*Cemetary Gates*
subota, 29.03.2008.
***Never Enough***
Ah pa da shvatila sam,možda bi bilo vrijeme za novi post,onak jedan tek tolko radi reda,mada neznam zaš al ajd nek bude!
Pa da ajmo reć a sam u zadnje vrijeme poprilično hmmm kak bi rekla,sjebana,da baš to...pa si mislim iem ja napisat neki post o glupostima tek tolko da nebi bilo opet onog "jadanja" i sranja od kojih se vjerojatno svima bljuje al štaš nekad se mora!!
No da,samo da spomenem jedan prijašnji petak,bilo je odlično predorro,ma super!!!!Mora se svakak ponovit,,,,,i Suz sam da napomenem vani je suho,možmo se klackat jeeeeeeeeeah!
hmmmmm onda dolazi subota,ah da subota,Suz imala rođ weeeeeee
a bilo bi još puno ljepše kak bi ja sad to mogla prepričat,samo da me sjećanje služi =/....hh
eh da i u ponedjeljak išle ja i sis ko mime spavat.......ma da ne duljim baš jako bilo je dost zanimljivo malo smo si i produžili život,ugl se valjali od smijeha dobro se najeli luka xD I super!!!
Idući dan sis odletila na bus za našice pa za Osk,a mima i ja još se mal"odmrale"pa sa Žućom(velikim starim žutim kombijem) do bljuza,i tako prošlo to sve malo odmora dobro došlo!
Mima se zaputila spremat za Zg a ja pješke doma pa fala bogu uhvatio me snjeg al dorro taman pred kućom xDXD
I sada evo već je subota i sam da napomenem šta iam za učit:polugodište povijest,polugodište geografija,kemija,zadaća,lektira,referat.....to je samo osnovno s tim da još nisam ni počela,a danas se naravno ide van jel tak???tako je da!!
Kessa!!
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četvrtak, 13.03.2008.
***Memory***Hope***
Quickpost this image to Myspace, Digg, Facebook, and others!Hmmmmmmmmm,,,dugo se dvoumim dal da napišem post il ne,,,,
al na kraju eto ga čini da sam ipak konačno odlučila,,,,
p'da,,,,,eto u posljednje vrijeme neka sam drugačija,,,opet se vratila meni sva moja duboka razmišljanja,razmatranja svake sitnice i pokušaji uspjeha,,,,
još neki dan imala sam osjećaj da propadam,da se gubim,da gubim sebe i druge oko sebe,,,,,da ostajem sama u nekom svom "svijetu",,,
i tako ja zapiljena u ta svoja razmišljanja sjedim nekidan,popodne,pijem kavu,gledam kroz terasu i odjednom me opsjedne neki čudan osjećaj,,,
reklo bi se osjećaj života,osjećaj prolaznosti,,,,,ma nešta zbilja čudno,,,,,
osjetim nadu,spas,glas koji me podupire,pokreće,i potiče na još veća razmišljanja!! I kroz sve to shvatim kolko sam se u posljednjih godinu dana promjenila,postala druga osoba,drugog izgleda,pogleda,razmišljanja,,,,
jednostavno se ne poznam,,,,,shvatim da više nema trenutaka koji su me uveseljavalji,nasmijavali.Sve je nestalo,mjesta na koja sam prije odlazila više ne postoje,,,bar ne za mene,,,ljudi su postali pohlepni,sebični.....
ali onda opet promislim pa zaključim da mi sve te stvari koje sam prije imala uopče ne nedostaju več sam samo nekom jakom vezom vezana uz sve te brojne trenutke ,,,,,,,mada je uz sve te lijepe trenutke kojih se prisječam uvijek je stajalo i nešto sasvim drugačije što sam s vremenom pokušala zaboravit,izbrisat iz memorije,,pa tako i sad,pokušavam zaboravljat...možda me to negdje na kraju i dovede,,,,,
stalno pokušavam pronaći nekakve odgovore,nepotrebna pitanja koja me održavaju na ovom tako zvanom "životu",,,,,a neznam više ni sama što mi je potrebno,kad bi imala sve što trenutno želim,a to je samo jedno,vjerojatno stvari tako nebi mogle"funkcionirat",,,,,kad dobiješ nešto što želiš,jedino čega se bojiš je gubitak i poraz,,,,i to su upravo stvari od kojih ja doslovno strahujem,osjećam se slabo i bespomoćno,,,,,,
Ali dobra stvar u svim ovim jadnim "filozofijama" je što stvari kreću na bolje,tj,ja krećem na bolje mada oko mene ništa ne mijenja,,,,
pa ipak je život samo iskušenje.......I to dragocjeno u puno pogleda.........valjda =/ xD
Nitko se ne može vratiti i početi iz početka,ali svatko može početi sada i stvoriti sasvim novi kraj!
ehhh taj moj dugometražni post xD nea nikaog smisla,kad nema riječi kojima bi mogla sve ljepo sročit,,,,,ugl kad bi znala kako da to sve ljepše i slikovitije opišem bilo bi bolje,al kak je je ; )
nedjelja, 02.03.2008.
