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Nothing tastes so good as thin feels...
Ovaj blog nije namjenjen promoviranju poremećaja u prehrani. On je isključivo podrška drugim ženama koje već pate od anoreksije.
Moje mjere:
Visina: 181
Kilaža: 60 kg
BMI: 17.8
Cilj: 53 kg
"Success is getting up just one more time than you fall"
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Beauty, as in sculpture, is not when you have something to add, it is when you have nothing to remove...
Eat to live, don't live to eat
Feed me
Oh baby if only you knew
I'm down to a hundred-and-two
Oh baby if only you know
Oh baby...
I had a hole in my heart
So I threw away my plate
Cause nothing would fill me up
Whatever I ate
Oh baby if only you knew
I don't know what to do
Oh baby if only you knew
Oh baby...
Fading away
Cause there's nothing I can do
I hate myself
And I love you
Oh baby if only you knew
Whenever I think, I think of you
Oh baby if you only knew...
My baby
I'm hungry
Oh baby
Runaway
Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
Guilty by association
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Courage
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go
Bleed like me
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Doodle takes Dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
Oh, c'mon baby can you bleed like me
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
And try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
2 ANA
Who are you to come to me
as I lay within this pine.
Who are you to shed those tears
to claim that all was fine.
Who are you to call me friend
and say I will be missed.
Who are you to touch my hand
with one as cold and stiff.
Who are you to praise my past,
and steal my life of joy.
Who are you to take this task,
with hopes to fill your void.
Who are you to firm your lies,
with words that condescend.
Who are you to say good-bye,
at my journeys end.
Perfect
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
On my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
by:JRR Tolkien
hej najdraže moje,
Baš sam ponovno pročitala moj zadnji post i nemogu vjerovati koliko sam tad depresivna bila. Sad sam drastično bolje i moglo bi se čak reći da sam happy :) Svi imamo svoje depresivne faze i mislim da je normalno da i ja ponekad popizdim i budem ful tužna i u kurcu, kaj ne??!
Anyway, danas sam na mjesečevoj dijeti. Počelo je u 3 i 15 i baš me zanima rezultat sutra. Zabavnije mi je voditi vodene dane po mjesečevoj dijeti nego na neki običan dan, a osim toga primjetila sam da je po mjesečevoj rezultat na vagi puuuno bolji!
Ne znam za vas, ali ja za 8 dana putujem na more i toliko sam uzbuđena da nemogu spavat! Nema obaveza, nema smoga u Zagrebu...samo ekipa, sunce, more i uživancija....
Inače, ljetujem na murteru pa ako neka od vas tamo ljetuje ili će biti u prolazu ili ljetuje negdje u blizini mogle bi se upoznat i otić na kavu. Na moru mi uvijek dobro dođe podrška jer se toliko opustim da počnem previše jesti i piti alkohol što također jaako deblja...
Nemam baš puno vremena jer se moram spremat za van pa će ovaj post bit kratak. U svakom slučaju, nadam se da sve odlično napredujete u ovim odlučnim danima prije mora i da ste sve zadovoljne i sretne. Znam da naši životi znaju bit sranje jer nas opsesija za ljepotom psihički ubija, ali po ljeti nema mjesta ni vremena za takve emocije. Ja maksimalno potiskujem depru zbog nejedenja jer znam da je to jedini način da budem sretna.
Sve vas puno pozdravljam i šaljem vam pusu! Pa pa
Bože kako je vani vruće...
A ja sam potpuno prazna....
Sedativi i tablete me uspavljuju...
Alkohol me čini oholom...
Žileti ostavljaju ožiljke...
Od nikotina se raspadam iznutra...
Hrana me čini debelom...
Kad ću pronaći nešto što će me ispuniti?
Voljela bih prestati raditi stvari kojima si toliko štetim...Ali ipak, eto me, u 5 popodne, s punom čašom vodke, omamljena šakom lexaurina, s pljugom u ustima i kruljenjem u želucu....Hoće li to ikada prestati? Hoće li mi itko pomoći? Vjerojatno neće, jer nikada neće saznati...
Najdraže,
Ne znam jeste li svjesne toga, ali danas je 5.6 što nam ostavlja još samo mjesec dana do mora, plaže, mini badića itd.... Koliko god se veselim moru nemogu prestati misliti na to hoću li uspjeti postići kilažu koju sam planirala imati na moru.
Trenutno sam na proteinskoj dijeti sa još par leptirica i moram priznati da sam zadovoljna. Ne muči me glad jer dijeta dozvoljava meso i povrće u bilo kojim količinama (naravno bez prejedanja i pretjerivanja). Još se nisam izvagala ali mi se čini da sam već nakon 3 dana postigla neki rezultat. Ali iskreno, strašno mi fale moji voćni jogurti i voće na koje sam se totalno navikla otkad sam počela sa tim svojim dijetama. Meso sam prije skoro izbacila iz prehrane a zamjenila ga sa hrpetinama voća koje mi sad jaaaako fali. Ma preživjet ću još 3 dana dijete i onda opet prijeć na bioaktiv! :)
E da, skoro sam zaboravila.... Da li netko od vas zna kako točno anti baby pilule ( Jasmin) mogu utjecati na moju dijetu? Mislim, pijem ih već 3 mjeseca zajedno sa par frendica i sve smo se zdebljale oko 3 kg što je normalna nuspojava kod anti baby, ali čini mi se da mnogo teže mršavim otkad ih pijem. Je li to moguće? Znam da ovo pitanje zvuči kao iz onih rubrika u Ok i Teen časopisima koje sam čitala ko klinka, ali stvarno me zanima :)
Anyway, nadam se da je i kod vas sve pod kontrolom i da ste skoro spremene za more! We can do this! Kissach
