28.09.2004., utorak
cisto sam preumorna...a nakon ovog posta bit cete i vi...
eh,sinoc sam napisala kilometarski post o tome ko mi se iz svijeta poznatih dopada,odnosno na koga se 'palim'...i sta se desilo?moj glupavi tupavi komp mi sam izgasi word,i ne spasi dokument...i ja se nakanim ponovo i stignem do pola,i desi se opet isto...nakon toga nisam imala vise ni strpljenja ni volje,al evo,nadam se da cu nocas moc pisati,a samo da znate da ovaj post nece biti ni nalik mom genijalnom,zanimljivom i nadasve expresivno-impresivnom prvom tekstu!!!pa da pocnemo... nesto sam jucer bash razmisljala kako postoj toliko finih i zanimljivih tema za pisati...i jedna od njih j i ova... MOJ SUPER SLATKI ZGODNI I ZANIMLJIVI POZNATI DECKO... Ne,na zalost...ja nemam decka koji je poznati glumac,pevac ili nesto slicno...niti uopce imam decka(sto je jos zalosnije...),ali imam par poznatih likova za kojima sam nekad,ili mozda jos uvijek ludim! ova lista je uradjena nehronoloshki,pa da se ko od ovih tipova ne bi naljutio :) joj,nemogu,mrsko mi sad pisat...posto sam se bila nameracila,i dodje mi mala rodica,i natjera me da joj pustim snimak "emisije" koju smo zajedno uradile...i pola sata smo slusale,da bi ona otishla kuci,a ja vishe nemam volje da razmisljam o tome...nego....u subotu je brickich rodjendan...sta cu joj pokloniti...ne znam...josh...veze nemam,jer nemogu ni ici do grada,do mjesta gdje sam joj htjela kupiti neshto...tako da cu morat improvizirati...joj,jesam glupa...evo vec mjesec i po planiram sta cu joj kupiti,i u zadnji tren se odlucim,i nemogu!!!agrrrrr!!!!nes6to,mi ovih dana u skoli(ne ureklo se)ide sve kako treba,al zato inace izvan skole,je sve shity!! ocajnicki mi je potreban decko!znam da je to glupo,al sad mi je vishe nego ikad potrebna njeznost...jaranica mi je danas u skoli ispricala da joj je stara u subotu otisla od kuce,nakon sto ju je stari pretukao,i da sad ona mora ostati do daljneg kod oca,koji je proklinje zato sto nije mushko...to je ukratko sve ono sto je meni ispricala,i rekla sam joj da je razumijem savrseno,i da slobodno place...zagrlila sam je insitnktivno,i meni je bilo isto tako lakse...situacija u mojoj porodici je dosta slicna tome,i zato je razumijem...nekad,jednog dana cu vam mozda i pisati o tome,al sad nisam raspolozena...uglavnom,sjetila sam se opet svega sto je bilo u mojoj proslosti,i sto se desava sada,i ja ne vidim poboljsanje za buducnost...mozda sam pesimista,al kako da ne budem????uglavnom... bila sam dosta inspirisana ovih dana,i moram priznati da su dani bili dosta produktivni,pa sam napisala juce 3 djela...razlicita su,dosta...sad kakvog su kvaliteta,to je subjektivno sve,i o tome ja nemogu odlucivati...pa et,ako ko ima primjedbi nek napise...na greskama se uci... ENTER THE SUN enter the sun,enter life,enter future you may realize that you are to far away my divine is to graduated to spend my time on you this world is to sick and you belong to this world too 500 souls are not enough take my heart,then slip,and fly like blossom,sweet memories in the sky dead souls,dead souls skreaming now oh God,I'm asking,and asking how? my roots are to deep to pull them out my memories are to far and to dun enter the sun political matches,and religious war end of time end of all hope life sees no futer and the plants are dead indeed ,we are still here the human nature is refused to kill or die an intelegent way to solve problems nacional communities,hand in hand to dull they are to shamed they should be intensive genocide they are not possible to foresee enter the sun don't be so dumm enter the sun or take a gun and be like the others be so mainstream and reveled to kill,and to support the growth of social discrimination enter your vocation leave all behind kill to survive and be so blind or make a spiritual healing enter the sun enter the sun don't be so dumm MASKENBAL JE GOTOV(ovdje zelim napomenuti da STVARNO nisam namjeravala nikoga uvrijediti nekim djelovima pjesme,niti na bilo koji nacin provocirati...to je samo ogledalo onoga sto se desava u meni,u zadnje vrijeme...josh jednom,ako se ko nadje uvrijedjenim,nek mi oprosti,ili ne...do vas je!) poslijednji selam posljednji put moje oci svjetlost vide posljednji put osjecam miris dunje i posljednji put moja dusa i srce se tvog pogleda stide zauvijek gotovo maske su pale na podijumu ostaju jos samo sjene,previse male u taktu igraju za tebe i mene posljednje gosce te dvije nase sjene plasim se cjene plasim se kazne plasim se buducnosti a jos vise proslosti jasne plasim se,al ne kajem jer sve sto je bilo za nama ostaje zuti zidovi ulice u magli uzdasi se otimaju sad vec nagli neki su s tobom a neki su nagi potpuno