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Nothing tastes so good as thin feels...
Ovaj blog nije namjenjen promoviranju poremećaja u prehrani. On je isključivo podrška drugim ženama koje već pate od anoreksije.
Moje mjere:
Visina: 181
Kilaža: 60 kg
BMI: 17.8
Cilj: 53 kg
"Success is getting up just one more time than you fall"
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Beauty, as in sculpture, is not when you have something to add, it is when you have nothing to remove...
Eat to live, don't live to eat
Feed me
Oh baby if only you knew
I'm down to a hundred-and-two
Oh baby if only you know
Oh baby...
I had a hole in my heart
So I threw away my plate
Cause nothing would fill me up
Whatever I ate
Oh baby if only you knew
I don't know what to do
Oh baby if only you knew
Oh baby...
Fading away
Cause there's nothing I can do
I hate myself
And I love you
Oh baby if only you knew
Whenever I think, I think of you
Oh baby if you only knew...
My baby
I'm hungry
Oh baby
Runaway
Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
Guilty by association
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
Courage
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go
Bleed like me
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Doodle takes Dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
Oh, c'mon baby can you bleed like me
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
And try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
2 ANA
Who are you to come to me
as I lay within this pine.
Who are you to shed those tears
to claim that all was fine.
Who are you to call me friend
and say I will be missed.
Who are you to touch my hand
with one as cold and stiff.
Who are you to praise my past,
and steal my life of joy.
Who are you to take this task,
with hopes to fill your void.
Who are you to firm your lies,
with words that condescend.
Who are you to say good-bye,
at my journeys end.
Perfect
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
On my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
by:JRR Tolkien
Sretan Božić svima!
Žao mi je što nisam stigla prije pisati, ali stvarno sam bila zatrpana različitim obiteljskim i emotivnim obavezama!Ne znam za vas, ali ja sam presretna što je Božić napokon gotov i što je kolača ostalo još jako malo:)
Nadam se da ste bile jake ovih par kriznih dana i da ste sad ponosne na svoju izdržljivost...Ja priznajem da sam jedan dan malo pokleknula, no nadoknadila sam to sljedeći dan...
Za kraj vam ostavljam još jednu pjesmicu, uživajte...Pusa velika svima!
Beauty
It`s funny how life brought me
Where I never thought I`d be
And I must trust nobody
I can just count on me
I have seen this coming
It was a matter of days
I`ve walked the path of sin
Now I`m the one who pays
People somehow don`t understand
How it`s hard to feel like a pig
And that this is the only way
For me to stop feeling so big
I have defined my priorities
And the things which come first
I will strictly follow the rules
Even when I`ll feel like I`ll burst
To me beauty is everything
It is my one and only wish
I will fulfill this dream of mine
Even through an empty dish
Hello curke moje mršave!
Nadam se da vam se planovi polako realiziraju i da ste sve bliže cilju. Vjerojatno se slažete sa mnom da je sad iznimno teško razdoblje za sve drastične dijete zbog kraja školskog polugodišta i zadnjih kolokvija prije praznika jer nam zbog iscrpljenosti i stresa jednostavno trebaju ti užasni ugljikohidrati…Osim toga i Božić je skoro tu pa će nam svima kuće uskoro biti pune pita, torti, kolačića, parfea i naših ostalih zakletih neprijatelja. Božićno vrijeme nam je uvijek najteže no uz čeličnu volju i živce odolit ćemo svim kobnim iskušenjima. Želim vam puno sreće u tome…trebat će nam
Svima vama koje ste na strogim vodenim dijetama i cijeli tjedan pijete samo vodu i zeleni čaj, preporučila bih vam da uz to svaki dan unesete u organizam malo fruktoze koje ima u voću jer ćete brže mršaviti. Vjerujte mi, frendica iz škole je non stop na dijetama i studirat će molekularnu biologiju i medicinu i vjerujem joj kad kaže da se organizam ne može pokrenuti da troši naše vlastite masne zalihe ukoliko ne unesemo barem neku sitnu krutu tvar.
Ja sam osobno već 4 dana na toj „vodenoj dijeti“ ali svaki dan pojedem svježi kravlji sir ili nešto voća jer ne da se samo bolje osjećam nego i učinkovitije mršavim. Kad smo već kod toga, htjela bih vam se pohvaliti da sam u prošlih mjesec dana skinula 5.5 kg i da sam sa odvratnih 71 kg došla na simpatičnu brojku 55.5 kg! Jako sam sretna i puno se bolje osjećam ali ne namjeravam se zanositi i entuzijastično prežderavati jer preda mnom je još dug put do savršenstva….
Za kraj vam ostavljam pjesmu koju sam danas napisala po ubitačnim satom matematike!
Pusa svima i držite mi se!
Highway to perfection
I must be stronger than hunger
And stand proud on my feet
For hunger may be painful
But it makes me feel complete
I must be disguisted by the food
And realize it is not my friend
For food is enemy and a traitor
It just pushes me to the end
I must be smarter than my mother
And convince her that I do eat
For she might take my Ana away
With just one whole slice of meat
I must be faster than death itself
At least until I loose 50 pounds
For then my bones will be visable
They shall shine without making any sounds…
Danas, nakon što sam malo došla k sebi nakon izlaska, ponestalo mi je cigareta pa sam se zaletila u kvart do dućana. Na putu sam srela bivšu frendicu iz osnovnjaka koja je uvijek bila...recimo malo jača i deblja. Fasciniralo me je to što je imala kratku suknju, majicu koja joj je isticala pupak(ako se ta nakupina sala uopće može tako nazvati) i slatkog dečka pod rukom. Ta cura pršti od samopouzdanja iako je stvarno ružno debela. Ne znam zašto ja ne mogu imati takav stav prema svom tijelu a sigurna sam da imam barem 70 kg manje od nje...Zašto ja moram zastati pored svakog zrcala pored kojeg prođem i baciti pogled na svoj degutantan odraz. Zašto mene noću uspavljuje napad anksioznosti i nesvjestica od gladi a nju big mac sa svim dodacima...Ali koliko god mi se život ponekd čini nepravednim i koliko god sam na rubu zbog svojeg stanja, čvrsto sam sigurna da ću uskoro ja biti ta koja će ponosno pokazivati svoj čvrst trbuščić i košćate noge....
Držte se curke...pozz
"Ako objesiš kupaći kostim na frižider, poslasticama unutra će biti lakše odoljeti..."
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