***Mistake***
Evo,ustanem se na ovaj prekrasan dan,vani ljepo toplo,piri vjetar,ma savršenstvo,,,,,,a šta ja osjećam???samo veliku prazninu,očaj,bol,bijes i tugu!!
"Stvarno ne može bolje",,,,,,život me jebe u zdrav razum,i stvarno se trudim bar jednu stvar napravit ispravno,al ne,očito ja nisam stvorena za tak šta,,,,,
Možda sam stvarno ja ta osoba koja svima stvara probleme,ne znam,al riješenja jednostavno nema.Najviše bi voljela da mogu bit drukčija,da se mogu bar malo na bilo koji način promjenit jer više neznam šta da uopće radim sa sobom,,,
S jedne strane mislim da nisam zaslužila ovo što sada osjećam,da nisam vrijedna toga,al opet,sve gledam s neke realne strane pa možda ima neke nade za mene,sam neznam gdje i kada će je bit.
I koga sad krivit za sve ovo,naravno da sebe,to je,navodno,jedini način.
Mogu samo sjedit i razbijat glavu danima,tjednima pa i mjesecima jer smatram da ispravnog postupka nema,već sam dovoljna zaribala i sebe i druge.
Hmmmmm,sad baš upravo razmišljam o svemu što sam jučer čula,ali neznam što da slijedim,,,,,
Jedna osoba mi je rekla:Nikad ne napuštaj nekog s kime bi ti moglo biti lijepo zbog nekoga kome nije stalo do tebe!
A druga osoba mi je rekla:Ako osjećaš da je to ono pravo,učini sve moguće,makar se to činilo toliko pogrešno da nije za vjerovat,ali učini sve,i to nikada nemoj izgubit.
Da,kažu to mi je samo faza proč će me,samo što moja faza traje predugo,već se gubim u svemu,tražim izlaz,tražim nekog,al totalno bezuspješno......
Pitam se što sam toliko skrivila,da ne mogu imat jedinu stvar koju već predugo čekam....???????!Zbilja ne znam.
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Komentari da/ne?
*SoMeThinG*
Ime:Katarina
Inače:Kety,Kex,Kexan......
Rođena:18.10.
Horoskopski znak:Vaga
(Eh i da,,,,,moj MSN je: filthiangel@hotmail.com)
Ja sam osoba koja često želi
ostat ne zamjećena,puno razmišljam
o svemu,mada me to većinom nigdje ne vodi,
ne shvaćena sam u mnogim pogledima,
veliki sam pesimist,il kak bi ja rekla
za sebe sam realna,jako sam sentimentalna
i često tužna,,,,,i ako imam svoje mišljenje
niko ga ne može promijenit,,,
mrzim ljude koji jedino znaju osuđivat druge osobe,
i ljude koji su na visokoj razini umišljenosti,
Od svakakih sitnica volim:
snijeg,mrak,glazbu,svijeće,mirisne štapiće
svijećnjake,gitare,prstenje,lančiće,narukvice,,,,
korzete,palestinke,,,,nokte,kosu(ne kažem svoju)
prirodu,nebo,zvijezde,mjesec,šume,
slike,fotografirat sve okolo,
volim poezije,,,,,
hmmm,,,,,volim pjevat,,,
iiiiiiii,,volim se grlit,,,,
A od velikih stvari xD volim:
Svoje prijatelje,,,koje jakoooo
voljammm,,,i obitelj!!!
Od glazbe slušam:
Metal(death,melo,goth,black,heavy)
Rock(stari),Hard Rock,,
i malo Grunge!
*NekE MojE FotkE*
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*Epica-Never Enough*
Can't you hear me screaming, once again?
Voices you can't hear
Because you are consumed and incontent
With everlasting greed
Don't you see me on my hands and knees?
Begging and bleeding
You're smiling as you bite the hand that feeds
But will you never see?
Always wanting what your eyes can't see
Needing what your arms can't reach
Thinking you are in need
Always hearing what your ears can't hear
Feeling what your hands can't touch
Thinking you're incomplete
(Enough)
It was,
Never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
(Never enough)
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line
Sacrificed my life to be with you
Why did you leave me?
There's nothing more from me you can consume
Cause you are incomplete
Always wanting what your eyes can't see
Needing what your arms can't reach
Thinking you are in need
Always hearing what your ears can't hear
Feeling what your hands can't touch
Thinking you're incomplete
(Enough)
It was,
Never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
(Never enough)
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line
Everlasting need
Would you please?
Answer me and
Make me complete
Everlasting greed
Would you please?
Set me free
Fulfill all my needs and make me complete
(Enough)
It was,
Never enough that I gave to you
All of the horror that you've put me through
(Never enough)
How can I make up my mind this time?
This is where I will draw the line
Never again will I be with you
No promise eternal carrying us through
I finally made up my mind this time
This is the end, I've drawn the line
Never enough to devour your greed
*Janis Joplin-Piece of my heart*
Didn't I make you feel like you were the only man -yeah!
Didn't I give you nearly everything that a woman possibly can ?