sami,na mjesecini stoje stoje tu,stoje sad vec tu sjene moje i tvoje ne pustaju ruke,ne pustaju srecu ne pustaju jedno drugo dok polahko gasim svjecu i u daljini cujem ezan je vec poziv na molitvu,opomena zar je vec kasno?! zar je vec svemu kraj?! maskenbal je gotov... gotov je nas maskenbal... nikog vise nema niko vise nije tu sami smo sebi prepusteni sami svome zlu sami smo tako htjeli a oni su znali da nismo smjeli ne postojim vise ne postojis ni ti ne postoji nista osim vjecnosti ne postoji zelja ne postoji strast ne postoji mir ne postoji slast ne postojim vise sad samo sjena sam ja sad samo proslost sad samo grijeh sam ja sad samo grijeh sad samo sjena i mjesecina sjene nemaju dusu sjene nemaju nista sjene su bezlicna i nistavna bica a opet toliko znace bez sjene nisi covjek kao sjena nisi vise covjek koliko samo sjena na ovom svijetu postoji koliko dusa ovaj svijet broji koliko grjesnih,koliko slabih, koliko velikih a koliko onih manjih koliko srece,toliko i zla sam si sebi krivac,sam sebi sudija sad sam sebi svjedok,sam sebi tuzilac sam sebi jedina odbrana sam sebi jedina solucija sam sebi gori od jedine kazne sam sebi samo sjena samo jos dvije sjene,sad jos su tu jos kratko,jer za kratko nestat ce na dnu dvije sjene sto jedna drugu ne pustaju sjene nemaju dusu,sjene nista ne osjecaju... navodno... sjene...sjene to smo mi grijeh...grijeh bezlicni nistavilo...mozda jedini spas oprost,...opomena...ezan...najljepsi glas Allahu ekber cuje se sad...Allahu ekber shvatit ce svi kad tad pa cak i sjene,pokorne su Njemu cak i sjena gubi nekad svoju sjenu cak i sjena divna moze biti al sjenu nemozes sniti sjena...da...sjena to sam ja... sjene...bez pogovora... maskenbal je gotov... gotov je maskenbal nas maske su pale osuda sad zbori na sav glas!!! posljednji selam,posljednje danas sutra vise nema,nema vise za nas rosna ulica,magla i mrak ezan se cuje cuje na sav glas... COVJEK ILI NE sta da izgovorim jos,pored toliko recenog? sta da mislim,sta da radim pored vas tako divnih ja,koji sam nitkov,prema vama ja koji sam nista u suprotnosti sa svacim ja koji sam samo zakrpa savremenim idejama induvidualizma ja koji sam nista vise do mene samog sta da kazem vam jos...uvazeni... sta da vam prica ova prosta dusa seljacka... sta...a da vi to razumijete... da vam pricam o suncu,kako divno obasja nebo nada mojom zemljom,ne bi ste razumjeli...ne bi ste znali... da vam pricam o mjesecu i melodiji koju mu svaku noc na prozoru zvizdim,jer...glas mi je otisao davno,pricajuci ono sto ne treba,sto nije vrijedno... opet ne bi ste razumjeli... da vam pricam o vjetru!da...mozda bi znali sta znaci vjetar...sta znaci kad odnese sve, i posljednji tracak nade... mozda...al sumnjam...vi nikada niste bili gladni kao ja... ja ne poznajem rijecnik velikana vasih ja ne poznajem balove i prijeme ja ne poznajem skupocjeni nakit,ja ne poznajem vase ljepote... i zalosno je to... al...zalosnije jos je sto ste Vi ubjedjeni da poznajete moje, a u sustini,to je samo fata morgana,samo prividjenje jer Vi,postovani...Vi niste u stanju poznavati nesto tako vrijedno poput obicnog zivota vi niste sposobni zivjeti,a toliko vapite za tim,da ni sami ne primjecujete sta da vam pricam jos,da vam prodje vrijeme brze dok ovdje stojite sa mnom,primorani,na raskrsnici i cekate svoj skupi automobil da dodje po vas... sta da vam,pobogu,jos pricam,kad ni ovo do sad razumjeli niste?! da se ne uzrujavam?pa kako?!da se smirim?!zar mislite da je lako... aaa,ne...ne gospodine...nema vise onoga sto ste nekad mogli nazvati lakim... danas su jedino zene i droge lake... a sve ostalo je vraski tesko... al...vi ne poznajete taj svijet... taj svijet crvenih bordela s prigusenim svjetlima,gdje u cosku svira klavijaturista bez ruku pice posluzuju slijepi konobari,s izlizanim pantolama na peglu,i kosama natopljenim cickovim uljem ne poznajete svijet u kojem kurve,i pederi zive,tako jadno,i glupo,...a opet,gospodine,zive... sta ce...sta da vam kazem,pored svega sto znate... kako da vas zadivim,kako da vas ostavim bez teksta... kad ja sam ni manje ni vise,samo obican covjek! |
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no name-just pain
