ying and yang

that downside would be comments of the negative persuasion. and i got my first today.

as my regular readers know, i have taken to calling my youngest son Logan an asshole in order to keep my sanity with all of his antics&its just in fun, of course. well, someone left a comment on my Haiku Friday post about the boys saying That you would ever call your child an asshole is horrible.

*** before going any further, i would like it to be known that the tone of this post is not angry&im not angry. ying and yang just like to state my case&my view point. i have no way of knowing if this comment is legitimate, or if it was left by someone looking to spark a fight&leaving the comment as flame-bait. i have no interest in a flame war, and i have no interest in being part of one. ***

i started blogging for myself, not for anyone else. i blog to retain/regain my identity, and as an attempt to keep what little sanity i have left. when i posted about my diagnosis of Post Partum Depression i received an an amazing amount of from my fellow mom-bloggers. for the first time since i started blogging, i felt like i could write anything i wanted to, or in this case needed to, and it would be okay. i started this new blog so that i could really vent my feelings without my family reading anything i didnt want them to read.

in case anyone doesnt know where im coming from, ill lay it all out for ya. im a SAHM to two high-needs boys 13 months apart in age and under the age of 2.5 years old. Zander, my oldest at 29 months of age, has a severe eating disorder that has caused delays in speech and growth as well as an iron deficiency, and which requires constant monitoring from various specialists not to mention a barrage of tests and daily mealtime battles. My youngest, Logan, is 16 months old. he was born prematurely, has battled with Gastro-Esophageal Reflux Disease all of his 16 months and has required special treatment and attention as well as 3-times-daily medications&.this has also led to him expecting the kind of special and all-encompassing attention that hes grown used to, making his temper and tantrums go far beyond average toddler behaviour. ying and yang top of dealing with these two precious-but-high-maintenance little boys everyday, i hardly ever leave the house since i am isolated from friends and family where i live&which has led us to sell ying and yang house and buy a new one closer to everyone, adding a few more stresses&and all the while i am struggling with self-image problems as well as suffering from/dealing with/coming to terms with Post Partum Depression.

i apologize if anyone was legitimately offended by this. i have never and would NEVER call him ying and yang name to his face, in front of his brother or his friends. it has been purely for much-needed stress relief.

im sorry if anyone is still offended, but theres nothing i can do about that&im just trying to cope with all of it and this is the only way i know how.