Honey, you know I did!
And each time I tell myself that I, well I think I've had enough,
But I'm gonna show you, baby, that a woman can be tough.
I want you to come on, come on, come on, come on and take it,
Take it!
Take another little piece of my heart now, baby!
Oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart now, darling, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Oh, oh, have a!
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby,
You know you got it if it makes you feel good,
Oh, yes indeed.
You're out on the streets looking good,
And baby deep down in your heart I guess you know that it ain't right,
Never, never, never, never, never, never hear me when I cry at night,
Babe, I cry all the time!
And each time I tell myself that I, well I can't stand the pain,
But when you hold me in your arms, I'll sing it once again.
I'll say come on, come on, come on, come on and take it!
Take it!
Take another little piece of my heart now, baby.
Oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart now, darling, yeah,
Oh, oh, have a!
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby,
You know you got it, child, if it makes you feel good.
I need you to come on, come on, come on, come on and take it,
Take it!
Take another little piece of my heart now, baby!
oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart, now darling, yeah, c'mon now.
oh, oh, have a
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby.
You know you got it -whoahhhhh!!
Take it!
Take it! Take another little piece of my heart now, baby,
Oh, oh, break it!
Break another little bit of my heart, now darling, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
Oh, oh, have a
Have another little piece of my heart now, baby, hey,
You know you got it, child, if it makes you feel good.
*Accept-Seawinds*
In the cold and dark december
As I'm walking through the rain
Sit beside the room all night long
In the grey december morning
(I decide to leave my home).................... [this is therion's
Interperatation on their cover of the song]
Took a train to nowhere- far away- far away
Many thousand miles away
When the moon took to the stars
Dreamed about the days- days gone by- days gone by
In the night, the seawinds are calling
And the city is far far away
Soon the sea turns to darkness
It is night and the seawinds are calling
Seawinds gone, seawinds gone
Ten thousand miles away
Where the moon took to the stars
Dreamed about the days- days gone by
I've been told so many stories
Of dreams my friends have made
So is no illusion- sail away- sail away
*Therion-Birth Of Venus Illegitima*
Aphrodite is rising from the shell.
A newly born to be seen to expel from the paradise,
to drink from her well.
O Venus Illegitima
Born again without shame
Child of sin is my name
Aphrodite is falling into the hell of her sins and the lust
for that spell of the forbidden nectar from her well
*Nirvana-Polly*
Polly wants a cracker
I think I should get off her first
I think she wants some water
To put out the blow torch
isn't me
Haven't seen
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
don't cut yourself
want some help
To please myself
I've got some rope
You have been told
promise you
have been true
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
want some help
please myself
Polly wants a cracker
Maybe she would like some food
She asks me to untie her
A chase would be nice for a few
isn't me
Haven't seen
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
want some help
please myself
I've got some rope
You have been told
promise you
have been true
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
want some help
in myself
Polly said
Polly says her back hurts
she's just as bored as me
She caught me off my guard
amazes me, the will of instinct
isn't me
have a seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
want some help
have myself
got some rope
You have been told
promise you
have been true
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
want some help
have myself
Linkovi
***svratite***
http://odbijodavde.blog.hr
http://kissarmyfan.blog.hr
http://lanac.blog.hr
http://odjebiteodnas.blog.hr
**SlikE**
*no name*
Pokušavam obuzdati osjećaje,
izbrisati slike iz glave...
Trudim se i dalje ali mi nikako ne ide,
..sada je to dio mene
ne osjećam ništa osim vrućine koja
mi protječe venama,
...postaje nepodnošljivo,
svaki me korak po malo
ubija,ali ja
i dalje hodam...
(samo ponekad zastanem)...
ali ne odustajem....
propadam sve više..
gdje je smisao
kako da shvatim
ništa nema značenja
samo simboli moje patnje
osjećam ih sada svuda po tijelu
boli...grize...
duša me napušta...
sve je gotovo..
ovo mora da je...kraj....****
*Anathema-Hope*
I was not put here by anyone in fear
I came alone as me
Just an idea in a long chain of discovery
Surrounded by the same you
Sometimes your tide pulls me out to sea
And I die in a thrashing curse
Sometimes we are kind
More often, I doze
So far up the beach that those who try to reach are burnt
alive in the searing heat of the desert of my dispassion
So far removed, I never hear the water
'Cept once or twice a month when I see a mirror
And I refuse to believe in some of the things that are said to be here
Let alone those that are not
I'm trying to change my direction
Ours is pathetic in my own humble estimation
*Silverchair-Suicidal dream*
I dream about, how it's going to end,
Approaching me quickly,
Leaving a life of fear,
I only want my mind to be clear,
People, making fun of me,
For no reason but jealousy,
I fantasise about my death,
I'll kill myself from holding my breath,
My suicidal dream,
Voices telling me what to do,
My suicidal dream,
I'm sure you will get yours too,
Help me, comfort me,
Stop me from feeling what I'm feeling now,
The rope is here,
Now I'll find a use,
I'll kill myself,
I'll put my head in a noose,