    (ta 'pomenuta' scena iz filma 'sanjari')     Bendovi(i artisti) koje volim i cije cd-ove i mp3-ce trenutno forsiram maximalno Aqualung Tonic Turtles Blur Sufjan Stevens Adam green Oasis Imogine heep Jive Eles dios malos doves ellen ten dammme Dido Nelly furtado Negativ Juli sentenced iced earth nirvana placebo anathema lost prophets evanescence on thorns i lay lacuna coil guano apes alanis morisette papa roach(lovehatetragedy-u znak dobrih starih vremena:-)) van gogh i et...to e to trenutno... TRENUTNO CITAM 11 Minuta - citam... Choices - Nancy Toder - procitano Wien um 1900-procitano Oliver twist-na citanju Demijan—precitavam po ko zna koji put Tajna veza-procitana Zamka za snove-S.King=procitano Ponornica-S.Kulenovic-procitan kabinet cudesa-procitano linearni grad-nikako da dovrsim a nema ni 100 strana radije uzmi moga brata(njem.)-procitano citadela-cronin- procitano misterije svijeta-davno predjeno g.g.marquez-ljubav u doba kolere-nikad procitala et...tolko za sad... ...Sweet child in time you'll see the line The line that's drawn between the good and the bad See the BLIND man shooting at the world Bullets flying taking toll If you've been bad, Lord I bet you have And you've not been hit by flying lead You'd better close your eyes and bow your head And wait for the ricochet... evo mojih dosadasnjih googlizama...tj.kako me ljudi nadjose na googlu... -ocu ajvar za cevape(???) -bol u ledjima kod djece -nazif gljiva.mp3(e ovaj mi je najkrvaviji bez sumnje) -Lyrics-sheeter feat.amy lee -blog sam uradila -pjesma za spavanje -jajacki izbori -dnevnik jedne teenager-ke -hand made nakit -pearl jam-voice for change -lektire za malu raju -bajke -srebrenicani slike(obratiti se gdniu Amoru Masovicu,a ne meni...) Guns'n'Roses-Don't Cry If we could see tomorrow What of your plans No one can live in sorrow Ask all your friends Times that you took in stride They're back in demand I was the one who's washing Blood off your hands Don't you cry tonight I still love you baby Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I know the things you wanted They're not what you have With all the people talkin' It's drivin' you mad If I was standin' by you How would you feel Knowing your love's decided And all love is real An don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I thought I could live in your world As years all went by With all the voices I've heard Something has died And when you're in need of someone My heart won't deny you So many seem so lonely With no one left to cry to baby An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry tonight Baby maybe someday Don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry Tonight Cold Heritage-Lacuna Coil Don't tell me why I'm so near to commit a crime When I stay alone here in front of you (I'm here) Illusion falls when you're not honest about the way I feel I know I need only your voice Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Saving all my words only for you I don't know why There's a limit to defy With the vision of the future at my feet (I'm here) The night embrace me while The picture simply blows me away I feel I'll need only your voice And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Reveal the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me I've never, never felt myself this way before And I want to leave with my tears If you'll disappear Believe in the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Falling on me knees only for you Forgive me Bosnia-the Crannberries I would like to state my vision Life was so unfair We live in our secure surroundings And people die out there Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo, change my mind And we all call out in despair All the love we need isn't there And we all sing songs in our room Sarejevo erects another tomb Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sure, things would change If we really wanted them to No fear for children anymore There are babies in their beds Terror in their heads For the love of life! When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? Rummmpatipum, Rummmpatipum... Traboo, Traboo, Traboo... Watching Over Me-Iced Earth I had a friend many years ago One tragic night he died The saddest time of my life For weeks and weeks I cried Through the anger and through the tears I've felt his spirit through the years I'd swear, He's watching me Guiding me through hard times (chorus) I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me We shared dreams like all best friends Blood brothers at the age of ten We lived reckless, he paid the price But why? Why did he have to die? It still hurts me to this day Am I selfish for feeling this way? I know he's an angel now Together we'll be someday I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over Shinead O'Connor-Nothing Compares To You It's been seven hours and fifteen days since you took your love away I go out every night and sleep all day since you took your love away since you've been gone I can do whatever I want I can see whomever I choose I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant but nothing I said nothing can take away these blues, 