Merry Christmas...to you all

Christmas time.People bustling in the streets..



Little lamps of white,blue and red shine opon the happy faces of everyone as they hurry to buy their loved ones presents they desired.The scent of roasting chestnuts,cooked wine and hot dog is heavily laced with the chilly winter´s air...

A lone figure stands among the masses passing by.Like a rock admist a mountain stream.
Ghosts from the past dance before her eyes...taunting,torturing,reminding her of better times.
Times when she was a part of the joy.A part of the holiday happiness.A part...





...A little girl holding her stuffed animal sat on a couch beside a richly decorated Christmas tree as she laughed into the camera.An elderly male sat beside her with his arm around her smaller frame,smilling down at her chicken-poxed face just as the photo-camera flashed capturing the moment for all eternity.A second later she was hugging him,thanking her beloved grandfather for the plushie present...



Someone bumps into her,breaking her away from the memories.She starts walking towards her awaiting friend that is getting rapidly annoyed.A small child holding onto her parent´s hand crosses her path and she falters for a moment.

"Stvarno ne razumijem koji je tvoj problem!Kadgod počnu blagdani postaneš nesretna i melankolična.Ne znam ni zašto ti smetaju božične pjesme.."

Finally reaching her friend´s side,she stays quiet as they continue on their way trying to walk through the hurrying crowd.Walking past numerous huts with handmade gifts and trinkets,she feels an ache from deep within.Her friend starts to sing along the tunes of an obnoxious tree decoration.



Rolling her eyes at the stupidity of this action,she ponders for a bit her obvious...issues with this holiday in particular.It is a very family-time-of-the-year,where long forgotten relatives come bargin through your front door demanding for a hot meal.The time of the year were everyone smiles cheekily into eachother´s faces yet wishing for the other´s untimely death nevertheless.The time when they cover themselves in false impressions trying to act as if everything was ideal,but continue with their bickering the minute it all ends.
Her mind strays to another time...

..Everyone gathered at the table from which a heavenly aroma wafted about,the mouthwatering sight of splendidly arranged dishes inviting the cheerful occupants.The happiness was contagious.Smiles springing to life on each of the faces seated.Digging into the delicious food,they failed to notice a girl observing them quietly from her spot at the table.The grin that broke on her face was a pale projection of the joy and fullfilment that she felt from the inside..

Eyes focused again,she notices her friend chattering away,refusing to acknowledge her somber mood.She smiles bemused at her antics.She,herself did not wish to feel this way,but Gods,she wanted to feel like that once again.To be sweped away by the Christmas spirit,basking in the light of the glowing decorations,surround herself with dear friends and people she loved,to be free for just a little while sensing her heart and soul soaring high...high from here..



So its quite simple..
Follow me
Only one thing
And you are happy
At least for a moment
At least for a second
At least...
Just -
....
...
..
smile
smile
smile
smile
and smile.

At least for these holidays lets pretend as well.Let´s smile..



.....and have a happy Christmas.