Nothing Compares To You It's been seven hours and fifteen days since you took your love away I go out every night and sleep all day since you took your love away since you've been gone I can do whatever I want I can see whomever I choose I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant but nothing I said nothing can take away these blues, 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you It's been so lonely without you here like a bird without a song nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling tell me baby where did I go wrong? I could put my arms round every boy I see but they'd only remind me of you I went to the doctor guess what he told me guess what he told me he said girl you better try to have fun no matter what you do but he's a fool 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you All the flowers that you planted momma in the backyard all died when you went away I know that living with you, baby, was sometimes hard but I'm willing to give it another try nothing compares Vader-Whisper Jaunting on maps of our bodies We wandering through vastness of inner and outer space Through and through Immersed in love of will. I am laying on my back And gazing at inky black sky Serpent shapes Moves of your hands The mind is burning Drowned in carnal desires Inflowing pictures Visions of dead world Fancy visions of dead world Gives me shiver when You caresses my body Emptiness beyond We are alone on this earth And all treasures of the world Belong to us The sacrilege of love And sacrificial love Weals are wandering on your skin You are wielding my sword This is the greatest gift We received from mother Earth So let's play this game Bodies surrounded by fire And envy of stars Stimulation of every part Of mind, body and soul Our never-ending ritual Will always go on Like war never ends Like fall always comes Like stars are shining On nightly sky Our love of will Will go on To eternal death Of the human world.
painkillers cooperated
Imaginary-Evanescence i linger in the doorway of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name let me stay where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me don't say i'm out of touch with this rampant chaos - your reality i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare i built my own world to escape in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light dreaming my dreams-the Crannberries All the things you said to me today Changed my perspective in every way These things count to mean so much to me Into my faith you and your baby It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here 2X I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you oceans-On Thorns I Lay In the magic mirror of my soul, I stare at the person that I love, It's the magical carpet on which, I travel on the erebus, In the land of fairy tales So I close my eyes again Feeling so lonely in the rain The mother of sunrise gives hope She can fly me over green fields And... The great oceans away from Days of hatred and despair... I saw immortal roses And a gold field with giant trees That shined immensely... I saw ancient walls and palaces everywhere... Amidst ancient gardens and magical trees... So I close my eyes again... Whit Bitterness and Joy-Sentenced It has now spread itself all over inside me all the way to the brain and down to my knees My time comes closer with each day it lets me see - with each night the pain keeps me from sleep Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Pleasure and pain; Heaven and Hell - my memories What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy Nothing Else Matters-Metallica So close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say and nothing else matters yea, trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for things they say never cared for games they play I never cared for what they do I never cared for what they know and I know yea, yea, yea so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are no nothing else matters Skid Row-Slave To The Grind You got me forced to crack my lids in two I'm still stuck inside the rubber room I gotta punch the clock that leads the blind I'm just another gear in the assembly line-oh no The noose gets tighter around my throat But I ain't at the end of my rope CHORUS 'Cause I won't be the one left behind Can't be king of the world If you're slave to the grind Tear down the rat racial slime Can't be king of the world if you're slave to the grind. Get it? A routine injection, a lethal dose But my day in the sun ain't even close There's no need to waste your prayers on me You better mark my words 'cause I'm history. Yes indeed You might beg for mercy to get by But I'd rather tear this thorn from my side CHORUS They swallowed their daggers by turning their trick They tore my intentions apart brick by brick I'm sick of the jive You talk verbal insecticide CHORUS I said slave to the grind Slave to the grind Slave to the grind |
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