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you It's been so lonely without you here like a bird without a song nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling tell me baby where did I go wrong? I could put my arms round every boy I see but they'd only remind me of you I went to the doctor guess what he told me guess what he told me he said girl you better try to have fun no matter what you do but he's a fool 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you All the flowers that you planted momma in the backyard all died when you went away I know that living with you, baby, was sometimes hard but I'm willing to give it another try nothing compares Vader-Whisper Jaunting on maps of our bodies We wandering through vastness of inner and outer space Through and through Immersed in love of will. I am laying on my back And gazing at inky black sky Serpent shapes Moves of your hands The mind is burning Drowned in carnal desires Inflowing pictures Visions of dead world Fancy visions of dead world Gives me shiver when You caresses my body Emptiness beyond We are alone on this earth And all treasures of the world Belong to us The sacrilege of love And sacrificial love Weals are wandering on your skin You are wielding my sword This is the greatest gift We received from mother Earth So let's play this game Bodies surrounded by fire And envy of stars Stimulation of every part Of mind, body and soul Our never-ending ritual Will always go on Like war never ends Like fall always comes Like stars are shining On nightly sky Our love of will Will go on To eternal death Of the human world.
painkillers cooperated
Imaginary-Evanescence i linger in the doorway of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name let me stay where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me don't say i'm out of touch with this rampant chaos - your reality i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare i built my own world to escape in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light dreaming my dreams-the Crannberries All the things you said to me today Changed my perspective in every way These things count to mean so much to me Into my faith you and your baby It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here 2X I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you oceans-On Thorns I Lay In the magic mirror of my soul, I stare at the person that I love, It's the magical carpet on which, I travel on the erebus, In the land of fairy tales So I close my eyes again Feeling so lonely in the rain The mother of sunrise gives hope She can fly me over green fields And... The great oceans away from Days of hatred and despair... I saw immortal roses And a gold field with giant trees That shined immensely... I saw ancient walls and palaces everywhere... Amidst ancient gardens and magical trees... So I close my eyes again... Whit Bitterness and Joy-Sentenced It has now spread itself all over inside me all the way to the brain and down to my knees My time comes closer with each day it lets me see - with each night the pain keeps me from sleep Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Pleasure and pain; Heaven and Hell - my memories What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy Nothing Else Matters-Metallica So close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say and nothing else matters yea, trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for things they say never cared for games they play I never cared for what they do I never cared for what they know and I know yea, yea, yea so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are no nothing else matters Skid Row-Slave To The Grind You got me forced to crack my lids in two I'm still stuck inside the rubber room I gotta punch the clock that leads the blind I'm just another gear in the assembly line-oh no The noose gets tighter around my throat But I ain't at the end of my rope CHORUS 'Cause I won't be the one left behind Can't be king of the world If you're slave to the grind Tear down the rat racial slime Can't be king of the world if you're slave to the grind. Get it? A routine injection, a lethal dose But my day in the sun ain't even close There's no need to waste your prayers on me You better mark my words 'cause I'm history. Yes indeed You might beg for mercy to get by But I'd rather tear this thorn from my side CHORUS They swallowed their daggers by turning their trick They tore my intentions apart brick by brick I'm sick of the jive You talk verbal insecticide CHORUS I said slave to the grind Slave to the grind Slave to the grind |
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